2008

It has been years since the last time I celebrated New Year (by watching fireworks with the crowds). I cant exactly remember when & where was it, but I think it was during my Uni time. Then after that no more bcoz I so hate the noise and crowd. It was 2006 when me & my bestest girlfrens gathered for new year’s BBQ.

Last year I was in kampung suffering of morning sickness. And this year, I was working on new year’s eve, without any excitement to celebrate at all. I only realize it is new year’s eve when I was driving back home from office and there’s big crowd and traffic jam at Mutiara Damansara (what the hell are these people doing at my housing area? Shoohhh...shoouhh..) And last night at about 8 o clock we went to send katil for kak ngah and come back home watching TV. When we heard the boom-bangs, only Amet and Zuzu went out to house’s parking area to see fireworks from The Curve. While I still continue to lipat kain in front of TV.

Today we just spend time at home. But “spend time at home” doesn’t mean it s a leisure time for me to tido or baring2 okeh....As usual I always got thousands things to do – I cook, I wash and of course still need to pindahkan barang2 kak ngah duhhhh...Cuti pun mcm tak cuti jugak. When la I can REALLY have a gooood rest on comfy bed without any disturbance or thinking of next things to do...hadoi..penat betoi! I really need a peaceful getaway to refresh myself laa. Ohh~~ how I wish...

And in fact, I don’t even really utilize the notebook & the broadband yet, bcoz I was so busy doing house chores. Sometime I feel like I want to leave alone bcoz if the house get messy, it will be bcoz of me and I really hate to tidy up place which has been messed up by other people! And I believe, if I stay alone, my house will definitely look like a five star hotel, all the time. Aahhh I’m dreamin’ again huh?

My first goal for 2008, which is starting a small business still at the very beginning stage. Well, I supposed to come out with the ads (at least a draft pamphlet/brochure) by this week. But seems like I have to postpone the plan again. To be success in a business, timeline is very important. I hope that I can prepare the samples this weekend, and finalized the ads by next week. I HOPE.

TWO (too) FULL DAY

Friday, i took leave bcoz Zuzu got diarhhea and both of us didnt sleep well last night. i think she feel sick like how we feel perut memulas when we got diarrhea, so that probably disturbing her sleep. her face turn red everytime she meneran. so pity her...so early2 morning me and Amet took her to Putra Medical Centre for treatment. The doctor gave few medicines and a lactose-free milk to try.
It was near to 12 when we came out from the clinic. after a short discussion we decided to go to Tesco Extra at Selayang. Unfortunately we didnt bring Zuzu's stroller and the mall doesnt have the troley with baby carier. so we had to carry her with our tough hands. After having luch at the food court we started our mission - shopping!!! Amet got a DVD player he's been dreaming for years, and of course an oven for me! Yeahh...

Since Zuzu had fall asleep (lenguh giler kener pegang budak gemok nih tido), we decided to go home. Sampai umah dah agak petang and lepak2 tengok TV. sekali aku masuk bilik, kipas la pulak rosak...langsung takmau pusing. So that night we went to Tesco Mutiara Damansara - get ourselves 2 fans (one for kak ngah) and 2 pairs pyjamas for Zuzu. We spent our time to look around, comparing prices until it was 1 a.m. when we heard announcement that the mall is closing off. Then only we rushed to the cashier and go home.

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Saturday, morning2 pukul 5.30 aku dah bangun, pi ambik kak ngah kat stesen bas Duta. Then balik umah sembang2 ngan dia until bout 8.30. Then Zuzu pun bangun (she got diarhhea so cant sleep well asyik terbangun ja). I asked kak ngah to siap2 bcoz we are going to find her a house/room to rent. She got a job at Eduland Puchong branch so she’s moving somewhere near to her workplace.

We’ve made appointment with one girl which was introduced by my fren. She promised not to ask any deposit so that kak ngah just need to pay the house rental which is just RM120 per month. I was so happy to hear that and hope that kakngah will stay with with them. Unfortunately, when the house’s door is opened, my sweet smile turned to be so sour as my eyes catched the macam-kucing-beranak-living hall. With all the baju-baju bergantungan at the windows, the empty cement-floor without mats or tikar getah, and the very berkulat kitchen, aku cepat2 kenyit mata to kak ngah – ask her to leave, and of course not to coming back. Apa daa rumah anak dara mcm ni...

Then we went round n round at the whole Bnadar Puteri housing area. And finally kak ngah found an attractive ads at Se7enEleven and she called and we went to see the house. OK. This one is so neat and tidy and clean. Well, they do not have many furnitures, but everything’s on the right place and arrangements was sejuk mata memandang. So, with the power of a big sister, I approved the house for her to rent. Hahaha...

Then we went for a quick lunch at Restoran Jaring, Bandar Sunway (Amet's favourite) and continue our journey to KLCC (baca mcm LRT "Stesen seterusnya, KLCC.."). Actually we went there not for wiindow shopping (apatah lagi shopping), but to get ourself registered with Maxis Broadband. Yeahhh.... and we chose the USB thing which claim to be the fastest (and of course the pricest..cehh).

I feel so damn proud to walk out from the center (mcm la aku sorang yg ada benda nih), took the car and drove to Jln Klang Lama to survey for a motorcycle for Kak Ngah. After tengok sana tengok sini, we didnt buy any one (of course la..ingat beli moto mcm beli karipap ka. actually there's another long story of kak ngah and the motorcycle tp malas ah nak cerita buat pening kepala jeh).

So went back home and take a loooong rest bcoz tomorrow we have to help kak ngah angkut all her barang-barang to Puchong. Duhhhh...(actually tak la rest sgt sbb sebok men"try" Maxis broadband nih, which rupa2nya hanya indah khabar dr rupa. Ciiittt..)

10 achievements sejak bekerja

1. Dah 8 tempat aku keja sejak grad (2003 - 2007) hahaha
2. Dapat mencapai increament yg diidam-idamkan (kalau ada lebih lg baik)
3. Dapat la tolong family sikit2 (tp kdg2 termiss jugak)
4. Dapat la sebijik keta Myvi
5. Dapat la beli few baju + seluaq + kasut (walaupun beli masa lelong longgok2)
6. Dapat la beli perabot2 kat umah (semua hakmilik terpelihara Yue™)
7. Dah agak pandai jalan-jalan shortcut di KL/Selangor (even sometime lebih pandai dr Amet hahaha)
8. My English is improved – skrg cuma nk perkayakan vocabs dgn bombastic words..
9. Sgt berdedikasi pada kerja – tidak simply2 ambik MC or EL. Pi keja on time, sanggup x mandi kalau bgun lambat..
10. Time management – keja, family n baby...

10 goals for 2008

1. Tambah duit (saving), tambah anak2...
2. Beli umah sendiri
3. Bukak bisness sendiri – nak berenti keja
4. Cari peluang bisness lebih besar utk mak ayah
5. Mesti ada laptop + broadband for business purpose (by January 2008)
6. Tambah wardrobe (almari dan contentnya sekali) - kalau nk berjaya, mesti bergaya!
7. Nak pi melancong (at least 2 kali setahun)
8. Nak start Yoga balik (klu ada masa nak jugak pi swimming)
9. Nak adakan satu hobi/game yg menyihatkan (choose from main layang2 or bowling)
10. Last but not least, nak betul2 cukupkan solat setiap waktu. Selalu sgt terlepas subuh daaa...(Sob sob sob, insaflah wahai manusia..)

HOUSE

Yesterday jalan2 carik umah untuk dibeli. Tp mcm semer mahal2 giler. So taktau nk beli ke tak. Mmg le bleh buat loan, tp nk bayaq bulan2 tu perit jugak le. Ada la jumpa satu condo yg agak2 affordable. Tp not 100% satisfied sbb just nice je keluasan dia. And the area/environment aku mmg tak minat skt.

Kalau bleh taknak la umah yg buruk sgt, kecik sgt, crowded sgt. Ya lah aku dh pi keja penat2 carik duit, balik nk la rehat nyaman2, tenang2, takmau la pening2 kepala maki hamun org lagi.

Kalau bleh ciri2 rumah pilihan adalah seperti berikut :
1. Murah
2. Area/kawasan yg tidak terlalu hutan. Mesti dkt dgn town + entertainment sbb laki aku selalu blk keja lambat so aku nk g jalan2 dgn Zuzu (Mutiara Damansara is the best)
3. If apartment/condo – mesti luas + ada balkoni + tempat utk sidai kain yg kena matahari + dan tak sesak dgn Indon/Bangla.
4. If terrace (single or double storey tak kisah) – kecik skt pun xpa tp jgn kecik sgt + surrounding yg aman + tiada budak2 lelaki bujang dgn motornya si sebelah umah aku + ada tanah/perkarangan utk letak penyidai kain.
5. Tak nak yg jauh dr ofis sbb aku nk bermanja2 dgn Zuzu – nk blk keja dan sampai umah cepat2, xleh tahan rindu kt dia, tiap hari sayang….

So, mcm susah je kan nk dapat rumah yg memenuhi ciri2 idaman aku nih. Hmm..maybe I should try masuk apa2 pertandingan yg kasik hadiah sebuah rumah… Oh, mestikah aku masuk AF? Akakakakak

LOST

Lately, aku rasa mcm ada sesuatu yg dah hilang. Entah apa. Kawan? Mungkin. Aku tak banyak jumpa kawan2 baik aku lately nih. Ada la jugak jumpa Pah last week. Tp perbualan agak terbatas sbb ada Amet dan Kakngah. Aida pun ada mai umah last month, tp takleh la nk berborak sakan sbb ada Pijan, Amet, dan adik Aida. Arina pun ada call gak last week, tp sembang gitu2 ja lah sbb dlm phone cam tak puas nk cerita mcm2. And lagipun dia tgh sarat tunggu hari je nak terberanak so takmau peningkan kepala dia dgn mcm2 kisah aku yg tunggang terbalik nih.

Sepatutnya aku ada lagi satu kawan baik, kawan rapat yg sepatutnya setiap hari dan setiap masa boleh mendengar luahan hati aku. Tapi aku rasa sekarang dia macam dah tak ada. Aku jumpa dia setiap hari. Tapi aku takleh nak cerita kat dia. Aku sedih.
Entah kenapa n mengapa tp aku rasa kami dah mmg tak rapat mcm dulu lg. Pelik. Dulu bleh telefon dan bergayut berjam-jam. Tp skrg, ada kat depan mata tp tak leh nk sembang2 mcm dulu lg. How I miss those old time…keluar lepak2, sembang kat tepi tasik, kedai mamak, mcm banyak gila cerita nak diceritakan , macam tak habis2. But nowadays, ada masalah besaq kepala lori pun aku sanggup simpan ja sorang2. Kdg2 dh bukak mulut tp tak jadik plak nk cerita. Entah, maybe sbb setiap kali aku cerita masalah aku, last2 aku jugak yg akan dipersalahkan – tak kira masalah kerja atau lain2, mesti aku jugak yg salah. And dia teramatlah sgt sibuk wif work n bisness n stuff, so just has a little time to see each other. I don’t know wat is going on, and where we will go…

I am just not happy with this situation. Please frenz, come and cuddle me….i really need a long, warm hug now…

MOVIES

I am so wanted to see The Golden Compass movie coz I m a big fan on Nicole Kidman. I actually had put efforts to book the tickets – first was on Tuesday, but then cancelled because Zuzu was not well (I planned to ask my sister to babysit for a while but Zuzu was merengek-rengek so I just x sampai hati to leave her). Then I booked again yesterday, but again, it was cancelled. How I wish that Zuzu is a big girl so that we can go watching movies together-gether.
Anyway, just nak luahkan perasaan kat sini. That’s it. I know that it will never come true....tunggulah 5-6 tahun lagi cerita nih tayang kat tv masa X’mas :(

GOODBYE

Date : Nov 20, 2007
Time : 7.30 pm
Venue : Putra Medical Centre

Seeing the O&G specialist, Dr. Zarul.

Dr. Zarul : Can I help you?
Me : I m about 2 months pregnant, and i am having bleeding since last 2 days.
Dr. Zarul : Oh..can we go to scanning room?
Me : Sure
After scanning
Dr. Zarul : Can u see the black thing here? this is the embryonic sac. Now, as you can see your embryonic sac is empty, and thru this ultrasound there is no heartbeat detected, and also no embryo observed. Unfortunately i have to say that u are having what we call a "miss abortion", kind of a miscarriage.
Me : Oww......
Dr.Zarul : I advise u to do D&C ASAP. I will prepare a letter to the hospital for the operation.ok?
Me : Ok, i'll wait outside.
Outside the room, i cried over Zuzu's and Amet's shoulder. It just last weekend i went surveying for pregy's blouses and pants. And googleing on newborn’s and baby's stuffs. And preparing to buy Obimin again with this month's salary. But now...it is no more...I am so sad no words can tell.

Date : Nov 21,2007
Time : 2.00 pm
Venue : Gynae ward, Hospital Selayang

After waiting for 4 hours at emergency room, they sent me to be warded. The doctor checked and scanned again, and confirmed my baby is no more going to develop.

Doctor : Well, i have no choice but to give u medicine tmrow morning to induce contraction so that the blood and probably the embryo sac can come out by itself. Otherwise u have to go for D&C. Pls bear in mind, when u go to toilet, keep watching if any blood clots or something look like fish meat come out, then u immediately call nurse, ok?

Date : Nov 22, 2007
Time : 10.00 a.m
Venue : Operation theatre

Doctor : Hi, I m Dr. Shahril,the anaesthetician. I will give u anaesthetic in a while, and this will make u unconscious during the operation. Ok I m giving u injection now. Baca bismillah, mengucap dua kalimah syahadah ya..
Me : Bismillahirramanirrahim....Ashhaduallaailaahaillallah wa ashhaduannamuhammadarrasulullah... And yeah...Goodbye my dear, my baby, we will see each other again in another world...Bye bye...
And I fall asleep, a deep one.

1.00 pm
“Miss Yuzaini...Miss Yuzaini..wake up....ur operation is finished”.
I slowly opened my eyes. Blur. Pening. Drowsy. “Saya nak muntah...uwekk..”
After about half an hour, I felt more stable. Ditolak semula ke wad. Nurses helped to change my operation gown. Still feel a bit weak.
Hungry. I ve been fasting for 13 hours. Nurses sent me food, I eat slowly and feel more energized.
Take a short nap.
After a while, wake up and walk around the ward. Asking nurse if I can go home today. Doctor come and check. Ok can go home.

I am safe. But she/he is not. Goodbye.

PAIN

Night - went to toilet. "Abang!!!! Ada darah...!!!"
"Hahh? Byk ka? Ayg siap2, jom abg bawak pi klinik"
"Takmau, ayg takut...Takpalah, tunggu dulu tengok esok mcm mana.Ayg bleh tahan lagi nih."

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Next morning - feeling very painful. This is how I feel the day before I gave birth to Zuzu. Rasa senak, mcm period pain, tp berpanjangan and it comes and goes in like every 10 minutes. And I have this pain since last few days. But last night and today it become worse. I feel like I want to crawl in the blanket with a pillow on my tummy. It is so damn painful.

Now I feel so guilty. I did lots of heavy stuff even though I already know it is there. I went to factory helping out operators – angkat shipper boxes (with the contents inside), buat product sorting, tolak troli. Balik rumah mop lantai, angkat laundry bag yg satu minggu punya isi, angkat dan mandikan Zuzu yg dah dekat 8kg aku rasa, and all the house chores. Sepatutnya masa ni aku keja ringan2 ja. Kalau takde org nak tolong buat, patutnya aku biar ja kain baju tu berkulat kat situ. Biaq ja pinggan mangkuk penuh bertimbun, membuak-buak kat singki tu. Tapi aku rimas tengok tempat tak terurus, so aku buat jugak semua keja tuh.

Now only I regret of everything I did, and I feel so bad. And now only I feel that I cant accept to loose you...please...please....stay with me....

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I just come back from the wash room. And I saw blood, again, more than yesterday. And I cried. And I keep praying hard.
I’m going off – to the clinic - NOW.

CHERATING, PAHANG

Tetiba ja last Saturday, Amet bangun tidoq dan terus ajak pi Cherating. Ntah apa yg dia mimpi malam tu. Ada org buang harta karun kat sana kot. so kemas-kemas barang, stat keta, geraklah ke Cherating...tetiba ja dah sampai. Gila betoi 3 ekoq anak beranak nih.
and here few pix taken..



"Ibu..saya nak swimming lagi!!! Saya sgt suka air.."

I TO HAVE DECISION

Entahla taktau nak tulis hape dah skrg nih. Banyak gak benda yg nak cerita. Tp cam semua cerita tak best jerh. Cam asyik bersedih hati je. Byk hal yg misunderstanding, tiada persefahaman, tiada co-operation, tak kira sama ada di ofis mahupun di rumah. Kedua-dua tempat ni langsung tidak aman bagi aku.
Hmmm..kalaulah aku jutawanis, dh lama aku bawak baby gi melancong tempat best2, yg jauh2 dr orang. Tp malangnya aku cuma mampu bwk dia jalan2 kat OU or The Curve je utk mententeramkan jiwa. Huhuhu...

Actually aku ada jugak satu exciting news nak kongsi. Tapi mcm tak bersedia lagi nak cerita. Aku mmg excited sangat2 bila dapat news ni. Tapi since hati ni asyik sedih je, so aku letakkan dulu cerita ni kat sebelah. kdg2 rasa mcm malas nak pikir pun ada. Mcm ah kalau jadi, jadilah. Kalau tak jadi pun takpa. I wont really pay attention to it. Aku lebih banyak fikir mcm mana nak jauhkan diri dari kesedihan hidup aku ni,buat selama-lamanya. Aku nak happy2, aku takmau sedih2 lagi. However, pls don’t think aku akan cuba meninggalkan dunia. Tapi mungkin aku boleh meninggalkan ‘subjek/orang’ yg menyebabkan kesedihan itu. Aku betul2 tengah berfikir keras. Aku dah tak kuase hari2 berlinangan air mata. Aku dah tak kuase hari2 sakit kepala, sakit hati, sakit telinga. Aku dah tak kuase hari2 buang masa pikir nak selesaikan benda masalah ni. Aku dah tahu siapa racunnya. So lebih baik aku buang je racun tu jauh2.

Aku tahu perubahan ni akan menjadi terlalu besar kesannya dalam hidup aku dan dia dan semua yg terlibat. Tapi aku harus pilih. Biarlah aku meraung dan melalak sekali yg terakhir ini, tapi terus hidup bahagia tanpa air mata di masa depan.

BUKIT TINGGI RESORT PAHANG

Celebrate Deepavali kat atas bukit. tak la best sangat tempat nih.tapi boleh la sekadar nak jamu mata, tengok suasana konon-konon macam kat Jepun, kat France. and kitorg pun mcm prepare la bawak sweater semua konon-konon takut sejuk menggigil la. sekali hah tengok org lain yg pakai singlet pun ada. hahaha...langsung tak sejuk pun...


Ibu kat Japanese Garden. Dah lama tak posing sorang2 nih. inilah masanya...yeahh!!!


Ayah macam org India, anak mcm org Jepun....


Yuehoooo...bersama kereta baruku. siap ada publish no plat...so sapa2 nampak saya kat jalan, tolong jgn langgar ye....


Suamiku yg terchenta....



Ibu muka blur. Zuzu berlakon konon-konon mcm sejuk gila siap pakai snow cap. Hahahaa..

SOULMATE?

when you have someone that you love (very much), you will say to yourself – yes, this is my soulmate, and I will leave with him ever after. He will be my best friend, my other-side, my everything (nyanyi lagu My Everything).

But then you always find him not acting as a good friend, or at least as a friend.

1.When you are telling him stories, he will interrupt and come with his own stories not listening to you anymore.

2. When you are telling him problems at work, he closed his ears and say “dah..dah..dah takmau dengaq semua tu. Its your problem”. While you wake up at 4 a.m just to listen to his problems with the modemn, router and all IT-thingy that you don’t even have any idea what is it. But you still listen, smile and nodding like you really really understand it.

3.When you ask him question, he will scream like you are a deaf.when you dont understand the answer, he get angry and scream again.

3.When you ask for his help to look after the baby just for one hour because you want to have a short, deep nap and because you are sick (morning sickness?), he refused to and continue watching TV and just let the baby crying and screaming like her throat is coming out.

These are just few example to think about.

For me, I will make a conclusion that this is NOT a soulmate. Now, you can do your own business, settle your own problems, cook your own food and you ll have to taste my curse that you will suffer! You can go to hell, while I will choose my own paradise. Thank you.

Hari ni kami balik kampongg!!! Yeeayyyy!!!!

LITTLE PENANG CAFE @ THE CURVE

Yesterday, our buka puasa was at Little Penang Café @ The Curve. Memula ingatkan nak makan kat Thai Express. Tapi tetiba ada org suggest Litle Penang. So I tot why not just give a try. They offer ala carte so I chose to have Hokkien Prawn Mee while Amet had Chicken Nasi Lemak, and our side dish was Lor Bak – it’s chicken meat prep with herbs, wrapped in beancurd skin (well ok, chinese used to use pork but this one is just chicken ok. So don’t make muka geli please... )

But choice for beverages is so limited. I expected to have cham ais or at least kopi ais, but its not in their list so I tried Red Bean Soya and Amet just go for Coke. The food was just nice, ok la at least better than Ikea. My prawn mee is a bit tawar (compared to other places – I m a fan of Hokkien prawn mee), and kurang bahan (shredded chicken, taugeh, bawang goreng, telur, fish cake and of coure the prawn itself).

But we kinda enjoy the food, plus the ambience environment has cool us down. And Zuzu was so~o baik, she fall asleep just before waktu berbuka so I let her dreaming in the stroller.

After makan, we went to jalan-jalan in the curve. Went to all the toys shop there. Just survey2 toys for Zuzu. Found a play mat with toys hanging on it so might buy one for her next month (bulan ni gaji ibu dah habis beli baju raya ok..).

And oh ya, yesterday also got a good news from the bank. Hiihihihi....tapi xleh cakap lagi. Rahsia....Bila dah betul2 confirm nanti baru kita story ok..

IKEA & IKANO

Semalam, bukak posa kat IKEA. They have a buffet at the very reasonable price of RM15.90 but the dishes were...so yucky! They just serve a normal white rice, with choices of tasteless lauk pauk like beef curry, pajeri sotong and nenas, ayam masak merah, ayam with ratouille, sayur campur, sayur kangkung and keropoks. They also have dessert, choices of biskut raya (makmur,tat nenas and don’t-know-wat-kuih), bingka, puddings, and fruits. And also ice-cream which I think the only one that I had enjoy a lot. Put a curse to IKEA Ramadhan Buffet as we need to queue for about 45 minutes. Yeahh...it is veeeerrry loooonggg....and it is so crowded with people. Duhh...

Some more while baru sikit je start makan, Zuzu start to make noise (yeah her sleeping time is at 7.00 p.m), so I took her to the baby room, which is very small and uncomfortable as they just put a piece of curtain to separate the breastfeeding area.
And don’t expect to replenish your dishes as all the buffet served is only cukup2 for one portion per person. So bad you call this “a buffet”? Lucky I m not really a big eater and Amet also muak already. So we just blah from there.

Then just tot to take a ‘brisk walking’ in Ikano. Went to World of Cartoon just to tengok2 the toys and baby’s stuffs (kind of updates for an up-to-date mom like me haa~~). Then while jalan2, suddenly my eyes caught the Brands Outlet signage so just tot to step in to have a look. But after looking and looking, cannot tahan my tangan, so just grabbed 3 pairs baju for Zuzu. Hahahaha so jahat kan tangan ni?

Then went back and snap some pictures of Zuzu in baju baru...tadaaa...

:( SAD STORIES :(

These few days has lots of sad/bad things happened. Well, as I;ve already told before, my loan keep going be rejected everywhere. Looks like all the dealers already give up to submit my application to the banks. Huhuhu...so kesian kan. Yue is so desperate for a new car...

Then second thing is happen on last weekend where I fall down masa pergi kedai untuk beli makanan buka posa. Dah la sakit, malu lagi. Adoi....dan sakitnya bukan sikit, sampai hari ni tangan dan pinggang aku still got bruises and pain.

Then, on the last weekend jugak, aku telah tidak sengaja membiarkan Zuzu jatuh dari katil. Well, actually pagi tu aku continue tdoq lepas sahur since it is a holiday. Si budak Zuzu ni pulak jenis yg suka bangun awal pagi. So masa pukul 7 tu dia dah bangun dan dok gelak2 kat sebelah aku (atas katil). Since dia tak nangis,so aku just biar dan pejamkan mata. Then tetiba jer aku dengar bunyi like something jatuh. Aku bukak mata and tengok Zuzu is not there! Aku terus cepat2 tengok kat bawah and saw her terlangkup kat tepi katil. As usual, she cried sikit je (aku rasa dia ni jenis yg tahan sakit kot sbb masa kena cucuk kt klinik hari tu pun nangis skt jugak). Aku takut gile terus cek badan dia semua. Nasib baik takde luka atau lebam. Gila sedih and feel guilty. Since she’s now suka melonjak2 and dah pandai pusing2 I think its better not to put her on my bed anymore...huhuhu...

Sekian,hope things will be better for the week ahead..Duhh

LEPAS GERAM 1

Aaahhh...rasa bengong sikit hari ni. Pagi-pagi lagi dah ada ‘orang gila’ kacau aku. Aaaa...bengang gila. Actually “she” is from (the hell) one of our supplier that I really have to have a close contact with. My boss seems want to pass “this shit” (refer to the girl) to me since the very first day I join. Now I know why. The one thing that aku paling paling benci bout her is sker sgt cakap dengan high tones. Mmg gillerrr ah menatang nih. Pastu sker sangat bg reasons untuk ngelat. Ok for example, bile aku suruh dia prepare monthly inventory report, (which is actually aku dah siap preparekan dia punya form, and she just need to feel in the figure-) pun she takes bout 3 weeks. And bila aku call push2 dia akan menjawab “Aaa..belum siap lagi. Tolong bg time ek. Kite mmg sibuk sgt. Lg pun hari ada kursus...and bla bla”. Bila aku call lg esoknya “Oh hr ni clerk kite cuti la..” and the next day “Tak sure la bila bleh siap, hr ni kitorg ada metg spnjg hari la..” and so and so. Mcm la susah sgt just isi je la ruang2 kosong tu. Aku dah tolong suap pun tak tau nak telan lagi ke. Usually aku yg akan bertungkus lumus prepare everything (eventho that’s her responsibilities – biasa la I used to be an angel), and what I always ask her to do is just simple2 jobs je (bukannya aku suruh kau buat bl*w job pun). Itupun xleh. And u shuld know wat is her title – she is the Quality Manager of a pharmaceutical manufacturer and she is just 25 years old, ok? Ohhh... I wonder... She cant even give a right answer for simple maths question like 2-1 = ? How come she can be a manager all? Wat a f*ck*ng budak mentah! Hingusan! (Posa ni…)
Mcmana aku maki pun, aku tau that she will never change. Dan aku akan terus berurusan dengan dia, unless one of us leave the company (Oooppss.hopefully not me).




LEPAS GERAM 2

Well, actually this week ends up with me waiting for good news yg tak akan kunjung tiba. I’ve tried to apply for car loan (Has been bout 2 weeks aredi..sob sob). And it’s for a brand-new car, ok. I have the money. But it’s useless when your name got stucked in that stupid CTOS and CCRIS. In fact I hv paid all my credit card hutang – and I hv even got released letter from the bank. And CCRIS because my kereta kancil is not paid properly – well, we still pay but for every 2-3 months time. That cause my name to be “not clear” in bank negara list. Actually I’ve been trying with few dealers where they hv also tried their best to merayu the bank to give me the loan (of course they also wants the commission), but I still got it rejected in everywhere. Poor me,huh? So now, I might just forget the idea and instead must start paying the kancil properly and re-apply again in the next 6 months. Kesiannyaa.....

So today, I hv a plan like this : Go home early, tapau for berbuka puasa (Amet x ada kat umah,dia berbuka dengan kawan-kawannya), and then me and Zuzu go to keluarkan all my salary, then go for A BIIIIGGGGG SHOPPING kat OU. And maybe pamper myself with a manicure also seems like a brilliant idea right? And I m thnking of buying a breastfeeding blouse for myself too. Not forgetting few pairs of baju kerja. And of course will try to get skirts for Zuzu (Auuww...sexy anak ibu..). Oh by the way, dah lama jugak aku tak beli lipstick – shuld get a new one la for Hari Raya kan.
Dah? Habis tu nak buat apa tengok jerh duwit tuh , dah takleh beli keta, baik aku beli baju banyak2.(I don’t mean to be arrogant here ok, I just want to cure my broken heart. Sob sob Sob...) and I think shopping is the best therapy anyway...

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Semalam, bawak Zuzu cucuk kat klinik kesihatan. Esok, Zuzu dah umur 3 bulan. Happy 3rd Months Bithday Sayang...
Semalam, shopping baju raya untuk abang, ayang, mak, ayah, tok, nenek....rasa sangat bahagia...
Semalam, dapat satu panggilan. Tiba-tiba yang bahagia menjadi derita, yg gembira menjadi duka...
Ada yg menjadi mangsa, susuk tubuh dihentam semahunya...
Tiada lagi gelak ketawa, hanya tangisan yg bergema...
Pilunya hati tidak terkata, terasa sayu dan sangat hiba...
Saat itu, yang berlegar di kepala, aku mahukan harta!!!
Apakah hanya harta yang dapat membahagiakan kita?
Hanya anak kecil yg ada, untuk menghibut lara...
Namun luka itu, tak akan hilang sampai bila-bila...

**Sigh** Nasib baik kat public,kalau kat rumah,mesti hari ni dah dok dalam kain kapan **Sigh**

SOLID FOOD, ZUZU?Huwarghh..ngantuknyaa...Sejak dah ada Zuzu ni,aku pun tak tau berapa jam ja aku dapat tido dalam sehari. Kadang2 ada hari yg aku tak tidoq langsung! Maybe just sempat tersengguk-sengguk kepala kat tepi katil ja. Kalau weekend pun, jangan mimpilah kata nak tidoq lama-lama sampai tengah hari. Perghh....letih gila siot. Dah la tak leh nak tidoq, nak rehat relax-relax pun mmg tak dak masa. Pinggang aku ni punyalah sakit rasa mcm nak putus.

Biasanya aku balik keja sampai umah dalam pukul 6 lebih, kalau tak masak, aku akan singgah tapau kat kedai siap2. Tapi kdg2 bila teringat sgt kat Zuzu, terus bergegas balik umah tanpa membeli apa2 makanan. Last2 sampai umah dah takdak apa benda nak makan (kecuali bulan puasa ni Amet boleh tolong belikan sebab dia pun balik awai jugak). Bila dah ambik Zuzu balik umah, dia memang nak melekat ja dengan aku. Letak atas tilam ja mulalh merengek-rengek. Satu keja pun takleh nak buat kalau dia tak tidoq. Kalau dah tidoq pun, buai tu nak kena sentiasa dibuaikan (kena goncang sepanjang masa).Kalau tak, mesti terjaga dan merengek lagi.

Rumah pun dah mcm kena taufan, semak ja x sempat nak kemas.Dah, mcmana la nk kemas kalau dia xmau dok sorang2. Dia suka bila ada org dok layan dia,main2 dgn dia. Actually nak kata dia nangis pun tak jugak. Tapi dia suka merengek bila org tak layan. Dan paling dia suka bila dapat breastfeed. Aku rasa, kalau boleh nak ja dia mintak gonggong breast aku ni 24 jam.

So aku pun ada terfikir nak try bagi dia solid food. Tapi bila aku search-search thru internet, what I found is – better not to give.

RISIKO MEMBERI SOLID FOOD TERLALU AWAL KEPADA BABY :

• mungkin tercekik, atau tersedak
• risiko tinggi untuk terdedah kepada allergy
• Sistem penghadaman bayi yang berusia kurang enam bulan belum matang dan dia tidak dapat menghadam makanan dengan sempurna menyebabkan masalah seperti bayi muntah, sembelit dan juga cirit-birit.
• Penyusuan susu ibu secara eksklusif selama enam bulan dapat mengurangkan risiko gastrointestinal, pernafasan dan jangkitan telinga pada bayi.
• Bayi yang berusia lebih enam bulan dapat mengambil bahagian secara lebih aktif semasa makan seperti mencapai makanan jika masih mahu makan atau berpaling jika sudah kenyang.
• Makanan pejal akan mengurangkan jumlah susu yang bayi ambil.
• Bayi yang makan makanan pejal terlalu awal mempunyai risiko yang lebih tinggi untuk menjadi overweight apabila besar nanti berbanding dengan bayi yang memulakan makanan pejal pada masa yang sesuai.

TANDA-TANDA BABY SUDAH BERSEDIA UTK SOLID FOOD
* Baby dah boleh support kepalanya
* Baby boleh duduk dengan sedikit sokongan daripada kita
* Baby nampak berminat dengan makanan kita… kadang2 dia capai makanan kita
* Baby suka sangat masukkan benda2 dalam mulut dia
* Baby minum lebih dari 32 oz susu ibu/formula sehari
* Berat baby paling kurang 2 kali ganda dari berat masa lahir
* Air liur baby cukup banyak utk digest makanan
* Baby tak tolak makanan kalau disuapkan ke dalam mulut

AMARAN : SOLID FOOD YG TERLALU AWAL TIDAK AKAN...

• membantu baby tido lebih lena pada waktu malam
• membuatkan baby tidak merengek/menangis
• membantu bayi cepat membesar
• memberi khasiat secukupnya

Kepada ibu-ibu bleh la refer kat sini BEST FOOD AT BEST TIME

Lagipun aku ada la plak terjumpa article tentang Farley’s Rusks yg kena withdrawn from market sebab mengandungi bahan kimia terlarang. Lagi la aku takut nak bagi Zuzu makan semua ni. Lagipun dia masih sangat kecik kan.

Well, maybe aku akan cuba bagi Zuzu partial-solid, which is AIR NASIK, sepertimana yg telah diamalkan turun temurun dalam keluarga aku (Note that dlm family aku cuma Kak Ngah ja yg minum susu. Yg lain – Aku, Eid, Amar tak lalu susu, so kami makan air nasik).

Okies, nak balik masak nasik!

FLASHBACK



A great moment to remember. Teringiiiinnnn bangat nak ulang kembali..tapi tahun ni tak de org sponsor laa. Yuran mahal sangat. Nak consider hotel,transport,nak kena bawak laki, anak...Lagipun tak byk exercise la spnjg tahun ni,takut cramp plak. Takpalah simpan ja niat ni maybe utk 2008 buleh join (simpan duit sekali). Huhuhu...saya nak larii.....(bukan lari dari rumah daa...)

SELAMAT BERPUASA

Selamat berpuasa pada semua. Nampak gayanya Insya Allah aku akan dapat berpuasa penuh tahun nih. Apa? Ingat aku pregnant lagi? Tak laaa....tapi disebabkan aku sekarang breastfeeding Zuzu, so period aku akan terstop buat seketika. Begitulah kata doktor dan juga melalui pengalaman mak n mak mertua aku. However, kena berhati-hati ketika ‘bermain’ nih, takut terbuncit plak sekali lagi. Hehehehe....

Tapi puasa tahun ni nampaknya aku tak dapatlah pi terawikh sbb Zuzu masih terlalu kecik takmau nanti she makes any trouble in the surau (Menjerit2 mcm budak2 yg aku selalu curse masa terawikh last year). So maybe lepas bukak posa aku bleh pi merayau2 kat shopping complex ke hapa. Maybe tinjau2 baju raya Zuzu, baju keja aku, kasut keja aku, handbag aku, alat mekap dan kosmetik aku..Hahahaha...




Well lupa plak selama ni nak cerita tentang pengasuh Zuzu. Aku x hantar dia ke nursery, sebaliknya ke rumah jiran yg betul2 terletak atas rumah aku. Nama pengasuh ni Kak Yan, or as dia selalu membahasakan dirinya dengan Zuzu as “Mak” or “Mak Yan”. She still quite young I guess, maybe somwhere around 30’s. Dia Cuma ada sorang anak lelaki darjah 4, dan mengasuh sorang lg budak lelaki berumur 1.5 years. So far aku amat berpuas hati sbb dia x jaga ramai budak, dan rumah dia sgt kemas, dan juga pandai mengasuh, dan dia sgt suka membeli baju untuk Zuzu mcm anak sendiri. Dan dia mmg suka sbb selama ni dia x pernah dapat mengasuh budak pompuan.

Aku harap Mak Yan akan dapat jaga Zuzu sampai besar. Sekian (Xleh nak merapu sbb mengantuk sgt nih)

ZUZU IN ACTION

Sejak dah ada baby ni asyik nak cerita pasal dia je laa...mcm la aku sorang ada anak ek. Mesti org pun naik bosan. Lantaklaa..sapa suruh masuk blog aku. Hahahaha.....

** Posing tidoq tahap x hingat dunia
** Gelak ketawa riang ria...
** My little sweet smile..
** Gaya dah mula nak nangis...

** Zuzu possing with one of the hair clips

THAT'S MY GIRL

Semalam before balik keja aku round2 dulu pasar malam Mount Kiara. Memula ingat saja2 je nak round. Sekali ternampak la plak banyak gila org jual sepit rambut, hairbands, and orther accessories lah. Memula tengok je, pastu rasa mcm geram gila, pastu amoi tu plak dok offer kat aku suruh tengok2. So pas tengok apa lagi, terpaksa la aku rembat 3 pasang hair clips utk Zuzu. Hahaha..best sungguh dapat baby girl nih. Bleh dressing macam-macam....hehehe abg jgn jeles ok...

** Zuzu is wearing Bali-themed gown (Mak Tok Kiah beli kat Sarawak nii..)

ROMANCING AT BORA ASMARA

At last, after few times delayed, Amet and I had a chance to dine at the so-called Bora Asmara (what a romantic name, huh), a charming Balinese-themed restaurant, nestled at the sleepy Sg. Penchala.
I get to know about this restaurant after I found an article in The Star few months ago. But that was at our very hard time – so we decided to delay visiting it until we got a bit extra money to spend.

Last august,20th was our wedding anniversary. We planned to celebrate it somewhere but have to delay because Amet was so busy at work. He came back home at 11 pm everyday, plus working on weekends (boringnyer…). So we just managed to go there last night - 2 weeks belated anniversary.

As we stepped through the wooden doors,.we were impressed with the beautiful decors. The setting is just lovely with beautiful water features, rustic wooden tables and chairs, lit stone lamps, and Balinese decor tastefully placed around the outlet.. A waiter came an offer us a seat. I actually have a plan in mind to seat in one of their private hut called ‘Bisek-bisek’. But we had been given just a small table (reason being that’s the only table left, as other empty tables are reserved/booked). Luckily we put Zuzu in the stroller so that she can sit in that.

Zuzu was sleeping soundly. But as the weather is a bit hot that night, and we were sitting at the open air area with no air-cond or fan, Zuzu suddenly wake up and started to make noise. At first it was kind of “ek ek ek….”, but after few minutes it turned to be a loud cry. Huwaaa…malu giler…
I tried to give her milk (in bottle), but she refused and start to mengamuk. I had no choice but to breastfeed her in front of people. Lucky we sit at quite a dim place, and I wear a tudung so that can cover a bit. Huhh….

And the food arrived, we had Spicy Tom Yam, Steamed Kerapu and Kailan in Oyster Sauce. While for drink Amet chose to have Blended Mocha and for me is their speacilities “Bandrek” – spice + ginger + lemongrass tea. Well, I can say that I’m a bit disappointed with the food. Instead of huge prawns found inside, the Tom Yam just taste like curry and no smell of lime leaves or corriander. I am one of Tom Yam fan and I know how to differentiate between bad and good ones. And the steamed Kerapu was just so-so (not worth the price, ok), just like ikan rebus which I had during my pantang. And the kailan was also just OK – nothing special.

Since the food is served in biiiiggg plates, the small table seems to be crowded and uncomfortable for us. Somemore there’s a big umbrella stack in the middle of the table, and the tiang is really mengacau us to enjoy the food. I have to spoon Amet the Kerapu, and he also had to serve me the Tom Yam. It is very uncomfortable for us, especially for me as I was holding Zuzu on my left hand and only hv the other hand to eat everything. Sounds so kelam kabut isn’t it. That’s how it goes when u have a baby, ok.

And with the band playing musics very loudly, and the singer don’t know come from where - sounds like she's having sorethroat or something, I don’t feel like this dinner is gonna be a romantic one. Zuzu also looks terpinga-pinga with such a loud a messy musics.
We forced ourselves to finish up everything (tak sedap gilaa..). Paid quite a big amount (langsung tak berbaloi), and went back home (this is our real paradise).

My advise is : don’t go there. Harap tempat jer cantik gila, tp makanan and service hampeh…

PETUA MODEN

Learned from experience, I would like to share the petua-petua untuk memudahkan bersalin. Kebanyakannya adalah petua dr orang tua-tua, dan selebihnya petua yg aku rekacipta sendiri.

1. Banyakkan berdoa dan membaca al-quran masa tgh pregnant (solat toksah pesan la,dah mmg wajib).
2. Ambiklah supplement dan makan makanan berkhasiat secukupnya supaya kita cukup bertenaga untuk bersalin nanti. Kalau badan tak cukup khasiat dan lemah,mmg sakitnya lebih sikit.
3. Buat keja berat-berat sikit (Contohnya aku masa perut 7 bulan, sibuk mengangkat barang2 sbb pindah rumah. Dan bila dah tengah sarat 8 bulan lebih, dok alih katil dan ubah susun atur bilik sorang2 masa laki aku pi lepak kat kedai kopi – baguskan? Setakat panjat2 ubah kain langsir dan paku dinding tu kira perkara biasa la tu..)
4. Jgn takut/malas2 nak bergerak.lg byk gerak lg baik (since umah aku dekat dengan Ikea, Ikano, The Curve, One Utama, Tesco, di sinilah tempat aku merayau-rayau. Actually tak beli apa pun tp saja je jalan dari hujung entrance ni sampai ke hujung nu.)
5. Jgn terlalu manjakan diri (especially for the first time preggers. Selalunya masa ni lah suami n keluarga nak tunjuk sayang yg teramat sgt. Biasanya tak boleh buat itu tak boleh buat ini. Mmg lah kdg2 kita rasa penat, letih dan tak larat. Tp kalau boleh jgn la terlalu mengambil kesempatan nak bermalas-malasan. Buatlah semua kerja-kerja rumah spt memasak,membasuh,mengemas dsb hingga ke hari-hari terakhir. Aku masih ingat malam sebelum bersalin tu aku dok masak mee goreng.Dan hari sebelum bersalin tu jugak aku still naik moto pi keja,melambung2 perut bila tayar masuk lubang.)
6. Makan je apa2 yg rasa nak makan (takdak pantang larang nak makan apa masa ngandung nih.ada org kata takleh makan kicap,takleh minum kopi,minum air soya tapi bukan yg dalam kotak mesti yg segar, takleh mkn nenas, takleh minum ais etc. kalau semua takleh mana nak dapat nutrient yg cukup betul tak. So aku lantak ja telan apa yg ada. Kalau setakat kicap tu taktau la berapa botoi dah habis. Alhamdulillah..anak aku boleh dikatakan putih la jugak...)
7. kalau boleh, dapatkan air/minyak selusuh, diminum/makan dengan nasik/ disapu pd perut masa perut 7 bulan. Insya Allah...mudah proses bersalin nanti (sesapa nak air/minyak ni cakap le sbb tok wan aku mmg tukang buat minyak ni. Bleh order free of charge)
8. Doa masa nak bersalin “Lailahailla anta subhanakainni kuntuminadzzalimin” (Sebut tak henti-henti sejak mula rasa contraction sampailah dah nak push)
9. Mintak ampun dari ibu dan suami masa dekat2 nak bersalin tu (maklumlah masa awal2 pregnant mesti banyak nyusahkan diorang kan.biasa la pertukaran hormon...ada yg pening2,muntah2,demam2,dan ada jugak yg sampai lari dari rumah! Hahahaha...sapa tuu...Ampunkan ayg na abg...buat perangai masa ngandung dulu..hehehhe)

Sekian petua moden dari saya. Saya bukanlah nak berlagak pandai atau besar kepala, tapi itulah apa yg saya lakukan dan saya dapati kesan/hasilnya amat memuaskan. Alhamdulillah...cuma 2 jam dalam labour room, dapatlah seketoi budak gemok bernama Zuzu....

ANTARA TOK KUNING DAN TAMAN IRA

I feel very tired now. Just arrived from kampung at 6 o’clock this morning, took a short nap and rushed to work. Phewww.....
Sampai je ofis dah ada meeting yg sedia menunggu. Letih gila. Aku rasa adalah dalam 1/10 drpd input perbincangan tu yg masuk dalam hotak. Yg lain2 tu ntah melayang ke mana, maybe ke alam maya kot. Aku betul2 ngantuk dan blur hari ni. Bila boss aku mintak opinion pun aku bg jawapan ntah hapa2. Tak senonoh betul.
Aku sebenaqnya tak kisah sangat dengan penat letih balik dari kampung ni. Tapi apa yg aku nak luahkan di sini ialah ketensionan aku semasa berada di kampung. Ok, mesti ramai yg selalu dengaq org kata kalau kahwin dengan org lain-lain negeri, nanti mesti selalu gaduh masa nak balik raya. Dan biasanya kita akan dengaq perbualan seperti ini ;

“Suami awak orang mana?”
“Orang Perlis jugak..”
“Ohhh...satu negeri...senang la nak balik kampung ek.Takyah berebut-rebut..”

Hahaha...aku kan kalau orang cakap mcm ni, dah taktau nak jawap apa. Amat salah sekali persepsi org itu. nampaknya org itu tak tahu kalau kahwin org satu negeri, perebutannya lagi hebat. Ini semua berdasarkan pengalaman aku yg tak habis-habis bergaduh dengan Amet setiap kali balik kampung. Sampai kadang-kadang aku rasa mcm takmau balik dah sampai bila-bila. Sejak dari aku baru kahwin, sampailah sekarang dah ada Zuzu,keadaan masih tak berubah. kedua-dua keluarga berebut2 nak mintak balik umah masing2.bila sampai ja kat sempadan Kedah-Perlis, sure sakit kepala aku memikir nak balik ke mana dulu.

Kalau aku balik rumah Amet dulu, tak lama pastu mesti dpat SMS mak/ayah aku “Bila nak balik sini. Kami dah lama tunggu ni. Mak dah ambik cuti sbb nak tunggu tengok cucu.”

Pastu bila dah balik rumah aku, dapat plak call dari mak/ayah mertua aku “Jom kita keluaq pi makan ikan bakaq kat kuala perlis.Kalau boleh malam ni jugak sbb kami dh janji dgn adik.”

And things like that lah yg membuatkan aku sentiasa rasa serba salah. Baru duduk kat rumah ni org nu panggil, baru dok rumah nu, org ni panggil.

So bila aku balik kampung, aku akan jadi keletihan yg amat sangat. Dan yg paling aku tak suka, aku dan Amet mesti bergaduh.

Walaupun kami selalu buat schedule siap-siap sebelum bertolak balik, tp bila sampai kat kampung schedule tu bleh buang kat longkang ja. Semua plan kami pasti akan dimusnahkan oleh interruption dari kedua-dua pihak. Contohnya masa kami plan nak dok Tok Kuning, ada jemputan kenduri plak kat keluarga Amet di Jitra. Masa tengah gebang-gebang kat Taman Ira, tok aku plak suruh pi rumah dia. Macam tu lah setiap kali balik, tak pernah puas hati. Orang nu buat ayat sedih, orang ni buat merajuk. Last-last yg gaduh, yg nangis, akuuu jugak.

Kadang2 aku rasa betul2 sakit hati, geram,marah dan menyampah nak balik. Maybe aku pun patut buat macam orang lain yg keras hati, balik kampung cuma setahun sekali. To be considered……

AIN ZULAIKHA AZMIR

Macam biasa aku bangun pagi, mandi dan terus gosok baju nak pi keja. Tapi tiba2 dapat SMS dari mak aku suruh bawak adik aku pi sepital sebab dia demam teruk,muntah dan cirit birit sampai dah lembek. Actually malam semalam aku dah bawak dia pi PPUM. Ingatkan dah OK,rupa2nya makin teruk pulak. So aku decide to call ofis and tell them aku on emergency leave. Bila aku masuk dalam bilik adik aku untuk ajak dia ke sepital,tengok2 dia dok tidoq lagi. Maybe keletihan sangat sbb dehydrated kot. So aku ingat baik jugak kalau aku pi buat check up perut dulu kat klinik. Lagipun mmg aku supposed to go on Monday, tp aku malas nak pi. But since petang semalam aku ada rasa senak2 sikit, aku ingat baik jugak aku pi klinik.

Aku kejut amet dan mintak kalau buleh dia pun ambik EL jugak sbb takut aku tak larat nak uruskan adik aku sorang2 nanti. So dia pun call ofis dan ambik EL. Since dia pun cuti, aku ajak la dia temankan aku pi klinik dulu.

Sampai kat klinik, nurse tu pun ambik BP dan test urine cam biasa. Tapi bila tengok result dia kata BP aku ni lebih tinggi lak drpd biasa. Dia Tanya kalau2 aku ada rasa apa2 mcm pening ka, kabur penglihatan ka,kot2 PE (preeclampsia). Aku kata pening tu takdak, tp ada la rasa mcm senak perut sikit2. so nurse tu advise suruh aku jumpa doctor.

Bila masuk bilik doctor, dia kata dia nak cek tengok ‘kat bawah’. Dan alangkah terkejutnya bila tetiba doctor tu kata “Emm… you dah siap beg baju utk ke sepital tak? I think you better go now sbb actually you dah open 3 cm, and even dah ada blood show pun haa…” sambil jarinya yg berlumuran darah tu ditunjukkan kat aku.

So aku pun keluar dan dgn muka slamber cakap kat amet “Abg, doctor suruh pi sepital. Dia kata ayg dah nak bersalin.”

And amet was so blur, mcm tak percaya “Eh ayg jgn la buat lawak. Betoi ka ni.”
“Betoi…jom kita balik ambik beg baju.”

Sampai di rumah, aku call mak sedara aku yg dok kat Sg Buloh supaya tolong bawak adik aku ke sepital sbb takut kalau amet tak bleh coupe kalau bawak kami dua2 sekaligus.
Then aku tukar baju,dan siapkan barang2 utk dibawak ke sepital. Sebelum keluar rumah aku sempat lagi ambik gambaq saat2 terakhir perut aku yg besar tu. Lepas ni dah nak kempis dah…

On the way ke sepital aku still tak rasa apa2, so aku still tak percaya yang aku ni tengah dalam perjalan nak pi wad bersalin. Aku menyanyi lagu Biru Mata Hitamku mengikut radio Era. Amet pun drive relax ja,tadak pecut2 mcm ambulan.Bila sampai kat sepital, aku ajak Amet pi café dulu, nak makan.tapi malangnya kat café tu takdak makanan yg menyelerakan so aku just minum teh ais dan roti.

Sudah makan,kami pun berjalan masuk ke wad bersalin tu. Bila sampai kat kaunter,nurse tu Tanya “Kamu datang untuk apa? Nak bersalin ke?” maybe dia musykil sbb tengok aku dok berlenggang2 membawa perut besaq tu sambil dok ralit berSMS dgn henfon. Habis register kami pun dibawa masuk ke bilik doctor utk mengesahkan sekali lagi sama ada aku ni mmg dah nak bersalin.

Doktor pun sekali lagi seluk kat dalam ‘toot’ “Hmm.. dah buka 4cm. oklah nanti saya mintak nurse bawak awak masuk wad.”

Lebih kurang pukul 2.00 ptg aku pun masuk ke wad dan disuruh berehat kat situ. Tapi sebaik sahaja aku nak baring2 atas katil tu aku mula rasa senak. Mula2 sikit2 dan sekali sekala ja. Bila budak2 trainee nurse tu dating pun aku still bleh buat lawak sambil gelak2 lagi dgn depa. Tapi lama2 makin sakit dan makin sakit. Menangis nangis jugak la sakitnya. Hehehe….pusing sana pusing sini,sat baring sat duduk semua tak kena.

Nurse2 kat situ asyik mai dok pujuk aku “Sabarla…nak bersalin mmg sakit. Awak kena tahan sikit. Ini baru buka 4cm, taktau berapa jam lagi baru nak bukak habis. Kalau kami bawak awak ke labour room pun takde apa yg boleh dibuat. Lagipun kalau dah masuk sana awak takleh makan minum dah.kalau 8 jam awak tak bersalin, 8 jam jugaklah awak takleh makan minum. Baik awak dok sini..” Dalam kepala aku terbayang2 kalau lah 8 jam lagi aku kena dok tahan kesakitan tahap melampau mcm ni, mau banjir hospital ni. Sakit gila ooo masa ni. Tak sangka, baru beberapa jam tadi aku dok happy2, ni tetiba ja bleh rasa sakit gila.

Tak lama pastu ada doctor datang dan aku dengaq dia cakap “I think we better bring her to the labour room now.”

So dalam pukul 5.00 ptg aku dimasukkan ke labour room. Masa dalam ni kesakitan aku makin bertambah disebabkan oleh contraction yg semakin kerap. Nurse suruh aku tarik nafas dalam2 bila rasa terlalu sakit. Tapi aku dah tak sedaq sama ada aku tarik nafas, atau tidak. Yg pasti dalam hati aku tak habis2 berdoa semoga aku cepat2 bersalin. Amet yg dok kat sebelah cuma mampu tengok ja. Masa ni aku mmg dah tak bagi dia nak usap2 aku, atau nak pegang tangan aku. Habis aku tolak tangan dia sbb aku rasa terlalu sakit sampai takleh ada sesapa pun yg sentuh aku.

Tak lama lepas tu doctor mai utk pecahkan water bag aku. Masa lepas water bag pecah ni, kesakitannya makin bertambah2. aku rasa mcm seluruh isi perut aku bergegar2. aku rasa baby aku menolak2 dengan kuat nak keluaq. Aku rasa mcm lubang depan dan belakang aku nak pecah sangat2. aku rasa mcm aku dah tak tertahan sangat2. aku rasa ada air yg membuak2 keluaq kat bawah sana.aku meraung dan menangis tak henti2.

Tak lama pastu nurse mai “ Haa.. dah effaced ni. Dah 8cm dah pun. Nanti kalau awak rasa dah nak teran panggil saya ye”

Lepas nurse keluaq tetiba aku rasa mcm perut aku berkocak kocak dengan kuat dan mcm ada sesuatu benda yg besaq dan berat menolak2 kat bawah tu. Aku menjerit “Abg!!!! Cepat panggil nurse…dah nak keluaq ni!!!!”

Lebih kurang pukul 6.50 pm aku stat meneran. Tapi tak menjadi sbb ni first time so aku tak pandai nak meneran. Nurse tu tak habis2 pulun “Teran lagi, kuat…sikit lagi ni. Jangan nangis, teran je. Kalau awak tak teran betul2 nanti baby awak lemas. Ni kepala dia dah keluar sikit ni. Bak sini tangan awak tu” Sambil tu dia capai tangan aku dan letak kat hujung kepala baby yg dan terkeluar sikit kat bawah tu.Tangan aku dapat merasa rambut2 yg basah dgn darah, tapi malangnya disebabkan aku tak kuat teran,kepala baby termasuk balik dalam perut.

Amet pun tak habis2 dok support “Ibu, teran lagi ibu…kuat2!! Tu dah nampak kepala baby tu. Sikit ja lagi. Cepat ibu, kesian kat baby”

Lama kelamaan aku rasa nurse tu pun dah tension. So dia panggil sorang lg nurse utk tolong.Nurse ni mcm ganas sikit. Sampai ja dia terus tekan perut aku. Nasib baik la masa ni aku pun terasa nak meneran sekuat2 hati. Aku tarik nafas dalam2 dan teran kuat2….tetiba aku rasa ada seketoi benda besaq keluaq dari lubang bawah tu. Tengok2 ja baby aku dah ada kat celah kangkang aku. Hahahha…terus hilang semua rasa sakit tadi. Betoi..dah tak rasa langsung dah sakit tu. macam magic ja.

Aku n Amet telah dikurniakan seorang baby girl pada jam 7.16 pm.Aku senyum ja tengok baby yg diletakkan atas dada aku. Kalau ikut hati aku nak gelak kuat2 sbb happy sgt. Tapi takut nurse tu lari plak. Best gila…mcm tak caya baby aku yg keluaq ni. Hehehe….sekianlah cerita mcmana aku bersalin.

Masa sakit tu rasa mcm inilah kali terakir aku nak beranak. Tapi bila baby keluaq ja,rasa macam best jugak bersalin nih. Hehehe….bleh la tambah sorang dua lagi pasnih.

Alhamdulillah atas kurniaanMu Ya Allah…

KAKI

Hmmm..kaki aku dah makin membengkak dan membesar. Macam belon yg ditiup sampai nak pecah. Nampak berkilat-kilat. Kadang2 tengok mcm kelakar. Kadang2 mcm geram. Dan kadang2 sedih.
Kasut aku semua dah tak muat nak pakai. Habis dah aku korek2 kotak kasut yg lama2. Still tak dapat masuk gak kaki gajah ni. Last2 jumpa kasut adik aku yg saiz 8, yg dah hampir rabak, yg dah memang dia confirm nak buang - aku ambik, aku letak selofan tape kat mana2 yg patut, dan itulah yg aku pakai pi ofis sekarang ni.
Kenapa tak beli kasut baru?
Nak makan pun dok bilang duit syiling, inikan pulak nak hulur RM10 (at least) untuk pelapik kaki?
Sabar ya kaki. Bila aku dah kaya nanti, aku lapikkan kau dengan Scholl. Biar kau tidak letih membawa aku ke sana sini.

DUIT DUIT....

Hai...susahnya bekerja di kalangan orang kaya2ni. Diorang ni bila2 masa ja bleh mintak duit. Aku tau semua ni company requirement, sbb tu depa bagi gaji besaq. Contohnya hari ni, depa mintak kami semua bayaq untuk company’s sweater. Sorang RM64.00 which I think very fair and just a small amount to everybody, but me. And they might simply ask to pay about RM50 per person for company’s outing/activity every month. And they’ll ask to go out for ladies day’s lunch (once a month) at expensive restaurants which I never stepped in before (but this one ok as it is under HR/Admin budget). And they asked to share on buying birthday gift worth few hundreds for one person despite whatever position she/he is (bayangkan kalau sebulan ada 3 orang celebrate bday?)

Actually nak kata depa kaya sangat pun dak jugak (sbb gaji semua lebih kurang sama ja). Tapi maybe depa takdak banyak hutang mcm aku kot. Aku mengaku aku mmmg byk hutang – kad keras la,PTPTpu la, kereta la,dan mcm2 lagi. Aku ni lebih separuh gaji memang guna untuk bayaq hutang ja. Yang lebih sikit2 lagi tu lah nak buat bayaq sewa rumah,mana dengan nak beranak lagi,nak beli barang baby lagi,nak makan lagi,nak bayaq bil,dan itu dan ini.semuanya cukup2 takat nak hidup ja. So mcmana la aku nak memenuhi permintaan depa tu?

Henfon aku dah kena bar hampir sebulan. Tapi aku takleh buat apa2 tanpa duit. Dan sebenaqnya bil aku cuma bernilai RM85.00 dan aku masih tidak mampu! Oh...sadisnya kan? Dan bayangkanlah jika aku tetiba sakit nak terberanak kat tengah jalan,agaknya mcamana la aku nak call orang? Tapi call 911 free kan?

Baju dan barang2 baby pun aku beli ala kadar ja. Itupun kalau ikutkan hati aku nak beli dalam sehelai dua ja. Kalau tak cukup baju, aku ingat nak balut ja dengan kain batik. Tapi adik aku yg beriya-iya sangat nak beli sampai 4 – 5 pasang. Dia kata kesian kat budak tu. Ini bukan masalah kesian atau tidak. Masalahnya aku tak cukup duit dah cik oi.Kain napkin dan barut aku dah kutip dari mak aku (yang adik beradik aku pakai turun-temurun). Kalau nak diikutkan plan asal, tilam baby tu aku cuma nak guna TOTO yg ada kat umah ja. Tapi mak aku pulak dok suruh beli. Terpaksalah aku beli gak. Tapi itu pun aku cuma beli tilam cap siam kat padang besaq ja. Takdakla baby aku nak merasa barang2 berjenama BebeHomes ke hapa. Kalau nak jugak,esok dah besaq hang beli sendiri. Hahaha…

Untuk barang2 aku pun aku cuma beli maternity pad ja. Itupun yg 10 keping punya, just enough to cover masa kat sepital. Kalau nak kira betul2, banyak lagi barang yg aku perlukan – pam susu, stoking, maternity bra, breast pad, dan few things lagi lah. Itupun ubat bersalin aku tak beli lagi. Hopefully sempat la tunggu next gaji utk beli ubat-ubatan. Otherwise, biaq ja lah urat2 aku mengembang dan membengkak.

Hari tu mak mentua aku mai, dia advise suruh beli flask ayaq panas. Terpaksa jugak aku pi beli. Itupun setelah aku mengajukan satu soklan bodoh “Err..mesti kena beli ka flask ayaq ni mak?” And the answer is “Ya, mesti. Sebab nanti takleh minum ayaq sejuk dah.”

Kalau orang tengok slip gaji aku, mesti orang tak percaya cerita2 ni semua. Tapi percayalah, aku terpaksa pikir dua tiga belas kali cuma untuk sebijik McChicken, iaitu burger yg paling murah kat McD.

Hari ni ialah birthday seorang ofismate, dan diorang semua telah mengajak aku untuk makan kat restoran. Tapi aku menolak dengan alasan terpaksa berjumpa dengan seorang kawan lama yg datang dari jauh. Padahal aku tak jumpa sapa2, dan cuma minum teh, dengan sekeping biskut wafer yg aku jumpa dari pantry, kerana, di dalam purse aku cuma ada RM1.48…..
Cerita ini bukanlah untuk memohon simpati daripada mana2 pihak (terutama pihak BersamaMu TV3), tetapi sebagai AMARAN untuk semua rakan2 dan pembaca, agar mengguna dan menguruskan wang (ketika senang) dengan sebaik mungkin. Banyakkan menyimpan, kurangkan berhutang. Sekian, peringatan untuk semua dan diri sendiri.

HSBC - Stupid Banking

Kad ATM aku semalam kena telan kad uptown masa aku cuba nak cek if gaji dah masuk. Bila aku pi jumpa Customer Service dia, dia suruh aku “datang semula esok”. Alasannya – sistem ni x dapat cek sekarang.

Hari ni aku dah call HSBC tu. Tau dak dia kata apa?

HSBC : Kami dah cek status kad cik, dan kami dapati kad itu bukan atas nama cik.
Aku : What????? Tak mungkin....
HSBC : Ya, mungkin cik tersalah bawak kad org lain ke? Kawan2 ke? Atau suami ke?
Aku : NOOOOO... Anyway bleh saya tau atas namasapa kad tu? Maybe tertukar dgn kawan ofis saya?
HSBC : Ok wait na..saya cek dulu...Ok cik, kad ni tak berdaftar atas nama sapa2.
Ayg : Whattt?????
HSBC : Lagipun bila saya cek, dalam akaun cik ni tak pernah ada memohon ATM kad. Dan tiada rekod menunjukkan kami dah issue ATM kad pada cik.
Aku : Isk isk isk...magicnya lah kan. Agaknya mcm mana la pulak ATM kad ni bleh ada dalam wallet saya. Dapat dalam mimpi kot. Siap ada bagi slip nombor pin lagi. Jin mana la yg kacau saya semalam...
HSBC : Kalau boleh saya cadangkan cik pergi semula ke Damansara Height (opening branch), dan bincang dgn diorang. Cik boleh apply ATM kad baru kat sana sebab kita mmg tak dapat pulangkan semual kad ni sbb bukan bawah nama/akaun cik.
Aku : Oklah!!

Gila bodoh menatang hsbc nih! I mean, come on..you advertise as an international banking body and so and so...and this thing happened?? Oh shittt!!!! I don’t wanna talk more. I’m so speechless....

IBU

This few days, I’m not feeling very well. Setakat badan rasa lenguh2 tu mmg toksah cerita lah. Siang malam lenguh habis satu badan. Duduk tak kena, baring tak kena, mengiring salah, terlentang salah. Semuanya serba tak betoi. Pinggang rasa mcm dah berkarat, keras semacam ja.
Kaki pulak makin mengembang. Aku cuma ada 2 pasang kasut ja yg masih muat untuk disarung ke kaki. Itupun satu selipar jepun, dan satu sandal. Itulah yg aku pakai pi ofis (tak bergaya langsung!) Dan bila malam ia semakin membengkak and mengejang. Bila suruh Amet urut, mcm biasalah, dia punya urut mcm pegang agar-agar – picit punyalah slow, x rasa apa pun. Pastu tak sampai seminit pun urut, dah stop. Pastu mcm2 lagi perangai dia – bila aku letak kaki depan dia, mula la dia buat muka terlena la, menguap la, mengeroh la. Teruk betoi.

Perut pulak bila malam selalu rasa keras kat bahagian atas. Tak pasti sebab apa, tapi doktor kata itu biasa (tapi aku tak biasa!).Kdg2 sakit sgt sampai takleh tido.And plus when my baby kicks, it becomes tougher (I have a strong feeling that my baby’s leg is going to be quite long (mcm Amet) because bila dia kick rasa mcm nak pecah perut aku). Since I’m already in my 34th weeks (about 8 months), the baby kicks more frequent, and it makes me too exhausted (and sometime angry too – sudah2la menendang, go to sleep! Ibu tak larat laa...) I know that my baby cannot wait to come out and see me, and so do I (actually aku taknak dia keluar too fast sbb takut takdan lepas probation period, tp aku tak sabar nak beranak sbb aku dah tak larat menanggung badan yg gemuk ni).
And if according to pregnancy ticker, I have another 6 weeks to go – lambatnya....tak sabar dah nak get back to my slim figure nih. Hehehe....

And going up talking about my breast (Syyhhh..this is secret, baca and shut up,don’t say anything!), I’m currently facing this situation of “Colustrum Leakage” - well, you know when the so called “early milk” or “susu awal ibu” is coming out from my nipple (without any signals ok – and tiba2 ja baju aku rasa basah kat situ). This is agak menggelikan, yet sometime it’s quite exciting and fun though. I always ask amet to use it as face-cream (hey do you know people is making money out there using colustrum – and they sell it at minimum price of RM350 per small bottle, and you are just leave it wasted?). I tell you guys, colustrum is really a charm – it’s only a matter of using it or not.

And another concerns that I have now is nose-bleeding. According to physicians & studies, It is normal to have nose-bleeding during pregnancy because the blood vessel tends to expand and it may give pressure (especially utk yg berhidung mancung mcm aku ni). But worse has come to worse where now I also have to face the symptoms of “muntah berdarah”. It normally happens in the morning or at night, where I always feel like vomitting. It sounds a bit scary, but yes, it does happen – to me.

And with all this symptoms,it gives me nightmares almost every nite – terberanak masa tido la (tup tup bangun pagi,baby dah ada sebelah),pastu mimpi aku mati masa beranak and then become a vampire with beautiful face and bleeding nose,terbang merata-rata mencari mangsa (hiieee....hiiieee....best o bleh terbang...) and macam2 lagilah.
Well, those are the early challenges to be a mother – it’s not that easy,ok. Dan tujuan cerita ini bukanlah untuk menakut2kan sesiapa yg ingin mengandung, tetapi sebagai panduan serta peringatan untuk menghargai kasih sayang seorang IBU (sob sob...).

YUE & AMET DAH PINDAH

Dah lama jugak x updet.Actually Amet and I hv moved to new place, Mutiara Damansara, on April 28th. So dekat rumah baru ni x ada talian hayat internet lagi. Talking about the rumah, we ‘accidentally’ got one in the ground floor. Secara tak sengaja that day we just jalan-jalan cari rumah in that area, and noticed an iklan, so that we call the landlord and ta da...it’s in ground floor. So without waiting longer we paid him a deposit and moved on two weeks later.
Well the rental is a bit expensive compared to the previous one, eventhough size is just about the same. But since it’s in a well-managed environment, and not too crowded with cars and people, and the most important is this house has a separate kitchen (not like the previous one where there’s no wall/divider between hall and “so-called-kitchen”), we found this is the most suitable (yet affordable) to welcome the baby.
But until today, kami belum habis berkemas lagi. We just managed to settle the ruang tamu and kitchen and bed room and guest room. While the bilik bacaan/bilik komputer/store left untouched.
It has been about 10 days since we moved and we have received guests in almost everyday! The first one was ‘sepupup kesayangan’ Amet and his wife and mother. The second one was Pah. The third comes in group of “Gang SS2” which is Siti, Rose, Cik Mah and Wawa (siti brought pizza – thanx!). And the fourth is Along (my sister in-law) and abg Fauzan, together with Boyot and Isma and also Kak Ngah (my sister).
And in this new house, kami telah ‘terpaksa’ memasang Astro sebab tiada channel tv yg dapat didetect. Actually we don’t really need Astro as our whole week is already filled up with tv programmes on TV3 and NTV7. These 2 channels are already enough for us.Tapi tu lah, as I said, kami ‘terpaksa’ pasang astro....
So itu sahajalah sedikit cerita tentang rumah baru ni. Sesapa yg nak datang melawat, you are most welcomed.

MY NEW WORK SPACE

TADAA......Lets have a look...very nice aaa...tp sayang tak dapat ambik gambaq kerusi hijau yg cantik itu. Tertolak ke tepi pulak masa ambik gambaq tadi. tapi palah. that's all..nak menunjuk ja. Well, by the way, do you notice my MacMini over there? Just next to the monitor. MAybe you all tak perasan.Maklumlah...it a mini. well,please focus.Thank you.Hahahaha.....

Aku kan paling sangat tak suka bila orang komen apa yg aku pakai masa aku tengah pregnant ni. Aku memang tak suka pakai maternity dress. That’s it. Full stop.
Pagi ni pagi-pagi lagi aku dah hangin. Kat ofis aku ni ada seorang tea-lady. She’s 2 years younger than me. But she’s already a mother of two. So she always pretend that she has thousands of pregnancy experiences to share.
Apa yg dia cakap yg membuatkan aku bengang sangat tu?
Dia : Eh, kau pakai jeans ker?(We are allowed to wear jeans/casual to office on Friday)
Aku : Ha a…
Dia : Isk, tak elok pakai ketat-ketat masa tengah ngandung ni.
Aku : Tak ketatlah. Ni seluar orang mengandung la. Ada getah kat pinggang ni..
Dia : Ye lah tu..walaupun ada getah, tapi ketat. Tak elok untuk baby.
Aku : Mana ada, apa yg tak elok tu? Diorang dah buat research la before jual seluaq ni.
Dia : Nati baby kau takleh nak gerak.
Aku : Ok.
(Biasala aku bukan suka sangat gaduh2 dengan orang yg cakap tanpa asas saintifik ni)

And I am kind of a person that don’t really care about all those “don’t-do-that-things”. I eat everything I want, I drink cold water and ice-creams all the time, I put soy ketchup in my cooking and rice, I watch ghost and scarry movies, I sleep on my tummy, I run and jump, I ride motorcycle to work, and all. – I believe that getting pregnant should not be a barrier to have fun and enjoy your life, rite?

And so I think when it comes to dressing. I think i can still bergaya as usual - wear pants and jeans and skirts. But of course i'll make sure it's the maternity pants with kanggaroo bag in-front. And i can still feel my baby kicking all the time (Baby aku sekarang ni mmg active gila. Menendang tak henti-henti.Penat ooo)

So that's the story lah.(Actually byk lg nak lepas geram nih, tp dah buat appointment dgn tuan rumah, dia dah call. dan nak maki puas-puas..)

STARBUCK

Just a short and sweet story to share.Has been quite busy with new job, so tak sempat nak update lagi. Anyway, today I’m not going to bercerita about my new office. Maybe weekend ni, I really need to update – there’s a lot of story to tell.

So today, let me tell you what has happened during the lunch time tadi. Normally we will go out for lunch at about 12.30 p.m. But today ada beberapa orang contractor nak buat sedikit kerja, and they need to shut off the main electricity switch. So we went out for lunch early – at almost 12 o’clock. So after makan2, we lepak2 for a while lah while waiting for the contractor to finish their job. Then later come our HR Manager,Kris, also wants to makan there.
While waiting for her to finish food, we borak2 about our birthdays. Then suddenly Kris said “ Eh, tomorrow is Alex birthday la. What are we going to give him aaa? What does he like?”
Then the talkative Kiran comes with her idea “I saw that everyday he brings Starbuck coffee to office. How about treating him with Starbuck’s voucher?”
Haaa..gooodd idea – everybody agree.

Suddenly Kris’s phone rang “Ah.. I need to go back to office now. The contractor is waiting for me. Ha by the way who’s going to purchase the Starbuck’s voucher? How about Agasthiya and Yuz?”
Ok – we both agree.

So Agasthiya and I walked down to the Starbuck café.
Me : Hi, ummm we would like to purchase a voucher.
The Guy : Oh ok, but you need to go thru my manager, and he’s currently not in the office. Maybe pergi toilet kot.
Us : Ok, we will wait here.
The Guy : Ok, please have a seat.

After waiting for a while…we still didn’t see the manager’s batang hidung.
Us : Lambat lagi ker?
The Guy : Ummm..not sure. Maybe he went to the bank.
Us : What? Tadi you kata dia pergi toilet?
The Guy : Err…sorry actually I’m not sure. Anyway, would you like to have some drink?
Us : (Dengan muka bengang) Kalau free ok laa….(Gila x tau malu)
The Guy : Yaa….sure sure, I’ll give you free. What do you want?
Us : Anything laa..as long as not plain water (Demand pulak)
The Guy : Hehehehe…of course. I’ll give you Iced Latte ok?
Then we got our Iced Latte, one each. Good customer service haa..??? But the manager still not coming back.

Aghasthiya : Eh Yuz, you see or not, that guy aaa..is not giving this because of customer service you know. He’s looking at you la..i think he is flirting with you laa..
Me : Hahahaha..maybe he didn’t see my big tummy haa??
Aghasthiya : Ya lah, I think so. Hahahaha…
Me : I think we should go back first la. Maybe can ask their phone number so that we can call the boss later.

We walk to the counter..
Us : Can we have your phone number. We cannot wait for long.
The Guy : Errr..what if you give me YOUR phone number (sambil mengeluarkan handphonenya, dan tengok kat aku), then I can ask my boss to call you back.
Me : Aghasthiya, give yours la. I didn’t bring mine.
The Guy : Oooo.. (muka frust).
Hahahaha…what do you think? I will simply give my phone number over one cup of free coffee? Jangan harap la dik oi…Cuba celik mata kau tu luas2 tengok kat perut akak ni…

Then Aghasthiya gave hers, and we walked out of the café with free latte in our hands. Hahahha…..what a nice day haa….Lalalala….kami bernyanyi riang…..

GELI ISK GELILAH!

Saya bangun pada pukul 4 pg semalam untuk kencing. Dengan mata separuh terbuka saya membuka paip.Tiba-tiba mata micro saya terpandang sesuatu di sebelah kepala paip itu. Bukan hantulah! Tapi seekor haiwan/hidupan mini yg amat menggelikan.Cukup untuk membuatkan kencing saya tidak mahu keluar. Saya mencampak getah paip dan berlari keluar dari tandas.

Saya kembali untuk tidur. Tapi saya tidak boleh.Saya terfikir mahu menSMS adik saya di USM tentang haiwan ini (kerana dia orang pertama yg menemuinya di rumah ini beberapa minggu yg lalu).Tapi saya sangat kegelian hingga tidak mampu utk memegang henfon.

Saya terus tidak boleh tidur.Saya menjauhkan bantal dari dinding kerana takut haiwan itu ada di dinding tempat saya tidur.Saya mencampak selimut jauh-jauh kerana takut dia berada di selimut saya.Saya mengibas-ngibas tilam kerana risau dia terjatuh di situ.Saya membuka lampu dan melihat sekeliling dinding,atas lantai,atas baju dan semuanya.Saya betul2 kegelian.Saya tutup pusat saya supaya baby saya tidak melihat haiwan itu.Akhirnya saya terlelap,tapi ditemani mimpi tentang haiwan itu.Tahi!!!! (Shit!!!!)

Haiwan itu rupanya begini : Ia sangat kecil,bersaiz lebih kurang 3-5mm,berbentuk oval,dengan bahagian tengahnya agak kembang,berwarna kelabu dengan sedikit titik-titik,dan di hujungnya keluar satu kepala berbentuk seperti cacing/ulat halus berwarna hitam.Yucksss!!!! Mendescribe ciri-cirinya di entri ini sudah cukup membuatkan tekak saya meremang.

Pagi ini saya bangun dan perut saya berasa sangat sakit (saya mahu buang air besar).Saya kejutkan Amet supaya pergi membuang haiwan itu dengan segera.Tapi dia memang sangat malas untuk bangun pagi. Dia suruh saya menangis dulu,peluk dulu,merengek dulu,barulah dia membuang haiwan itu.Namun begitu,semasa melepaskan hajat,saya masih berasa tidak selesa dan takut kalau-kalau haiwan itu masih wujud.Saya fikir saya tidak membuang saki baki perut saya sehabis-habisnya.Laluan saya merasa tertutup kerana badan saya terlalu tertekan.Mata saya tak henti-henti melilau ke kiri kanan atas dan bawah.

Sehingga waktu ini saya masih belum mandi kerana rasa kegelian itu masih belum hilang.Tambahan pula lampu bilik mandi saya sudah rosak, dan saya tidak dapt melihat apa sebenanya yg ada di dalamnya.

Saya juga tidak bersandar ke dinding semasa menonton TV hari ini kerana hati saya tidak berasa yakin.Saya betul-betul takut.Saya betul-betul geli.

Saya juga tidak lalu hendak makan hari ini.Saya fikir sebentar lagi saya mahu keluar dan makan di mana-mana.Tapi dalam kepala saya sudah berfantasi terlalu jauh ---> Bagaimana kalau kedai-kedai makan itu juga ada haiwan seperti ini? Bagaimana kalau haiwan-haiwan itu jatuh ke dalam perkakas mereka tanpa disedari?

Saya tidak mahu makan.Saya juga tidak mahu tinggal dalam rumah ini.Saya geli.

Sudah sepagian saya menelek laman-laman web yg mengiklankan rumah.Saya mahu berpindah dengan segera.Saya sudah tidak tahan lagi hidup dalam ketakutan seperti ini.Saya lebih rela berhadapan dengan harimau atau singa.Tapi saya betul-betul benci pada hidupan mikrob dan juga haiwan yg "diam". Contohnya seperti cacing,lintah,pacat,ulat dan sekaumnya.Kerana mereka ini tidak berbunyi dan tiada isyarat untuk menggigit kita.Tiba-tiba saja sudah melekat di kaki menghisap darah.Saya betul-betul benci pada haiwan jenis ini ---> mereka tidak meminta,tapi mendatangi dalam senyap.

Sebenarnya ia bukan satu yg ada di dalam rumah ini. Sejak adik saya datang, kami sudah menemui beberapa ekor dan membuangnya.Kemudian selang beberapa kami menemuinya lagi.Ia seakan-akan tidak akan pernah habis.Saya tidak ada idea bagaimana ia datang,wujud atau membiak.Ia melekat di dinding-dinding dan pintu.

Sebelum ini (dan sehingga kini), perabot-perabot kayu di rumah saya diserang kulat seolah-olah 'white fungus'.Saya terpaksa saban minggu mencucinya.Tapi yg ini saya kurang geli kerana sekurang-kurangnya saya tahu ia tumbuhan,fungus,yg tidak akan merayap ke mana-mana.

Tapi haiwan yg baru muncul ini...dengan rupanya yg jelik..dengan identitinya yg tidak diketahui...saya menjadi sangat benci!!!! Ia sangat misteri. Ia sangat unidentified.

Saya berfikir,gaji bulan ini saya mahu memberi duit muka untuk menyewa rumah baru.Saya betul-betul sudah tekad.Saya tidak kisah untuk mengangkut dan mengemas barang dengan perut yg sarat.Asalkan saya dapat tinggal tanpa was-was.

P/S : Amet,tolong luluskan permintaan saya yg satu ini ya.

FACT OF LIFE

Sometime God is giving something BIG , sometime He also takes back something BIG.
He is just doing fair - especially for somebody who always leave Him behind.
Dont be angry to God, dont be angry to yourself, but change and improve.
Life is a very long journey.
There's a lot that we've learnt. There's a lot we are learning.There's still a lot we need to learn.
Alhamdulillah....Thank You God for giving me a LIFE to learn.

Allah berfirman maksudnya: “Sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. – (Surah al-Insyirah, ayat 6)

PREGANCY DICTIONARY

afterbirth- when the hard part begins

cravings- an excuse to gluttonize your way through pregnancy

dilation- one of those things a pregnant woman has to take her doctor's wordfor

elastiphobia- fear of making it into the Guinness Book of World Records for"Most Stretch Marks"

first trimester- the first three months of pregnancy when you wonder, "Is ittoo late to hire a surrogate mother?"

maternity clothes- what a pregnant woman wears to show people there's areason she's fat

miracle- 1. the birth of a baby 2. The fact that you lived to tell about it

obstetrician- the doctor who tells you you're doing fine when you thinkyou're caught in the jaws of death

pregnant pause- the amount of time it takes for a nine-month pregnant womanto get out of a chair

prenatal- when your life was still your own

pushing- the final effort to get a ten-pound baby through an opening thesize of a dime

second trimester- the time when you ask the question, "Will my husbandnotice if I eat this gallon of ice cream and side of beefbefore he gets home?"

third trimester- the final months of pregnancy when you wonder, "How muchlonger can I keep from waddling?"

This joke was supplied by Laughzone.com !

NOT FAIR & NOT SQUARE


Hai...susah...susah...serba tak kena aku dengan Cerebos ni. Maybe i've never mentioned before yg aku keja kat sini sebenarnya just on contract basis sbb nak assist ex-boss aku yg tengah maternity leave. So mengikut perjanjian yg telah ditangani aku hanya perlu bekerja apabila diperlukan. Maksudnya aku boleh datang bila-bila masa, pukul berapa yg aku suka,dan boleh jugak bercuti bila-bila masa yg aku suka; provided keja aku siap.

Memandangkan keadaan yg agak flexible itu jugak, mereka berjanji utk membayar aku dengan bayaran yg agak 'longgar'. Maksudnya gaji aku cuma seciput miut. Dan aku setuju untuk dibayar sedikit dengan syarat keja aku jugak cuma sedikit.

Tapi apa yg aku tak puas hati sekarang ni, aku rasa aku dah keja mengalahkan manager.

1. Suatu hari ketika aku bercadang utk berehat di rumah (sbb aku confirm dh takde keja nak buat), salah seorang staf telah menelefon aku dan meminta aku segera ke ofis sbb ada pegawai Jakim datang utk inspection.Aku suruh dia layan dan tunjuk je apa-apa dokumen yg Jakim mintak. Aku yakin diorang tu tak akan lama. Biasanya diorang ni datang buat eksyen je lebih, saja nak bg org takut la konon.Tapi budak ni still insist nak jugak aku dtg sbb dia masih baru.Terpaksa la aku pergi jugak ofis. Bila aku sampai,org Jakim tu cuma tanya itu ini sikit2,buat-buat pandai (tp nasib baik aku lg pandai),pastu dlm 15 minit diorang pun blah.Huh...buat membazir minyak keta aku ja.Dah la sakit hati melayan diorang ni - konon nak suruh org buat on-line application.Tp on the same time, nak jugak suruh apply secara manual.Pegawai tu kata utk mengelakkan drpd kehilangan data.Haahahahaa...lawak bodoh betoi la...Kuno!!!! Apa hangpa ingat aku byk masa sgt nak buat dua keja utk satu benda? Isk isk isk...encik....kalau nak buat on-line,buat la betul-betul.Kalau masih tak mampu,dan tak berkebolehan,buat je lah cara manual.Hangin aku...hangin....

2. Aku terpaksa arrange satu meeting between a supplier from Singapore dgn manufacturer from Batu Caves. Dan aku terpaksa dtg ofis setiap hari just utk check emails and phone calls from them.Dan diorang sgtlah susah utk dihubungi, dan jugak amat susah utk memberikan cuma satu tarikh yg diorang free utk meeting itu.Dan yg menjadi mangsanya ialah aku - duit aku yg seciput itu terpaksa dihabiskan utk mengisi minyak kereta semata-mata utk dtg baca email. Bullshitttt...

3. Aku juga merasa sangat, sangat, sangat geram apabila orang-orang kat sini selalu sgt tanya aku "Kau dtg keja pukul brpa hari ni,dtg lewat ek?". Atau begini "Eh,how come yesterday you tak dtg keja pun? Ponteng ek?" Atau juga begini "Eh, baru pukul 4 p.m. dah nak balik ke?". Dan jugak begini "Kau ni mcm biskut laa..sekejap ada sekejap takde.Boss tak ada kau main-main ek."
Pakcik-pakcik dan makcik-makcik sekalian, semasa boss ada pun saya tak akan segan silu untuk datang lewat balik awal, atau tidak datang langsung sbb saya mmg telah diarahkan untuk berbuat begitu. Jangan sampai saya sumbat mulut tu dengan periuk ayam nie....Geramnyaaa!!!!!!!!!

4. Sampai hari ni, gaji aku yg cuma separuh dari gaji operator tu,still tak masuk-masuk lagi. Aku dah empat lima kali call HR tp dia kata big boss outstation, so takde sapa nak sign cheque tu.Dia kata lg diorang akan balik next Monday,kalau sempat diorang akan sign.Kalau tidak aku kena tunggu lagi dan lagi dan lagi....Haaaa..bagus sgt lah kalau mcm tu....Jgn harap la aku nak dtg ofis minggu depan. Aku dah takdak duit nak isi myk la mangkok...!!!

5. Memandangkan aku dah lama meninggalkan company ni, so bila aku dtg balik, of course lah aku dtg dgn a new style (actually takdakla beza sgt cuma ada la beberapa helai baju baru). So makcik-makcik kat sini mulalah menyibuk - tanya aku mana kau beli baju ni, berapa ringgit, jenis apa. Malah ada yg sampai dah tertahan tangan tu, terus menyelak leher baju aku sbb nak tengok brand/label. Isk isk isk...makcik tolonglah...makcik-makcik jgn haraplah dapat pakai baju mcm saya ni. Baju-baju saya ni semua mahai....takdak kat Malaysia ni. Ni semua imported punya... (Made in Thailand). Hiiiiiiiii.......sakit betoilah hati aku.

6. Terpaksa layan sorang manager yg begitu kelam kabut dan tak tahu apa-apa. Semua benda dia confuse. Org cakap lain dia fikir lain. Orang tanya lain dia jawab lain. Sedangkan dokumen yg dibelek tiap-tiap hari pun dia masih tak sedar lagi benda tu dah lama wujud.Bila dia tanya, aku jawab.Pastu tanya lagi sbb tak paham-paham samapi sudah.Aku mmg heran mcmana dia ni bleh jadik manager. Dah la kelam kabut mcm ribut,keja tak organized,pastu ntah hapa hapa lah dia ni.Bluurrrrr...........

Memandangkan keadaan begitu genting sekali, aku dah tak sabar2 nak bg notice berenti.Aku akan berhenti sebulan lebih awal drpd contract itu.Kalau mengikut hati yg kejam,aku mcm nak bernti hari ni jgk.Tp nasib baik ada lg separuh hati aku yg baik.Kesian jgk kt boss aku yg tgh confinement tu. Dengan membantu dia ni,aku harap-harap masa aku bersalin nanti,aku pun dpt bercuti dgn senang hati jgk.