MOVIES

I am so wanted to see The Golden Compass movie coz I m a big fan on Nicole Kidman. I actually had put efforts to book the tickets – first was on Tuesday, but then cancelled because Zuzu was not well (I planned to ask my sister to babysit for a while but Zuzu was merengek-rengek so I just x sampai hati to leave her). Then I booked again yesterday, but again, it was cancelled. How I wish that Zuzu is a big girl so that we can go watching movies together-gether.
Anyway, just nak luahkan perasaan kat sini. That’s it. I know that it will never come true....tunggulah 5-6 tahun lagi cerita nih tayang kat tv masa X’mas :(

GOODBYE

Date : Nov 20, 2007
Time : 7.30 pm
Venue : Putra Medical Centre

Seeing the O&G specialist, Dr. Zarul.

Dr. Zarul : Can I help you?
Me : I m about 2 months pregnant, and i am having bleeding since last 2 days.
Dr. Zarul : Oh..can we go to scanning room?
Me : Sure
After scanning
Dr. Zarul : Can u see the black thing here? this is the embryonic sac. Now, as you can see your embryonic sac is empty, and thru this ultrasound there is no heartbeat detected, and also no embryo observed. Unfortunately i have to say that u are having what we call a "miss abortion", kind of a miscarriage.
Me : Oww......
Dr.Zarul : I advise u to do D&C ASAP. I will prepare a letter to the hospital for the operation.ok?
Me : Ok, i'll wait outside.
Outside the room, i cried over Zuzu's and Amet's shoulder. It just last weekend i went surveying for pregy's blouses and pants. And googleing on newborn’s and baby's stuffs. And preparing to buy Obimin again with this month's salary. But now...it is no more...I am so sad no words can tell.

Date : Nov 21,2007
Time : 2.00 pm
Venue : Gynae ward, Hospital Selayang

After waiting for 4 hours at emergency room, they sent me to be warded. The doctor checked and scanned again, and confirmed my baby is no more going to develop.

Doctor : Well, i have no choice but to give u medicine tmrow morning to induce contraction so that the blood and probably the embryo sac can come out by itself. Otherwise u have to go for D&C. Pls bear in mind, when u go to toilet, keep watching if any blood clots or something look like fish meat come out, then u immediately call nurse, ok?

Date : Nov 22, 2007
Time : 10.00 a.m
Venue : Operation theatre

Doctor : Hi, I m Dr. Shahril,the anaesthetician. I will give u anaesthetic in a while, and this will make u unconscious during the operation. Ok I m giving u injection now. Baca bismillah, mengucap dua kalimah syahadah ya..
Me : Bismillahirramanirrahim....Ashhaduallaailaahaillallah wa ashhaduannamuhammadarrasulullah... And yeah...Goodbye my dear, my baby, we will see each other again in another world...Bye bye...
And I fall asleep, a deep one.

1.00 pm
“Miss Yuzaini...Miss Yuzaini..wake up....ur operation is finished”.
I slowly opened my eyes. Blur. Pening. Drowsy. “Saya nak muntah...uwekk..”
After about half an hour, I felt more stable. Ditolak semula ke wad. Nurses helped to change my operation gown. Still feel a bit weak.
Hungry. I ve been fasting for 13 hours. Nurses sent me food, I eat slowly and feel more energized.
Take a short nap.
After a while, wake up and walk around the ward. Asking nurse if I can go home today. Doctor come and check. Ok can go home.

I am safe. But she/he is not. Goodbye.

PAIN

Night - went to toilet. "Abang!!!! Ada darah...!!!"
"Hahh? Byk ka? Ayg siap2, jom abg bawak pi klinik"
"Takmau, ayg takut...Takpalah, tunggu dulu tengok esok mcm mana.Ayg bleh tahan lagi nih."

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Next morning - feeling very painful. This is how I feel the day before I gave birth to Zuzu. Rasa senak, mcm period pain, tp berpanjangan and it comes and goes in like every 10 minutes. And I have this pain since last few days. But last night and today it become worse. I feel like I want to crawl in the blanket with a pillow on my tummy. It is so damn painful.

Now I feel so guilty. I did lots of heavy stuff even though I already know it is there. I went to factory helping out operators – angkat shipper boxes (with the contents inside), buat product sorting, tolak troli. Balik rumah mop lantai, angkat laundry bag yg satu minggu punya isi, angkat dan mandikan Zuzu yg dah dekat 8kg aku rasa, and all the house chores. Sepatutnya masa ni aku keja ringan2 ja. Kalau takde org nak tolong buat, patutnya aku biar ja kain baju tu berkulat kat situ. Biaq ja pinggan mangkuk penuh bertimbun, membuak-buak kat singki tu. Tapi aku rimas tengok tempat tak terurus, so aku buat jugak semua keja tuh.

Now only I regret of everything I did, and I feel so bad. And now only I feel that I cant accept to loose you...please...please....stay with me....

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I just come back from the wash room. And I saw blood, again, more than yesterday. And I cried. And I keep praying hard.
I’m going off – to the clinic - NOW.

CHERATING, PAHANG

Tetiba ja last Saturday, Amet bangun tidoq dan terus ajak pi Cherating. Ntah apa yg dia mimpi malam tu. Ada org buang harta karun kat sana kot. so kemas-kemas barang, stat keta, geraklah ke Cherating...tetiba ja dah sampai. Gila betoi 3 ekoq anak beranak nih.
and here few pix taken..



"Ibu..saya nak swimming lagi!!! Saya sgt suka air.."

I TO HAVE DECISION

Entahla taktau nak tulis hape dah skrg nih. Banyak gak benda yg nak cerita. Tp cam semua cerita tak best jerh. Cam asyik bersedih hati je. Byk hal yg misunderstanding, tiada persefahaman, tiada co-operation, tak kira sama ada di ofis mahupun di rumah. Kedua-dua tempat ni langsung tidak aman bagi aku.
Hmmm..kalaulah aku jutawanis, dh lama aku bawak baby gi melancong tempat best2, yg jauh2 dr orang. Tp malangnya aku cuma mampu bwk dia jalan2 kat OU or The Curve je utk mententeramkan jiwa. Huhuhu...

Actually aku ada jugak satu exciting news nak kongsi. Tapi mcm tak bersedia lagi nak cerita. Aku mmg excited sangat2 bila dapat news ni. Tapi since hati ni asyik sedih je, so aku letakkan dulu cerita ni kat sebelah. kdg2 rasa mcm malas nak pikir pun ada. Mcm ah kalau jadi, jadilah. Kalau tak jadi pun takpa. I wont really pay attention to it. Aku lebih banyak fikir mcm mana nak jauhkan diri dari kesedihan hidup aku ni,buat selama-lamanya. Aku nak happy2, aku takmau sedih2 lagi. However, pls don’t think aku akan cuba meninggalkan dunia. Tapi mungkin aku boleh meninggalkan ‘subjek/orang’ yg menyebabkan kesedihan itu. Aku betul2 tengah berfikir keras. Aku dah tak kuase hari2 berlinangan air mata. Aku dah tak kuase hari2 sakit kepala, sakit hati, sakit telinga. Aku dah tak kuase hari2 buang masa pikir nak selesaikan benda masalah ni. Aku dah tahu siapa racunnya. So lebih baik aku buang je racun tu jauh2.

Aku tahu perubahan ni akan menjadi terlalu besar kesannya dalam hidup aku dan dia dan semua yg terlibat. Tapi aku harus pilih. Biarlah aku meraung dan melalak sekali yg terakhir ini, tapi terus hidup bahagia tanpa air mata di masa depan.

BUKIT TINGGI RESORT PAHANG

Celebrate Deepavali kat atas bukit. tak la best sangat tempat nih.tapi boleh la sekadar nak jamu mata, tengok suasana konon-konon macam kat Jepun, kat France. and kitorg pun mcm prepare la bawak sweater semua konon-konon takut sejuk menggigil la. sekali hah tengok org lain yg pakai singlet pun ada. hahaha...langsung tak sejuk pun...


Ibu kat Japanese Garden. Dah lama tak posing sorang2 nih. inilah masanya...yeahh!!!


Ayah macam org India, anak mcm org Jepun....


Yuehoooo...bersama kereta baruku. siap ada publish no plat...so sapa2 nampak saya kat jalan, tolong jgn langgar ye....


Suamiku yg terchenta....



Ibu muka blur. Zuzu berlakon konon-konon mcm sejuk gila siap pakai snow cap. Hahahaa..

SOULMATE?

when you have someone that you love (very much), you will say to yourself – yes, this is my soulmate, and I will leave with him ever after. He will be my best friend, my other-side, my everything (nyanyi lagu My Everything).

But then you always find him not acting as a good friend, or at least as a friend.

1.When you are telling him stories, he will interrupt and come with his own stories not listening to you anymore.

2. When you are telling him problems at work, he closed his ears and say “dah..dah..dah takmau dengaq semua tu. Its your problem”. While you wake up at 4 a.m just to listen to his problems with the modemn, router and all IT-thingy that you don’t even have any idea what is it. But you still listen, smile and nodding like you really really understand it.

3.When you ask him question, he will scream like you are a deaf.when you dont understand the answer, he get angry and scream again.

3.When you ask for his help to look after the baby just for one hour because you want to have a short, deep nap and because you are sick (morning sickness?), he refused to and continue watching TV and just let the baby crying and screaming like her throat is coming out.

These are just few example to think about.

For me, I will make a conclusion that this is NOT a soulmate. Now, you can do your own business, settle your own problems, cook your own food and you ll have to taste my curse that you will suffer! You can go to hell, while I will choose my own paradise. Thank you.

Hari ni kami balik kampongg!!! Yeeayyyy!!!!

LITTLE PENANG CAFE @ THE CURVE

Yesterday, our buka puasa was at Little Penang Café @ The Curve. Memula ingatkan nak makan kat Thai Express. Tapi tetiba ada org suggest Litle Penang. So I tot why not just give a try. They offer ala carte so I chose to have Hokkien Prawn Mee while Amet had Chicken Nasi Lemak, and our side dish was Lor Bak – it’s chicken meat prep with herbs, wrapped in beancurd skin (well ok, chinese used to use pork but this one is just chicken ok. So don’t make muka geli please... )

But choice for beverages is so limited. I expected to have cham ais or at least kopi ais, but its not in their list so I tried Red Bean Soya and Amet just go for Coke. The food was just nice, ok la at least better than Ikea. My prawn mee is a bit tawar (compared to other places – I m a fan of Hokkien prawn mee), and kurang bahan (shredded chicken, taugeh, bawang goreng, telur, fish cake and of coure the prawn itself).

But we kinda enjoy the food, plus the ambience environment has cool us down. And Zuzu was so~o baik, she fall asleep just before waktu berbuka so I let her dreaming in the stroller.

After makan, we went to jalan-jalan in the curve. Went to all the toys shop there. Just survey2 toys for Zuzu. Found a play mat with toys hanging on it so might buy one for her next month (bulan ni gaji ibu dah habis beli baju raya ok..).

And oh ya, yesterday also got a good news from the bank. Hiihihihi....tapi xleh cakap lagi. Rahsia....Bila dah betul2 confirm nanti baru kita story ok..

IKEA & IKANO

Semalam, bukak posa kat IKEA. They have a buffet at the very reasonable price of RM15.90 but the dishes were...so yucky! They just serve a normal white rice, with choices of tasteless lauk pauk like beef curry, pajeri sotong and nenas, ayam masak merah, ayam with ratouille, sayur campur, sayur kangkung and keropoks. They also have dessert, choices of biskut raya (makmur,tat nenas and don’t-know-wat-kuih), bingka, puddings, and fruits. And also ice-cream which I think the only one that I had enjoy a lot. Put a curse to IKEA Ramadhan Buffet as we need to queue for about 45 minutes. Yeahh...it is veeeerrry loooonggg....and it is so crowded with people. Duhh...

Some more while baru sikit je start makan, Zuzu start to make noise (yeah her sleeping time is at 7.00 p.m), so I took her to the baby room, which is very small and uncomfortable as they just put a piece of curtain to separate the breastfeeding area.
And don’t expect to replenish your dishes as all the buffet served is only cukup2 for one portion per person. So bad you call this “a buffet”? Lucky I m not really a big eater and Amet also muak already. So we just blah from there.

Then just tot to take a ‘brisk walking’ in Ikano. Went to World of Cartoon just to tengok2 the toys and baby’s stuffs (kind of updates for an up-to-date mom like me haa~~). Then while jalan2, suddenly my eyes caught the Brands Outlet signage so just tot to step in to have a look. But after looking and looking, cannot tahan my tangan, so just grabbed 3 pairs baju for Zuzu. Hahahaha so jahat kan tangan ni?

Then went back and snap some pictures of Zuzu in baju baru...tadaaa...

:( SAD STORIES :(

These few days has lots of sad/bad things happened. Well, as I;ve already told before, my loan keep going be rejected everywhere. Looks like all the dealers already give up to submit my application to the banks. Huhuhu...so kesian kan. Yue is so desperate for a new car...

Then second thing is happen on last weekend where I fall down masa pergi kedai untuk beli makanan buka posa. Dah la sakit, malu lagi. Adoi....dan sakitnya bukan sikit, sampai hari ni tangan dan pinggang aku still got bruises and pain.

Then, on the last weekend jugak, aku telah tidak sengaja membiarkan Zuzu jatuh dari katil. Well, actually pagi tu aku continue tdoq lepas sahur since it is a holiday. Si budak Zuzu ni pulak jenis yg suka bangun awal pagi. So masa pukul 7 tu dia dah bangun dan dok gelak2 kat sebelah aku (atas katil). Since dia tak nangis,so aku just biar dan pejamkan mata. Then tetiba jer aku dengar bunyi like something jatuh. Aku bukak mata and tengok Zuzu is not there! Aku terus cepat2 tengok kat bawah and saw her terlangkup kat tepi katil. As usual, she cried sikit je (aku rasa dia ni jenis yg tahan sakit kot sbb masa kena cucuk kt klinik hari tu pun nangis skt jugak). Aku takut gile terus cek badan dia semua. Nasib baik takde luka atau lebam. Gila sedih and feel guilty. Since she’s now suka melonjak2 and dah pandai pusing2 I think its better not to put her on my bed anymore...huhuhu...

Sekian,hope things will be better for the week ahead..Duhh

LEPAS GERAM 1

Aaahhh...rasa bengong sikit hari ni. Pagi-pagi lagi dah ada ‘orang gila’ kacau aku. Aaaa...bengang gila. Actually “she” is from (the hell) one of our supplier that I really have to have a close contact with. My boss seems want to pass “this shit” (refer to the girl) to me since the very first day I join. Now I know why. The one thing that aku paling paling benci bout her is sker sgt cakap dengan high tones. Mmg gillerrr ah menatang nih. Pastu sker sangat bg reasons untuk ngelat. Ok for example, bile aku suruh dia prepare monthly inventory report, (which is actually aku dah siap preparekan dia punya form, and she just need to feel in the figure-) pun she takes bout 3 weeks. And bila aku call push2 dia akan menjawab “Aaa..belum siap lagi. Tolong bg time ek. Kite mmg sibuk sgt. Lg pun hari ada kursus...and bla bla”. Bila aku call lg esoknya “Oh hr ni clerk kite cuti la..” and the next day “Tak sure la bila bleh siap, hr ni kitorg ada metg spnjg hari la..” and so and so. Mcm la susah sgt just isi je la ruang2 kosong tu. Aku dah tolong suap pun tak tau nak telan lagi ke. Usually aku yg akan bertungkus lumus prepare everything (eventho that’s her responsibilities – biasa la I used to be an angel), and what I always ask her to do is just simple2 jobs je (bukannya aku suruh kau buat bl*w job pun). Itupun xleh. And u shuld know wat is her title – she is the Quality Manager of a pharmaceutical manufacturer and she is just 25 years old, ok? Ohhh... I wonder... She cant even give a right answer for simple maths question like 2-1 = ? How come she can be a manager all? Wat a f*ck*ng budak mentah! Hingusan! (Posa ni…)
Mcmana aku maki pun, aku tau that she will never change. Dan aku akan terus berurusan dengan dia, unless one of us leave the company (Oooppss.hopefully not me).




LEPAS GERAM 2

Well, actually this week ends up with me waiting for good news yg tak akan kunjung tiba. I’ve tried to apply for car loan (Has been bout 2 weeks aredi..sob sob). And it’s for a brand-new car, ok. I have the money. But it’s useless when your name got stucked in that stupid CTOS and CCRIS. In fact I hv paid all my credit card hutang – and I hv even got released letter from the bank. And CCRIS because my kereta kancil is not paid properly – well, we still pay but for every 2-3 months time. That cause my name to be “not clear” in bank negara list. Actually I’ve been trying with few dealers where they hv also tried their best to merayu the bank to give me the loan (of course they also wants the commission), but I still got it rejected in everywhere. Poor me,huh? So now, I might just forget the idea and instead must start paying the kancil properly and re-apply again in the next 6 months. Kesiannyaa.....

So today, I hv a plan like this : Go home early, tapau for berbuka puasa (Amet x ada kat umah,dia berbuka dengan kawan-kawannya), and then me and Zuzu go to keluarkan all my salary, then go for A BIIIIGGGGG SHOPPING kat OU. And maybe pamper myself with a manicure also seems like a brilliant idea right? And I m thnking of buying a breastfeeding blouse for myself too. Not forgetting few pairs of baju kerja. And of course will try to get skirts for Zuzu (Auuww...sexy anak ibu..). Oh by the way, dah lama jugak aku tak beli lipstick – shuld get a new one la for Hari Raya kan.
Dah? Habis tu nak buat apa tengok jerh duwit tuh , dah takleh beli keta, baik aku beli baju banyak2.(I don’t mean to be arrogant here ok, I just want to cure my broken heart. Sob sob Sob...) and I think shopping is the best therapy anyway...

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Semalam, bawak Zuzu cucuk kat klinik kesihatan. Esok, Zuzu dah umur 3 bulan. Happy 3rd Months Bithday Sayang...
Semalam, shopping baju raya untuk abang, ayang, mak, ayah, tok, nenek....rasa sangat bahagia...
Semalam, dapat satu panggilan. Tiba-tiba yang bahagia menjadi derita, yg gembira menjadi duka...
Ada yg menjadi mangsa, susuk tubuh dihentam semahunya...
Tiada lagi gelak ketawa, hanya tangisan yg bergema...
Pilunya hati tidak terkata, terasa sayu dan sangat hiba...
Saat itu, yang berlegar di kepala, aku mahukan harta!!!
Apakah hanya harta yang dapat membahagiakan kita?
Hanya anak kecil yg ada, untuk menghibut lara...
Namun luka itu, tak akan hilang sampai bila-bila...

**Sigh** Nasib baik kat public,kalau kat rumah,mesti hari ni dah dok dalam kain kapan **Sigh**

SOLID FOOD, ZUZU?Huwarghh..ngantuknyaa...Sejak dah ada Zuzu ni,aku pun tak tau berapa jam ja aku dapat tido dalam sehari. Kadang2 ada hari yg aku tak tidoq langsung! Maybe just sempat tersengguk-sengguk kepala kat tepi katil ja. Kalau weekend pun, jangan mimpilah kata nak tidoq lama-lama sampai tengah hari. Perghh....letih gila siot. Dah la tak leh nak tidoq, nak rehat relax-relax pun mmg tak dak masa. Pinggang aku ni punyalah sakit rasa mcm nak putus.

Biasanya aku balik keja sampai umah dalam pukul 6 lebih, kalau tak masak, aku akan singgah tapau kat kedai siap2. Tapi kdg2 bila teringat sgt kat Zuzu, terus bergegas balik umah tanpa membeli apa2 makanan. Last2 sampai umah dah takdak apa benda nak makan (kecuali bulan puasa ni Amet boleh tolong belikan sebab dia pun balik awai jugak). Bila dah ambik Zuzu balik umah, dia memang nak melekat ja dengan aku. Letak atas tilam ja mulalh merengek-rengek. Satu keja pun takleh nak buat kalau dia tak tidoq. Kalau dah tidoq pun, buai tu nak kena sentiasa dibuaikan (kena goncang sepanjang masa).Kalau tak, mesti terjaga dan merengek lagi.

Rumah pun dah mcm kena taufan, semak ja x sempat nak kemas.Dah, mcmana la nk kemas kalau dia xmau dok sorang2. Dia suka bila ada org dok layan dia,main2 dgn dia. Actually nak kata dia nangis pun tak jugak. Tapi dia suka merengek bila org tak layan. Dan paling dia suka bila dapat breastfeed. Aku rasa, kalau boleh nak ja dia mintak gonggong breast aku ni 24 jam.

So aku pun ada terfikir nak try bagi dia solid food. Tapi bila aku search-search thru internet, what I found is – better not to give.

RISIKO MEMBERI SOLID FOOD TERLALU AWAL KEPADA BABY :

• mungkin tercekik, atau tersedak
• risiko tinggi untuk terdedah kepada allergy
• Sistem penghadaman bayi yang berusia kurang enam bulan belum matang dan dia tidak dapat menghadam makanan dengan sempurna menyebabkan masalah seperti bayi muntah, sembelit dan juga cirit-birit.
• Penyusuan susu ibu secara eksklusif selama enam bulan dapat mengurangkan risiko gastrointestinal, pernafasan dan jangkitan telinga pada bayi.
• Bayi yang berusia lebih enam bulan dapat mengambil bahagian secara lebih aktif semasa makan seperti mencapai makanan jika masih mahu makan atau berpaling jika sudah kenyang.
• Makanan pejal akan mengurangkan jumlah susu yang bayi ambil.
• Bayi yang makan makanan pejal terlalu awal mempunyai risiko yang lebih tinggi untuk menjadi overweight apabila besar nanti berbanding dengan bayi yang memulakan makanan pejal pada masa yang sesuai.

TANDA-TANDA BABY SUDAH BERSEDIA UTK SOLID FOOD
* Baby dah boleh support kepalanya
* Baby boleh duduk dengan sedikit sokongan daripada kita
* Baby nampak berminat dengan makanan kita… kadang2 dia capai makanan kita
* Baby suka sangat masukkan benda2 dalam mulut dia
* Baby minum lebih dari 32 oz susu ibu/formula sehari
* Berat baby paling kurang 2 kali ganda dari berat masa lahir
* Air liur baby cukup banyak utk digest makanan
* Baby tak tolak makanan kalau disuapkan ke dalam mulut

AMARAN : SOLID FOOD YG TERLALU AWAL TIDAK AKAN...

• membantu baby tido lebih lena pada waktu malam
• membuatkan baby tidak merengek/menangis
• membantu bayi cepat membesar
• memberi khasiat secukupnya

Kepada ibu-ibu bleh la refer kat sini BEST FOOD AT BEST TIME

Lagipun aku ada la plak terjumpa article tentang Farley’s Rusks yg kena withdrawn from market sebab mengandungi bahan kimia terlarang. Lagi la aku takut nak bagi Zuzu makan semua ni. Lagipun dia masih sangat kecik kan.

Well, maybe aku akan cuba bagi Zuzu partial-solid, which is AIR NASIK, sepertimana yg telah diamalkan turun temurun dalam keluarga aku (Note that dlm family aku cuma Kak Ngah ja yg minum susu. Yg lain – Aku, Eid, Amar tak lalu susu, so kami makan air nasik).

Okies, nak balik masak nasik!

FLASHBACK



A great moment to remember. Teringiiiinnnn bangat nak ulang kembali..tapi tahun ni tak de org sponsor laa. Yuran mahal sangat. Nak consider hotel,transport,nak kena bawak laki, anak...Lagipun tak byk exercise la spnjg tahun ni,takut cramp plak. Takpalah simpan ja niat ni maybe utk 2008 buleh join (simpan duit sekali). Huhuhu...saya nak larii.....(bukan lari dari rumah daa...)

SELAMAT BERPUASA

Selamat berpuasa pada semua. Nampak gayanya Insya Allah aku akan dapat berpuasa penuh tahun nih. Apa? Ingat aku pregnant lagi? Tak laaa....tapi disebabkan aku sekarang breastfeeding Zuzu, so period aku akan terstop buat seketika. Begitulah kata doktor dan juga melalui pengalaman mak n mak mertua aku. However, kena berhati-hati ketika ‘bermain’ nih, takut terbuncit plak sekali lagi. Hehehehe....

Tapi puasa tahun ni nampaknya aku tak dapatlah pi terawikh sbb Zuzu masih terlalu kecik takmau nanti she makes any trouble in the surau (Menjerit2 mcm budak2 yg aku selalu curse masa terawikh last year). So maybe lepas bukak posa aku bleh pi merayau2 kat shopping complex ke hapa. Maybe tinjau2 baju raya Zuzu, baju keja aku, kasut keja aku, handbag aku, alat mekap dan kosmetik aku..Hahahaha...




Well lupa plak selama ni nak cerita tentang pengasuh Zuzu. Aku x hantar dia ke nursery, sebaliknya ke rumah jiran yg betul2 terletak atas rumah aku. Nama pengasuh ni Kak Yan, or as dia selalu membahasakan dirinya dengan Zuzu as “Mak” or “Mak Yan”. She still quite young I guess, maybe somwhere around 30’s. Dia Cuma ada sorang anak lelaki darjah 4, dan mengasuh sorang lg budak lelaki berumur 1.5 years. So far aku amat berpuas hati sbb dia x jaga ramai budak, dan rumah dia sgt kemas, dan juga pandai mengasuh, dan dia sgt suka membeli baju untuk Zuzu mcm anak sendiri. Dan dia mmg suka sbb selama ni dia x pernah dapat mengasuh budak pompuan.

Aku harap Mak Yan akan dapat jaga Zuzu sampai besar. Sekian (Xleh nak merapu sbb mengantuk sgt nih)

ZUZU IN ACTION

Sejak dah ada baby ni asyik nak cerita pasal dia je laa...mcm la aku sorang ada anak ek. Mesti org pun naik bosan. Lantaklaa..sapa suruh masuk blog aku. Hahahaha.....

** Posing tidoq tahap x hingat dunia
** Gelak ketawa riang ria...
** My little sweet smile..
** Gaya dah mula nak nangis...

** Zuzu possing with one of the hair clips

THAT'S MY GIRL

Semalam before balik keja aku round2 dulu pasar malam Mount Kiara. Memula ingat saja2 je nak round. Sekali ternampak la plak banyak gila org jual sepit rambut, hairbands, and orther accessories lah. Memula tengok je, pastu rasa mcm geram gila, pastu amoi tu plak dok offer kat aku suruh tengok2. So pas tengok apa lagi, terpaksa la aku rembat 3 pasang hair clips utk Zuzu. Hahaha..best sungguh dapat baby girl nih. Bleh dressing macam-macam....hehehe abg jgn jeles ok...

** Zuzu is wearing Bali-themed gown (Mak Tok Kiah beli kat Sarawak nii..)

ROMANCING AT BORA ASMARA

At last, after few times delayed, Amet and I had a chance to dine at the so-called Bora Asmara (what a romantic name, huh), a charming Balinese-themed restaurant, nestled at the sleepy Sg. Penchala.
I get to know about this restaurant after I found an article in The Star few months ago. But that was at our very hard time – so we decided to delay visiting it until we got a bit extra money to spend.

Last august,20th was our wedding anniversary. We planned to celebrate it somewhere but have to delay because Amet was so busy at work. He came back home at 11 pm everyday, plus working on weekends (boringnyer…). So we just managed to go there last night - 2 weeks belated anniversary.

As we stepped through the wooden doors,.we were impressed with the beautiful decors. The setting is just lovely with beautiful water features, rustic wooden tables and chairs, lit stone lamps, and Balinese decor tastefully placed around the outlet.. A waiter came an offer us a seat. I actually have a plan in mind to seat in one of their private hut called ‘Bisek-bisek’. But we had been given just a small table (reason being that’s the only table left, as other empty tables are reserved/booked). Luckily we put Zuzu in the stroller so that she can sit in that.

Zuzu was sleeping soundly. But as the weather is a bit hot that night, and we were sitting at the open air area with no air-cond or fan, Zuzu suddenly wake up and started to make noise. At first it was kind of “ek ek ek….”, but after few minutes it turned to be a loud cry. Huwaaa…malu giler…
I tried to give her milk (in bottle), but she refused and start to mengamuk. I had no choice but to breastfeed her in front of people. Lucky we sit at quite a dim place, and I wear a tudung so that can cover a bit. Huhh….

And the food arrived, we had Spicy Tom Yam, Steamed Kerapu and Kailan in Oyster Sauce. While for drink Amet chose to have Blended Mocha and for me is their speacilities “Bandrek” – spice + ginger + lemongrass tea. Well, I can say that I’m a bit disappointed with the food. Instead of huge prawns found inside, the Tom Yam just taste like curry and no smell of lime leaves or corriander. I am one of Tom Yam fan and I know how to differentiate between bad and good ones. And the steamed Kerapu was just so-so (not worth the price, ok), just like ikan rebus which I had during my pantang. And the kailan was also just OK – nothing special.

Since the food is served in biiiiggg plates, the small table seems to be crowded and uncomfortable for us. Somemore there’s a big umbrella stack in the middle of the table, and the tiang is really mengacau us to enjoy the food. I have to spoon Amet the Kerapu, and he also had to serve me the Tom Yam. It is very uncomfortable for us, especially for me as I was holding Zuzu on my left hand and only hv the other hand to eat everything. Sounds so kelam kabut isn’t it. That’s how it goes when u have a baby, ok.

And with the band playing musics very loudly, and the singer don’t know come from where - sounds like she's having sorethroat or something, I don’t feel like this dinner is gonna be a romantic one. Zuzu also looks terpinga-pinga with such a loud a messy musics.
We forced ourselves to finish up everything (tak sedap gilaa..). Paid quite a big amount (langsung tak berbaloi), and went back home (this is our real paradise).

My advise is : don’t go there. Harap tempat jer cantik gila, tp makanan and service hampeh…

PETUA MODEN

Learned from experience, I would like to share the petua-petua untuk memudahkan bersalin. Kebanyakannya adalah petua dr orang tua-tua, dan selebihnya petua yg aku rekacipta sendiri.

1. Banyakkan berdoa dan membaca al-quran masa tgh pregnant (solat toksah pesan la,dah mmg wajib).
2. Ambiklah supplement dan makan makanan berkhasiat secukupnya supaya kita cukup bertenaga untuk bersalin nanti. Kalau badan tak cukup khasiat dan lemah,mmg sakitnya lebih sikit.
3. Buat keja berat-berat sikit (Contohnya aku masa perut 7 bulan, sibuk mengangkat barang2 sbb pindah rumah. Dan bila dah tengah sarat 8 bulan lebih, dok alih katil dan ubah susun atur bilik sorang2 masa laki aku pi lepak kat kedai kopi – baguskan? Setakat panjat2 ubah kain langsir dan paku dinding tu kira perkara biasa la tu..)
4. Jgn takut/malas2 nak bergerak.lg byk gerak lg baik (since umah aku dekat dengan Ikea, Ikano, The Curve, One Utama, Tesco, di sinilah tempat aku merayau-rayau. Actually tak beli apa pun tp saja je jalan dari hujung entrance ni sampai ke hujung nu.)
5. Jgn terlalu manjakan diri (especially for the first time preggers. Selalunya masa ni lah suami n keluarga nak tunjuk sayang yg teramat sgt. Biasanya tak boleh buat itu tak boleh buat ini. Mmg lah kdg2 kita rasa penat, letih dan tak larat. Tp kalau boleh jgn la terlalu mengambil kesempatan nak bermalas-malasan. Buatlah semua kerja-kerja rumah spt memasak,membasuh,mengemas dsb hingga ke hari-hari terakhir. Aku masih ingat malam sebelum bersalin tu aku dok masak mee goreng.Dan hari sebelum bersalin tu jugak aku still naik moto pi keja,melambung2 perut bila tayar masuk lubang.)
6. Makan je apa2 yg rasa nak makan (takdak pantang larang nak makan apa masa ngandung nih.ada org kata takleh makan kicap,takleh minum kopi,minum air soya tapi bukan yg dalam kotak mesti yg segar, takleh mkn nenas, takleh minum ais etc. kalau semua takleh mana nak dapat nutrient yg cukup betul tak. So aku lantak ja telan apa yg ada. Kalau setakat kicap tu taktau la berapa botoi dah habis. Alhamdulillah..anak aku boleh dikatakan putih la jugak...)
7. kalau boleh, dapatkan air/minyak selusuh, diminum/makan dengan nasik/ disapu pd perut masa perut 7 bulan. Insya Allah...mudah proses bersalin nanti (sesapa nak air/minyak ni cakap le sbb tok wan aku mmg tukang buat minyak ni. Bleh order free of charge)
8. Doa masa nak bersalin “Lailahailla anta subhanakainni kuntuminadzzalimin” (Sebut tak henti-henti sejak mula rasa contraction sampailah dah nak push)
9. Mintak ampun dari ibu dan suami masa dekat2 nak bersalin tu (maklumlah masa awal2 pregnant mesti banyak nyusahkan diorang kan.biasa la pertukaran hormon...ada yg pening2,muntah2,demam2,dan ada jugak yg sampai lari dari rumah! Hahahaha...sapa tuu...Ampunkan ayg na abg...buat perangai masa ngandung dulu..hehehhe)

Sekian petua moden dari saya. Saya bukanlah nak berlagak pandai atau besar kepala, tapi itulah apa yg saya lakukan dan saya dapati kesan/hasilnya amat memuaskan. Alhamdulillah...cuma 2 jam dalam labour room, dapatlah seketoi budak gemok bernama Zuzu....