I"LL BE WORKING
It has been 21 days since aku berhenti keja. In the meantime, I have submitted lots of job applications – tapi belum ada yang nak panggil aku interview or have a ‘chit chat’.
Yet, still ada orang tuduh dan anggap aku sengaja melepakkan diri kat rumah, tanpa sebarang usaha mencari keja. Hey I want to tell you something, eventhough aku tak kerja, aku tak pernah mintak duit kat sapa-sapa tau. I eat and pay the house rental, the bills on my own. Aku Cuma tengah tunggu ada orang panggil aku interview. And on the same time, I keep on sending resume to here and there.
Aku bukanla nak mengungkit apa-apa, terutama perihal duit muit nih. Tapi kekadang terasa sedih jugak kalau selalu sangat dengar kata-kata pedih macam ni. Lagi satu janganla salahkan aku berhenti keja kat Cerebos tu. Kalau lah org yg berkata-kata tu yg ambik position aku masa kat cerebos dulu, mesti dia keja tak sampai setahun pun. At least aku boleh gak la tahan sampai 20 bulan.
Kalau lah pembaca sekalian meneroka kembali liputan blog aku sebelum sebelum ni,most of it adalah caci maki dan kutukan terhadap keja aku sendiri. Banyak sangat dah aku mention how I was so stressed working there – especially when liasing with those fucking damn gov bodies.
I really hate that! Aku benci ! Aku memang dah tak boleh tahan keja situ! Benda dah lepas, aku dah tinggalkan position tu, apa nak pikiaq lagi. Sudahlaa.
Disebabkan mulut yang berinsuran itu terus berkata-kata mengutuk aku, aku terpaksa mengambil initiative untuk tidak terus duduk ja kat umah (Dia ingat aku dok umah goyang kaki dan bontot ja. Dia tak tau aku basuh baju laki aku, kemas umah, masak, p buang sampah, p kedai, banyak tau keja aku).
Dengan sengaja aku telah pergi round-round petang semalam, and voila ! Hari ni aku dah dapat keja. Tak kisah la gaji sikit pun, as long as aku ada duit sendiri, cukupla buat sementara waktu ni. So I will back to work tomorrow….
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
MAJLIS PERKAHWINAN YUE & AMET
Dah lama sesangat tak updet kat sini.So hari ni nak pulun cerita kisah masa hari kenduri.Rasa terkilan sampai hari ni, walaupun dah 12 hari berlalu.Rasa sakit hati dan sedih, dan tak puas hati masih bengkek kat jiwa aku nih.
Selalu bergenang ja ayaq mata bila ingat kata-kata ayah “Hari kenduri nanti make sure camera ada org pegang, ambik gambaq suasana kenduri – masa org siang daging, buat keja2 persiapan.At least satu camera pun ok. Tapi lagi baik kalau **** yg janji nak ambik video tu ada. Kalau adik beradik lain yg ada camera, sruh depa ambik gambaq majlis kenduri tu sama. Jgn ambik gambaq pengantin ja, ambik gambaq org2 yg buat kerja ni jugak.”
Sampai ke hari ni aku masih termimpi-mimpi, kalaulah aku boleh undurkan masa, aku ingin kembali ke hari kenduri tu, pegang camera, ambik gambaq majlis tu, khas untuk ayah…..Maafkan saya ayah…..
Dan tentatif majlis jugak tak berjalan lancar seperti yg telah dirancangkan. Supposed to be aku kena siapkan diri by 12 o’clock and get ready kat umah aku, layan tetamu. Tapi, disebabkan mak andam aku tu fully booked, maka make up aku telah di delay sampai pukui 1.30 tgh hari. Aku balik umah, dan pengantin lelaki pun sampai.
Sepatutnya kami duduk lama sikit kat umah aku, sbb dh lewat sampai. Kena la bagi peluang tetamu yg mai umah aku utk tengok aku. Lagipun kalau balik umah pengantin lelaki awai2 pun takde maknenye sbb semua kawan2 amet pun dah mmg ada kat umah aku. Tetapi disebabkan oleh seorang pakcik tua yg nak sangat memelihara adat kononnya, kami telah dipaksa dengan sekeras-kerasnya untuk balik ke mah pengantin lelaki tepat jam 3 petang. Semua org kat umah aku – mak, ayah, sedara mara semua terkejut dan keadaan menjadi sgt kelam kabut. Tapi aku terpaksa. Aku tak mampu buat apa-apa lagi melainkan melangkah lemah ke sana.
Kalaulah aku boleh buat kenduri sekali lagi, aku akan pastikan hati mak dan ayah betul-betul gembira…..
Dan bila malam, sepatutnya aku dan amet balik tidoq kat umah aku. Sepatutnya balik awai, dalam pukui 9, sebab nak cover yg siang tadi. tapi disebabkan ramai yg mementingkan diri sendiri, tau depa ja nak seronok,langsung tak memikirkan hati aku yg sedih dan terkilan sejak siang tadi lagi, sampai pukui 10 mlm aku masih lagi terpacak kat sana, tak . Kononnya lepas bukak hadiah lepas maghrib aku bolehla balik. Tapi depa dok bergelak ketawa, nak makan nasik la, nak mandi la, nak itu, nak ini, semuanya dilakukan dalam keadaan yg amat lembap dan mengada-ngada sekali – membuatkan aku rasa nak mengamuk. Kalau ikut hati nak ja aku call ayah suruh mai ambik aku kat sini.
Disebabkan terlalu stress dan tertekan, kepala aku pun naik pening dan muntah-muntah. Masa tu barulah aku dibawak keluar dari situ. Disebabkan laki aku ni pulak terlalu excited (sbb period aku dah lewat 9 hari masa tu), dia nak sangat2 bawak aku jumpa doktor. Sekali lagi kat hospital tu aku mengamuk, menjerit2 mcm org gila, call mak aku suruh mai ambik aku kat situ. Sebab aku dah terlalu amat sanagt tension dan stress.Ak nak balik umah! Aku nak balik umah!!!!!!
Sampai umah dlm pukui 12, aku mandi, rest, barulah rasa lega sikit. Kalaulah aku tau yg majlis kendri kawen ni macam ni punya dahsyat, mampoih aku tak buat. Biaqla org kata aku kawen lari, aku rela, daripada terpaksa melukakan hati banyak pihak. Aku betoi-betoi mintak maaf pada semua……
Thursday, August 17, 2006
PENGANGGUR
Today is the first day for me being an unemployed person or better to say “Penganggur Berijazah”. Whatever you would like to call me, please go ahed. I don’t mind people staring strangely at me thinking that I’m trying to habis licinkan duit laki aku. As long as aku ada good planning, and hopefully everything blessed by God, aku rasa aku puas hati buat macam nih.
Anyway, to tell the truth aku dah dapat satu interview this Wednesday, Ag 23rd. And this interview is not calang-calang because we need to go through a test which is soalan pun susah nak paham,apatah lagi nak jawab.But Alhamdulillah, I have passed the test and now offered for the next step. Bukan aku nak kutuk, but this is really a true story from my friend (ex-UM). They all dah attend this test for few times, ada yg dah 4 times, ada yg dari sebelum kahwin sampai dah dapat anak dua,they apply every year, tapi sampai ke hari ini still havent got the chance to go for the interview. And they are really shocked when I told them that I got it, even thogh this is the first time I apply. Very-very much Thanks and Praise to Allah --- Alhamdulillah…
So tonite, Amet and I will go back to Perlis. Cant wait to see what is already prepared for the kenduri. I hope everything will be as per scheduled.
Oh ya, one more thing. I am typing and uploading this entry at our apartment – which means that we already have phone line and internet! Yeehaaa…!!!!
Today is the first day for me being an unemployed person or better to say “Penganggur Berijazah”. Whatever you would like to call me, please go ahed. I don’t mind people staring strangely at me thinking that I’m trying to habis licinkan duit laki aku. As long as aku ada good planning, and hopefully everything blessed by God, aku rasa aku puas hati buat macam nih.
Anyway, to tell the truth aku dah dapat satu interview this Wednesday, Ag 23rd. And this interview is not calang-calang because we need to go through a test which is soalan pun susah nak paham,apatah lagi nak jawab.But Alhamdulillah, I have passed the test and now offered for the next step. Bukan aku nak kutuk, but this is really a true story from my friend (ex-UM). They all dah attend this test for few times, ada yg dah 4 times, ada yg dari sebelum kahwin sampai dah dapat anak dua,they apply every year, tapi sampai ke hari ini still havent got the chance to go for the interview. And they are really shocked when I told them that I got it, even thogh this is the first time I apply. Very-very much Thanks and Praise to Allah --- Alhamdulillah…
So tonite, Amet and I will go back to Perlis. Cant wait to see what is already prepared for the kenduri. I hope everything will be as per scheduled.
Oh ya, one more thing. I am typing and uploading this entry at our apartment – which means that we already have phone line and internet! Yeehaaa…!!!!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
ADIK
A : Adik kau tu umur berapa?
B : 21
A : Ooo..belajar lagi la? Belajar kat mana? Ke dah keja? Tak sambung belajar?
B : Belajar lagi
A : Kat mana? Universiti ke Kolej?
B : USM je...
A : Ooo USM je. Local uni la. Kat sini ja la. Ambik course apa?
B : Course biasa2 ja.Lebih kurang mcm aku dulu.
A : Ooo..course gamble la ni.Asal dapat belajar je lah ek.
B : Hmm..biasalah. Kau ada adik?
A : Ada..Adik aku lebih kurang sebaya dgn adik kau jugak. Tapi dia sekarang dekat oversea. Belajar medic. Jadik doktor la nanti adik aku tue. Adik aku belajar kat Russia nu...Rusia kat Moscow.Dia ni memang terrer gila. Ni dia dah balik Mesia,aku kena la bawak dia jalan2 merata.Adik kau takpalah dok kat sini ja.Bila2 pun boleh jalan2 ek.Adik aku tu dah la belajar jauh. Balik setahun sekali ja. aku kena la bawak dia gi jejalan puas-puas. Ni nak kena bawak dia gi tengok movie ni.Kesian la kat dia. Adik kau takpa lah dekat Penang je. Bila-bila pun boleh gi tengok movie.Ni dia balik ni, aku dah bawak dia gi beli barang2 komputer dia. Kau tahu, bila orang2 kat kedai komputer tu tanya apsal aku beli komponen je, aku cerita sakanlah dekat diorang sbb adik aku belajar kat Rusia. Nak bawak balik sana barang ni semua. Habis orang2 kat kedai tu semua tercengang-cengang.Bangga betul la aku. Cina-cina tu semua terkejut ja sebab aku ada adik belajar kat Rusia.
B : Dia ni salah dengar soalan ke? Aku cuma tanya "dia ada adik ke tak" je? Agaknya sebab tu lah SPM dia lingkup. Lain orang tanya, lain yg dia jawap. Pekak ke buta?
A : Adik kau tu umur berapa?
B : 21
A : Ooo..belajar lagi la? Belajar kat mana? Ke dah keja? Tak sambung belajar?
B : Belajar lagi
A : Kat mana? Universiti ke Kolej?
B : USM je...
A : Ooo USM je. Local uni la. Kat sini ja la. Ambik course apa?
B : Course biasa2 ja.Lebih kurang mcm aku dulu.
A : Ooo..course gamble la ni.Asal dapat belajar je lah ek.
B : Hmm..biasalah. Kau ada adik?
A : Ada..Adik aku lebih kurang sebaya dgn adik kau jugak. Tapi dia sekarang dekat oversea. Belajar medic. Jadik doktor la nanti adik aku tue. Adik aku belajar kat Russia nu...Rusia kat Moscow.Dia ni memang terrer gila. Ni dia dah balik Mesia,aku kena la bawak dia jalan2 merata.Adik kau takpalah dok kat sini ja.Bila2 pun boleh jalan2 ek.Adik aku tu dah la belajar jauh. Balik setahun sekali ja. aku kena la bawak dia gi jejalan puas-puas. Ni nak kena bawak dia gi tengok movie ni.Kesian la kat dia. Adik kau takpa lah dekat Penang je. Bila-bila pun boleh gi tengok movie.Ni dia balik ni, aku dah bawak dia gi beli barang2 komputer dia. Kau tahu, bila orang2 kat kedai komputer tu tanya apsal aku beli komponen je, aku cerita sakanlah dekat diorang sbb adik aku belajar kat Rusia. Nak bawak balik sana barang ni semua. Habis orang2 kat kedai tu semua tercengang-cengang.Bangga betul la aku. Cina-cina tu semua terkejut ja sebab aku ada adik belajar kat Rusia.
B : Dia ni salah dengar soalan ke? Aku cuma tanya "dia ada adik ke tak" je? Agaknya sebab tu lah SPM dia lingkup. Lain orang tanya, lain yg dia jawap. Pekak ke buta?
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
CANTIK
Bila orang tanya "Awak rasa, awak ni cantik ke tak? Awak rasa, antara awak dengan awek tu, yang mana lebih cantik?"
Apa agaknya aku nak jawap ek?
menyedari diri tak secantik Miss Universe, terpaksalah jawap "Alaa..mestilah dia yg lebih cantik. Saya ni apa yang ada..."
I walk with a stoop like the Huncback of Nottherdamn, my cheeks are full with pimples and breakouts some people do look at me twice.I think that's the most suitable answer for me.
Zaman sekarang ni, bukan sahaja pompuan yang sanggup berkerja keras untuk cantik.Membaca kisah pembedahan plastik (gastric banding surgery - to suppress nafsu makan) yang mengakibatkan kematian di Singapore kelmarin, membuatkan aku terfikir - Manusia sanggup menjadi bodoh untuk cantik (ini lelaki yg buat tau!).
Ada pulak yg menyedari muka tak berapa lawa, sanggup berhabisan membeli pensel kening, batang bibir (lipstick), pemerah pipi, pnghijau kelopak mata, dan lain-lain.
Dan tak kurang juga yang berminat melabur di kedai-kedai jenama orang putih Salabianca, Seed, Padini & Co, Bluemarine (Sehelai gaun dia boleh buat kenduri 3 hari untuk mangsa perang Lubnan), GUESS? (aku rasa baru je aku mention jenama ni dlm entry kemarin.apsal aku mcm getik sgt dekat Guess nih? muahhahaha..), Elle dan macam2 lagilah.Bagi aku, kalau dah beli handbag 4 -5 ratus pun, pastuh bok balik kampung kat ulu banat nu, mesti orang ingat pi beli kat Pasir Panjang. Eh, oooppppsss...maksud aku kat Padang Besaq (Aku bukan org Kelantan la, aku org Perlis).
Tapi itu semua duit masing2, dan minat masing2 untuk mencantikkan diri masing2. Jadi biarlah masing2 dgn pilihan masing2....
Adakalanya cantik itu menuntungkan - Kalau cantik mcm Diana Naim (hahahahhaha..) boleh jadi model....boleh la buat umah bangalow...
Tapi adakalanya juga cantik boleh menyusahkan - Kalau cantik mcm Cannie Ong - Dah kena rogol & bunuh pulak.
Kesimpulannya, cantik itu sangat subjektif. Ada orang suka tengok mata yang cantik, ada orang suka tengok tangan yg cantik....Kan macam2 manusia kat dunia ni? Namun begitu, cantik tidak seharusnya dinilai hanya dari segi rupa paras semata-mata. Sesungguhnya orang yang paling cantik adalah yang paling baik akhlaknya.
Bersyukurlah dengan apa yg Tuhan telah berikan kepada kamu.... Alhamdulillah...
Bila orang tanya "Awak rasa, awak ni cantik ke tak? Awak rasa, antara awak dengan awek tu, yang mana lebih cantik?"
Apa agaknya aku nak jawap ek?
menyedari diri tak secantik Miss Universe, terpaksalah jawap "Alaa..mestilah dia yg lebih cantik. Saya ni apa yang ada..."
I walk with a stoop like the Huncback of Nottherdamn, my cheeks are full with pimples and breakouts some people do look at me twice.I think that's the most suitable answer for me.
Zaman sekarang ni, bukan sahaja pompuan yang sanggup berkerja keras untuk cantik.Membaca kisah pembedahan plastik (gastric banding surgery - to suppress nafsu makan) yang mengakibatkan kematian di Singapore kelmarin, membuatkan aku terfikir - Manusia sanggup menjadi bodoh untuk cantik (ini lelaki yg buat tau!).
Ada pulak yg menyedari muka tak berapa lawa, sanggup berhabisan membeli pensel kening, batang bibir (lipstick), pemerah pipi, pnghijau kelopak mata, dan lain-lain.
Dan tak kurang juga yang berminat melabur di kedai-kedai jenama orang putih Salabianca, Seed, Padini & Co, Bluemarine (Sehelai gaun dia boleh buat kenduri 3 hari untuk mangsa perang Lubnan), GUESS? (aku rasa baru je aku mention jenama ni dlm entry kemarin.apsal aku mcm getik sgt dekat Guess nih? muahhahaha..), Elle dan macam2 lagilah.Bagi aku, kalau dah beli handbag 4 -5 ratus pun, pastuh bok balik kampung kat ulu banat nu, mesti orang ingat pi beli kat Pasir Panjang. Eh, oooppppsss...maksud aku kat Padang Besaq (Aku bukan org Kelantan la, aku org Perlis).
Tapi itu semua duit masing2, dan minat masing2 untuk mencantikkan diri masing2. Jadi biarlah masing2 dgn pilihan masing2....
Adakalanya cantik itu menuntungkan - Kalau cantik mcm Diana Naim (hahahahhaha..) boleh jadi model....boleh la buat umah bangalow...
Tapi adakalanya juga cantik boleh menyusahkan - Kalau cantik mcm Cannie Ong - Dah kena rogol & bunuh pulak.
Kesimpulannya, cantik itu sangat subjektif. Ada orang suka tengok mata yang cantik, ada orang suka tengok tangan yg cantik....Kan macam2 manusia kat dunia ni? Namun begitu, cantik tidak seharusnya dinilai hanya dari segi rupa paras semata-mata. Sesungguhnya orang yang paling cantik adalah yang paling baik akhlaknya.
Bersyukurlah dengan apa yg Tuhan telah berikan kepada kamu.... Alhamdulillah...
Monday, August 07, 2006
MY COMPANY
My company is very ill now. The situation is very critical and chronic nobody can help. The management has been gone a heck of a long time to decide the most effective way to save the company. Yet they still found that VSS (Voluntary Separation Scheme) is still the best.
Last Friday we are all shocked to be called to a 'briefing' by our beloved CEO, Dr. Lackana. At first, i thought she just want to say something minor-suprise such as "This year we are not giving you any bonus..." or " There's no increment for your salary for the next financial year.." or sumthing like that. But instead, to our suprise, what comes out from her mouth is something i have never expected to hear from this company.
In her Thai-tongued English, i saw this down to earth, and kind-hearted lady say " After so many months thinking, and doing analysis of CMSB business, and discussion with management team and shareholders, i have to make this tough decision. I have not sleep for many days, thinking of this, but i am very sorry to say that, our Sales Department need to be terminated immediately. We will still trying to help you (Sales people) to find another job, or you may also try your luck in other business. I am very sorry but i hope that everybody can accept this decision in order to save CMSB.Thank you."
Luckily, after her hard-to-accept-speech, nobody belched out obscenities or whatnot. I think because most of the operators do not understand English, so the situation remained calm.If not, i can imagine that we could see boots and chairs flying around in the room.While for the execs (which definitely understand what is happening), we are all clueless.
I also dont know what to say. And i am not sure if am actually lucky, or had made the right decision to resign earlier. In fact, i can already smell the bankruptcy of this company before they announce it (well, this is what a daughter of a businessman should foresee, rite? Muahahaha...). I might be lucky to run away from this miserable, but i dont know what is happening in front.Hopefully i can get a new and better job soonest (everybody pray for me, please).And i really hope that i can achieved the so called "work satisfaction" in the next career move.
Hopefully dapat kerja yang best, dan setimpal dengan bayaran.Actually, I am not so lust after the wealth and riches. I dont mind wearing trousers from Carrefour, shirts from Giant, and panties from Tesco. I dont need a Guess handbag, nor MNG skirts.Only when it comes to shoes, i just wanna be more carefull (you should love your feets anyway, they are doing the heaviest job.) For me, driving a Proton Wira is not that bad, instead of spending thousands buck monthly for Mazda 6. And I will never ever ask amet to turn our apartment to a fully-furnished house in a blink. So far, i dont mind sleeping on single bed, eating on computer table, and cooking on shoes rack.As long as he loves me to the fullest of his heart, it is already more than enough.(But amet, bear in mind - dont take chance of this statement.i will still buy some furnitures when i have money)
Walaupun aku tak kepingin bangat mahu hidup dalam serba kemewahan, tapi duit tetap merupakan satu keperluan.Itu adalah kenyataan.
My company is very ill now. The situation is very critical and chronic nobody can help. The management has been gone a heck of a long time to decide the most effective way to save the company. Yet they still found that VSS (Voluntary Separation Scheme) is still the best.
Last Friday we are all shocked to be called to a 'briefing' by our beloved CEO, Dr. Lackana. At first, i thought she just want to say something minor-suprise such as "This year we are not giving you any bonus..." or " There's no increment for your salary for the next financial year.." or sumthing like that. But instead, to our suprise, what comes out from her mouth is something i have never expected to hear from this company.
In her Thai-tongued English, i saw this down to earth, and kind-hearted lady say " After so many months thinking, and doing analysis of CMSB business, and discussion with management team and shareholders, i have to make this tough decision. I have not sleep for many days, thinking of this, but i am very sorry to say that, our Sales Department need to be terminated immediately. We will still trying to help you (Sales people) to find another job, or you may also try your luck in other business. I am very sorry but i hope that everybody can accept this decision in order to save CMSB.Thank you."
Luckily, after her hard-to-accept-speech, nobody belched out obscenities or whatnot. I think because most of the operators do not understand English, so the situation remained calm.If not, i can imagine that we could see boots and chairs flying around in the room.While for the execs (which definitely understand what is happening), we are all clueless.
I also dont know what to say. And i am not sure if am actually lucky, or had made the right decision to resign earlier. In fact, i can already smell the bankruptcy of this company before they announce it (well, this is what a daughter of a businessman should foresee, rite? Muahahaha...). I might be lucky to run away from this miserable, but i dont know what is happening in front.Hopefully i can get a new and better job soonest (everybody pray for me, please).And i really hope that i can achieved the so called "work satisfaction" in the next career move.
Hopefully dapat kerja yang best, dan setimpal dengan bayaran.Actually, I am not so lust after the wealth and riches. I dont mind wearing trousers from Carrefour, shirts from Giant, and panties from Tesco. I dont need a Guess handbag, nor MNG skirts.Only when it comes to shoes, i just wanna be more carefull (you should love your feets anyway, they are doing the heaviest job.) For me, driving a Proton Wira is not that bad, instead of spending thousands buck monthly for Mazda 6. And I will never ever ask amet to turn our apartment to a fully-furnished house in a blink. So far, i dont mind sleeping on single bed, eating on computer table, and cooking on shoes rack.As long as he loves me to the fullest of his heart, it is already more than enough.(But amet, bear in mind - dont take chance of this statement.i will still buy some furnitures when i have money)
Walaupun aku tak kepingin bangat mahu hidup dalam serba kemewahan, tapi duit tetap merupakan satu keperluan.Itu adalah kenyataan.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
WOMAN IS MIRRACLE
Selama 25 tahun i live as a female, i have never overcome any menstrual problem except period pain. Mestrual cycle aku memang selalunya lancar dan tak ada masalah. And i am truely happy as i always get my period on budgeted time - so that i can plan my activities very well.
Menstrual cycle, in general, can affect emotions, as well as physical behaviour and characters. Some female may turn to be very angry all the time, may be sad, or some may be too happy or excited (jarang berlaku - mungkin gila meroyan).
For me, kalau ada orang kacau,aku akan cepat marah. Dan kalau ada orang marah, aku akan cepat sedih. It mix up and it is normal for THAT particular time (only).
Akan tetapi, pada 2 hari yg lalu, sesuatu yg luar biasa and abnormal happened. Well, i already have my period on 18 July and the flow was normal (quite heavy on the first few days) and it stopped on about 24 July. Everything seems like very normal.
But suddenly on 1 Aug, i realized that there's blood on my pantyliner.At first i thought it was just the leftover and maybe my body is trying to clean it out. So i just wash it away.
However on the next day, setelah aku sampai kat ofis, i still found that my vagina is still bleeding. I was thinking of seeing a physician, but i have lots of things to be done. So tungu punya tunggu sampai ke petang, tengok-tengok boss aku pulak panggil masuk meeting sampai la pukul 6.30. So, instead of going to see doctor, aku balik umah.
Sampai umah, aku terus tidur, rasa mcm malas la pulak nak pi klinik.Tapi tak lama pastu, aku rasa mcm senak-senak. Aku dah tak sedap hati, terus ajak amet p klinik. Cari punya cari semua klinik panel aku dah tutup. Cuma ada satu yg buka, tp aku tak suka klinik tu sbb doctor dia ganas (Kalau dia nak cucuk, dia cucuk je terus).
So aku pun balik umah and thinking of seeing the doctor keesokan hari. Tetapi alangkah terkejutnya apabila aku balik umah, found out that it is still bleeding and it is much more than before.
Aku terus p mandi sebab mengikut petua orang tua-tua, kalau kita mandi basahkan kepala waktu malam dengan air sejuk, darah akan berhenti.
The next day i wake up, found that the bleeding had stopped! Leganya..so terus siap-siap pi kerja dengan hati yg girang sekali..
Tetapi kegirangan itu tidak lama as it started again when i reach office. Oh shiittt!!!
Terus p klinik.Jumpa dgn Dr. Sulaiman - he's very caring, dan percakapan dia sudah cukup membuatkan org yg sakit terus sihat.
Dr. S : Yes Yus, what happened to you? Demam ke?
Aku : No, errr..actually..err i'm having..er this kind of...errr....vaginal bleeding...
Dr. S: Oh, when is you last period? Start and off?
Aku : 17 July until 24th.
Dr. S : Hmm ok..let me see...Oh..yesterday is your most fertile day, i mean it's your ovulation day.
Aku : Yes, i know. Actually i am doing my menstrual charting as well...
Dr. S : So, it is a little bit abnormal to have bleeding in these fertile days.
Aku : Yaaa..and that's why it makes me worry...
Dr. S : You said you are charting your menstrual cycle - are you planning for pregancy?
Aku : I dont know. I am not really planning. If ada, ok, if not also ok.
Dr. S : Hmm actually vaginal bleeding may be caused by few reasons -hormone imbalance, or luka semasa intercourse,or may be because of pregnancy.
Aku : Is it dangerous? I am so worry about this.
Dr. S : No, actually it is not dangerous. But it's important to know the cause. If it is because of hormone, i will give you HRT. Kalau luka, it will heal by itself. But now, we cannot test if you are pregnant or not. Normally it will take 7 to 10 days after ovulation day to detect pregnancy. Maybe you can come back after one week to do urine test. But in my oppinion, your possiblity is quite low because you are just married, right? So maybe it is because of hormone imbalance - sebab you just married and your life style may be changed.
Aku : Yes, i also think so. It's impossible to get pregnant at this moment (anyway i am not sure if i am ready to be a mother). Unless it's a God will.
Dr. S : Yes, it's true. So i will give you some medicine - it will help to contract your uterus so that the bleeding may stop. If not, you need to come back and see me, ok?
Aku : Ok, thanks doc.
So that's it.
Anyway perasaan aku masih bercampur baur - ada jugak rasa happy. tapi takut. tapi excited. macam-macam lah. So keep watching for the next cycle. It's fun to be a woman - there's a lot of things to explore!
Selama 25 tahun i live as a female, i have never overcome any menstrual problem except period pain. Mestrual cycle aku memang selalunya lancar dan tak ada masalah. And i am truely happy as i always get my period on budgeted time - so that i can plan my activities very well.
Menstrual cycle, in general, can affect emotions, as well as physical behaviour and characters. Some female may turn to be very angry all the time, may be sad, or some may be too happy or excited (jarang berlaku - mungkin gila meroyan).
For me, kalau ada orang kacau,aku akan cepat marah. Dan kalau ada orang marah, aku akan cepat sedih. It mix up and it is normal for THAT particular time (only).
Akan tetapi, pada 2 hari yg lalu, sesuatu yg luar biasa and abnormal happened. Well, i already have my period on 18 July and the flow was normal (quite heavy on the first few days) and it stopped on about 24 July. Everything seems like very normal.
But suddenly on 1 Aug, i realized that there's blood on my pantyliner.At first i thought it was just the leftover and maybe my body is trying to clean it out. So i just wash it away.
However on the next day, setelah aku sampai kat ofis, i still found that my vagina is still bleeding. I was thinking of seeing a physician, but i have lots of things to be done. So tungu punya tunggu sampai ke petang, tengok-tengok boss aku pulak panggil masuk meeting sampai la pukul 6.30. So, instead of going to see doctor, aku balik umah.
Sampai umah, aku terus tidur, rasa mcm malas la pulak nak pi klinik.Tapi tak lama pastu, aku rasa mcm senak-senak. Aku dah tak sedap hati, terus ajak amet p klinik. Cari punya cari semua klinik panel aku dah tutup. Cuma ada satu yg buka, tp aku tak suka klinik tu sbb doctor dia ganas (Kalau dia nak cucuk, dia cucuk je terus).
So aku pun balik umah and thinking of seeing the doctor keesokan hari. Tetapi alangkah terkejutnya apabila aku balik umah, found out that it is still bleeding and it is much more than before.
Aku terus p mandi sebab mengikut petua orang tua-tua, kalau kita mandi basahkan kepala waktu malam dengan air sejuk, darah akan berhenti.
The next day i wake up, found that the bleeding had stopped! Leganya..so terus siap-siap pi kerja dengan hati yg girang sekali..
Tetapi kegirangan itu tidak lama as it started again when i reach office. Oh shiittt!!!
Terus p klinik.Jumpa dgn Dr. Sulaiman - he's very caring, dan percakapan dia sudah cukup membuatkan org yg sakit terus sihat.
Dr. S : Yes Yus, what happened to you? Demam ke?
Aku : No, errr..actually..err i'm having..er this kind of...errr....vaginal bleeding...
Dr. S: Oh, when is you last period? Start and off?
Aku : 17 July until 24th.
Dr. S : Hmm ok..let me see...Oh..yesterday is your most fertile day, i mean it's your ovulation day.
Aku : Yes, i know. Actually i am doing my menstrual charting as well...
Dr. S : So, it is a little bit abnormal to have bleeding in these fertile days.
Aku : Yaaa..and that's why it makes me worry...
Dr. S : You said you are charting your menstrual cycle - are you planning for pregancy?
Aku : I dont know. I am not really planning. If ada, ok, if not also ok.
Dr. S : Hmm actually vaginal bleeding may be caused by few reasons -hormone imbalance, or luka semasa intercourse,or may be because of pregnancy.
Aku : Is it dangerous? I am so worry about this.
Dr. S : No, actually it is not dangerous. But it's important to know the cause. If it is because of hormone, i will give you HRT. Kalau luka, it will heal by itself. But now, we cannot test if you are pregnant or not. Normally it will take 7 to 10 days after ovulation day to detect pregnancy. Maybe you can come back after one week to do urine test. But in my oppinion, your possiblity is quite low because you are just married, right? So maybe it is because of hormone imbalance - sebab you just married and your life style may be changed.
Aku : Yes, i also think so. It's impossible to get pregnant at this moment (anyway i am not sure if i am ready to be a mother). Unless it's a God will.
Dr. S : Yes, it's true. So i will give you some medicine - it will help to contract your uterus so that the bleeding may stop. If not, you need to come back and see me, ok?
Aku : Ok, thanks doc.
So that's it.
Anyway perasaan aku masih bercampur baur - ada jugak rasa happy. tapi takut. tapi excited. macam-macam lah. So keep watching for the next cycle. It's fun to be a woman - there's a lot of things to explore!
Friday, July 28, 2006
TOWARDS THE END
Petang semalam ada sessi presentation QCC. Ada 5 group, aku salah seorang dari group ke-5. Kami namakan "The Seekers" - sebab kumpulan kami memang terlalu misteri - sampaikan tajuk perbincangan/masalah pun kami tak dapat nak kenalpasti.
Dan antara semua presentation - kumpulan kami yang paling teruk - tak kira dari segi isi kandungan,analysis,action plan mahupun rekabentuk slide itu sendiri (ini memang komen dari para juri a.k.a bos-bos besar yg hadir).
Dan pereka presentation slide itu ialah aku. Aku memang dah lama sedar, sejak 2-3 minggu sebelum hari semalam, aku memang dah tahu yg slide itu tidak sempurna dan terlalu simple.
Untuk "Fish Bone Analysis" aku cuma lukis garis-garisan yg biasa,tanpa warna terang benderang dan statik, sedangkan kumpulan lain meletakkan gambar ikan animasi, atau sekurang2nya ikan 2D.Untuk aku,kepala ikan itu cuma dilukis dengan kotak segitiga.Aku bukan tiada masa untuk cari gambar 3D,aku bukan tak creative utk buat slide cantik-cantik, tapi aku rimas tengok presentation slide yg berwarna-warni dan bergerak-gerak penuh dengan kartun dan hiasan belon-belon mcm kat party.
Kita nak bincang perkara serius - membabitkan pengeluaran,untung rugi dan kewangan syarikat.Ini bukan presentation Geografi Tingkatan 3 "Kajian di Kawasan Tempat Tinggal Saya". Aku rasa juri tak adil - menganalisa dari segi kecantikan semata.Tak kisah syarikat rugi,asalkan slide dan org yg present tu penuh warna-warni dgn mekap murahan. Biar "Action Plan" kumpulan itu tak efektif, asalkan pandai cakap putar belit,juri terperangkap dan tepukan gemuruh kedengaran. Uwwekkk..!!!
P/S : Aku memang suka benda yg ringkas, shortcut dan cepat - Itu aku. Orang lain mungkin lain. Contohnya : Ada orang lebih suka panggil "Seluar penda" instead of "Spenda" (Cepat angkat tangan sapa org yg dimaksudkan ni)
Selepas sesi QCC itu, Ezani berjumpa dengan aku.Dia juga "The Seekers".Dia menggelabah bila kumpulan kami mendapat banyak komen,kritikan dan kutukan.
(Mainkan muzik paling sayu dan sadis...)
Ezani : Awak...apsal la awak nak berenti cepat sangat? Nih semua pembetulan kat slide ni sapa nak buat? Komen-komen juri tadi sapa nak improve? Saya dah la tak pandai buat benda2 slide alah nie...
Aku : Alaa..awak mintak tolongla org lain.Zana ke, Siew Fah ke...
Ezani : Tapi diorang tak sama kumpulan dgn kita...Lagipun tak sama kepala dgn saya..Awak je yg boleh paham dan keja dgn saya selama ni..
Aku : Ya la.Saya pun suka sangat keja dgn awak.Tapi apa nak buat saya dh tak tahan nak tunggu kat sini lagi. Walaupun awak best,tp company ni tak best.
Ezani : Awak...jgn la berenti lagi.Tunggu la dulu...Saya mesti rindu kat awak nanti tau..Mesti saya rindu punyalah.Dah takde dah saya nak ngusik Yus...
Aku : Hmm..saya pun mesti rindu sangat nak dengar usikan awak..Dah la jgn cakap macam ni lagi.Saya sedih laa...Saya nangis kang aaaa...
Aku nangis - kat situ jugak.Depan dia.Tak malu!!!
Aku sedih ke nak berenti keja nih?
Petang semalam ada sessi presentation QCC. Ada 5 group, aku salah seorang dari group ke-5. Kami namakan "The Seekers" - sebab kumpulan kami memang terlalu misteri - sampaikan tajuk perbincangan/masalah pun kami tak dapat nak kenalpasti.
Dan antara semua presentation - kumpulan kami yang paling teruk - tak kira dari segi isi kandungan,analysis,action plan mahupun rekabentuk slide itu sendiri (ini memang komen dari para juri a.k.a bos-bos besar yg hadir).
Dan pereka presentation slide itu ialah aku. Aku memang dah lama sedar, sejak 2-3 minggu sebelum hari semalam, aku memang dah tahu yg slide itu tidak sempurna dan terlalu simple.
Untuk "Fish Bone Analysis" aku cuma lukis garis-garisan yg biasa,tanpa warna terang benderang dan statik, sedangkan kumpulan lain meletakkan gambar ikan animasi, atau sekurang2nya ikan 2D.Untuk aku,kepala ikan itu cuma dilukis dengan kotak segitiga.Aku bukan tiada masa untuk cari gambar 3D,aku bukan tak creative utk buat slide cantik-cantik, tapi aku rimas tengok presentation slide yg berwarna-warni dan bergerak-gerak penuh dengan kartun dan hiasan belon-belon mcm kat party.
Kita nak bincang perkara serius - membabitkan pengeluaran,untung rugi dan kewangan syarikat.Ini bukan presentation Geografi Tingkatan 3 "Kajian di Kawasan Tempat Tinggal Saya". Aku rasa juri tak adil - menganalisa dari segi kecantikan semata.Tak kisah syarikat rugi,asalkan slide dan org yg present tu penuh warna-warni dgn mekap murahan. Biar "Action Plan" kumpulan itu tak efektif, asalkan pandai cakap putar belit,juri terperangkap dan tepukan gemuruh kedengaran. Uwwekkk..!!!
P/S : Aku memang suka benda yg ringkas, shortcut dan cepat - Itu aku. Orang lain mungkin lain. Contohnya : Ada orang lebih suka panggil "Seluar penda" instead of "Spenda" (Cepat angkat tangan sapa org yg dimaksudkan ni)
Selepas sesi QCC itu, Ezani berjumpa dengan aku.Dia juga "The Seekers".Dia menggelabah bila kumpulan kami mendapat banyak komen,kritikan dan kutukan.
(Mainkan muzik paling sayu dan sadis...)
Ezani : Awak...apsal la awak nak berenti cepat sangat? Nih semua pembetulan kat slide ni sapa nak buat? Komen-komen juri tadi sapa nak improve? Saya dah la tak pandai buat benda2 slide alah nie...
Aku : Alaa..awak mintak tolongla org lain.Zana ke, Siew Fah ke...
Ezani : Tapi diorang tak sama kumpulan dgn kita...Lagipun tak sama kepala dgn saya..Awak je yg boleh paham dan keja dgn saya selama ni..
Aku : Ya la.Saya pun suka sangat keja dgn awak.Tapi apa nak buat saya dh tak tahan nak tunggu kat sini lagi. Walaupun awak best,tp company ni tak best.
Ezani : Awak...jgn la berenti lagi.Tunggu la dulu...Saya mesti rindu kat awak nanti tau..Mesti saya rindu punyalah.Dah takde dah saya nak ngusik Yus...
Aku : Hmm..saya pun mesti rindu sangat nak dengar usikan awak..Dah la jgn cakap macam ni lagi.Saya sedih laa...Saya nangis kang aaaa...
Aku nangis - kat situ jugak.Depan dia.Tak malu!!!
Aku sedih ke nak berenti keja nih?
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Sememangnya memang dah lama gila aku tak keluar jalan-jalan bersuka ria like i used to do.Bukannya kerana status seorang isteri yang menjadi penghalang, tapi kerana status kewangan yang membataskan pergerakan. Duit cukup-cukup untuk isi minyak keta pi kerja dan balik kerja ja.Alhamdulillah, since semalam is the paycheque day, so i took the time to free myself from the boredom i've suffered for few weeks.
At first, aku ingat nak masak special sikit for the dinner. Tapi amet suggest to makan luar sebab dah bosan gila menghadap pinggan kat umah sendiri. Aku pun memang agree sangat lah. Tapi bila dah balik keja, aku tidoq,dia tidoq, last2 aku cuma masak 2 bungkus Maggi Curry instead of special dishes or makan luar.Padan muka!
And then suddenly at about 10 p.m. aku tetiba ja ter'suggest' ajak dia gi tengok movie. Aku rasa macam dah lupa macam mana nak beli tiket wayang sebab memang dah lama gila tak pi tengok wayang nih. So he agreed and we speed off to TGV One Utama (7 minit ja dari umah aku - bangga gilaaa...).
Since i am a big fan of Sandra Bullock & Keanu Reeves, i chose to watch The Lake House (aku tau dia tak berapa minat,tapi tak kisahla aku yg belanja). The show was at 11.10 p.m.(wooo~~~~ dah lama gila aku tak keluaq lewat2 malam macam nie..)
Well, it is a romantic-fantasy story (sebenarnya takdelah best sangat - too slow). Tapi aku memang betoi2 suka tengok mukanya si Sandra Bullock (Dr. Foster) ni.Dia memang nampak sangat~sangat natural, beautiful, and graceful. Mata dia cantik gila...bulu mata melentik dengan hujung mata yg tajam dan ayu, tapi pandangan dia sangat lembut dan manja.
Aaahhhhh........tenang gila tengok muka dia.Pastu dengan blouse dia yang comel~comel, dressing yang tak melampaui batas & very simple. I really love that part of her! And kulit muka dia nampak sangat licin even close up.Tanpa mekap yg tebal 2 inci macam iklan barang-barang kosmetik tempatan kat majalah Mingguan Wanita tu, dia memang betul2 membuatkan aku teruja! So, actually i didn't really watch the movie but in fact dok nganga je tengok muka Sandra Bullock tuh.
Kami balik umah around 1 o'clock in the morning, and thinking of eating a burger (or two). Tapi by that time really can't find a burger stall which is still operating - so we rushed to Se7en Eleven and got 2 cups of Instant Porridge and 2 sticks of chicken balls. Rasa macam zaman-zaman belajar dulu la plak - keluar sampai lewat malam,singgah makan kat Seven E, bestnyaa....
And then as the result of staying up (and berjoli sakan) last nite, pagi ni aku terjaga pukul 7.18 a.m. Aku dah lewat nak pi kejaa!!!!
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Ketumbit = Stye.
It's usually caused by your body trying to expell some toxins, and do it via the skin.
I got this on my right eye. It is painful, especially bila eyelid kita nak berkedip. Ouuchh...
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
RESIGNATION NOTICE
At last i have made the decision. The letter has been submitted, and in fact, yesterday i have receive a reply "Acceptance of Resignation" from HR Dept. They have calculated my last salary for next month, asked me to return the company belongings (ok, kalau tak lupa) and a standard "Wish you success in your future" words.
Actually i still have 11.5 days of annual leave balance until August 06.So my last working day shall be on August 2nd, 2006. But after dipujuk rayu by my boss, i volunteerly will be working until Aug 16th. And of course they will convert the "annual leave" to the "money" (this is what i WANT!). Lagi pun i think that is the right time because the next day, off i will go to my hometown for my wedding reception which is on 20th .Hehehe...sounds like baik punya plan heh?
Well, everybody knew about it. But they keep asking me why, and where am i going. it's has been everyday since last week i hear "Eh, Yus ko dah dapat offer keja baru ek? Kat mana?Gaji lebih ek?"
And bila aku kata "Taklah, saya belum dapat keja.Saja je berenti. Nak rehat kejap." Barulah mata masing-masing terbelalak. And they really think i've married Bill Gates.Hahahaha....
And to my hubby, i deeply apologize because i keep hiding this for few days before telling you. Actually i have submitted the letter earlier than the day i told you. I AM SORRY OK? (Kena la aku lepas nie...)
Anyway, for the next careerwise, i really want to explore the totally different world ----
So keep counting the last day in Cerebos! Yeeehaaaa!!!!!!!!!!
(Actually nak letak banner factory ticker kat sini,tapi tak muat, so letak kat kat bawah sekali...)
At last i have made the decision. The letter has been submitted, and in fact, yesterday i have receive a reply "Acceptance of Resignation" from HR Dept. They have calculated my last salary for next month, asked me to return the company belongings (ok, kalau tak lupa) and a standard "Wish you success in your future" words.
Actually i still have 11.5 days of annual leave balance until August 06.So my last working day shall be on August 2nd, 2006. But after dipujuk rayu by my boss, i volunteerly will be working until Aug 16th. And of course they will convert the "annual leave" to the "money" (this is what i WANT!). Lagi pun i think that is the right time because the next day, off i will go to my hometown for my wedding reception which is on 20th .Hehehe...sounds like baik punya plan heh?
Well, everybody knew about it. But they keep asking me why, and where am i going. it's has been everyday since last week i hear "Eh, Yus ko dah dapat offer keja baru ek? Kat mana?Gaji lebih ek?"
And bila aku kata "Taklah, saya belum dapat keja.Saja je berenti. Nak rehat kejap." Barulah mata masing-masing terbelalak. And they really think i've married Bill Gates.Hahahaha....
And to my hubby, i deeply apologize because i keep hiding this for few days before telling you. Actually i have submitted the letter earlier than the day i told you. I AM SORRY OK? (Kena la aku lepas nie...)
Anyway, for the next careerwise, i really want to explore the totally different world ----
So keep counting the last day in Cerebos! Yeeehaaaa!!!!!!!!!!
(Actually nak letak banner factory ticker kat sini,tapi tak muat, so letak kat kat bawah sekali...)
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
SITI NURHALIZA & DATO' K
Aku rasa aku dh penat membaca email2 yg berkaitan dengan depa berdua nih. Hari ini saja, aku dah dapat tak kurang dari 10 email berkaitan mereka, termasuk 3 kali email gambar anak Dato' K. Aku rasa, kisah mereka akan berlanjutan bukan sahaja sampai hari perkahwinan, tetapi sehingga mereka bercerai-berai. Percayalah.
Aku bukan peminat Siti Nurhaliza. Apatah lagi Dato' K.
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KERJAYA PILIHAN
Aku bekerja untuk cari makan, bukan kerana aku mempunyai pilihan. Aku sebenarnya tidak selalu dapat membuat banyak pilihan. Kebanyakan yang aku pilih adalah kerana terpaksa.
Aku terpaksa pilih kerjaya ini kerana aku perlukan uwang. Aku terpaksa pilih kerja di bahagian ini kerana aku berkelulusan itu. Aku terpaksa pilih kelulusan itu kerana aku tiada peluang untuk membuat pilihan di universiti.
Semua di atas bukan pilihan aku.
Keadaan semakin genting dan getir.Aku tidak pasti aku harus pilih yang mana.
a) Jika aku terus bekerja di sini :
Kepala aku akan terus-terusan sakit. Hati aku akan terus-terusan bengkak (bengkek). Jiwa aku akan terus-terusan kacau bilau.Bila aku balik rumah, muka aku akan terus-terusan masam, senyuman kelat, bad mood. Aku tak suka buat muka masam pada suami - ini derhaka. Tapi aku tiada pilihan. Bila fikiran sudah serabut, apa lagi yang dapat aku lakukan? Buat muka masam jer lah...Dan aku rasa tiap-tiap hari inilah yang aku buat. Ohh..dalam masa seminggu, sudah bertimbun derhaka aku pada dia?
b) Jika aku berhenti kerja :
Siapa pula yang nak tanggung makan pakai aku? Aku tak mahu bergantung pada dia. Aku pun tau kesian, dia pun nak jugak enjoy sekali sekala. Kalau aku yg habiskan duit dia - mestilah dia tak enjoy.Aku mau dia sentiasa happy. Aku mahu hidup berdikari walaupun sudah bersuami.
Tapi aku masih belum dapat offer kerja. Tapi aku juga tak boleh terus di sini, bekerja. Aku mesti berhenti, tapi mesti terus bekerja.Bagaimana?
Ketika aku menyatakan hasrat untuk berhenti : Dia memberikan aku 'izin'. Mungkin sebab telinga dia sudah tepu mendengar keluhan aku hari-hari.
Tapi kalau aku betul-betul berhenti : Dia mungkin memberikan aku 'penampar' pulak.
Aku semakin keliru dan bercelaru.
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SOALAN
:: Apa kau rasa bila setiap hari, orang yg kau sayang pulang dari kerja dan menangis di dalam bilik air? ::
Aku rasa aku dh penat membaca email2 yg berkaitan dengan depa berdua nih. Hari ini saja, aku dah dapat tak kurang dari 10 email berkaitan mereka, termasuk 3 kali email gambar anak Dato' K. Aku rasa, kisah mereka akan berlanjutan bukan sahaja sampai hari perkahwinan, tetapi sehingga mereka bercerai-berai. Percayalah.
Aku bukan peminat Siti Nurhaliza. Apatah lagi Dato' K.
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KERJAYA PILIHAN
Aku bekerja untuk cari makan, bukan kerana aku mempunyai pilihan. Aku sebenarnya tidak selalu dapat membuat banyak pilihan. Kebanyakan yang aku pilih adalah kerana terpaksa.
Aku terpaksa pilih kerjaya ini kerana aku perlukan uwang. Aku terpaksa pilih kerja di bahagian ini kerana aku berkelulusan itu. Aku terpaksa pilih kelulusan itu kerana aku tiada peluang untuk membuat pilihan di universiti.
Semua di atas bukan pilihan aku.
Keadaan semakin genting dan getir.Aku tidak pasti aku harus pilih yang mana.
a) Jika aku terus bekerja di sini :
Kepala aku akan terus-terusan sakit. Hati aku akan terus-terusan bengkak (bengkek). Jiwa aku akan terus-terusan kacau bilau.Bila aku balik rumah, muka aku akan terus-terusan masam, senyuman kelat, bad mood. Aku tak suka buat muka masam pada suami - ini derhaka. Tapi aku tiada pilihan. Bila fikiran sudah serabut, apa lagi yang dapat aku lakukan? Buat muka masam jer lah...Dan aku rasa tiap-tiap hari inilah yang aku buat. Ohh..dalam masa seminggu, sudah bertimbun derhaka aku pada dia?
b) Jika aku berhenti kerja :
Siapa pula yang nak tanggung makan pakai aku? Aku tak mahu bergantung pada dia. Aku pun tau kesian, dia pun nak jugak enjoy sekali sekala. Kalau aku yg habiskan duit dia - mestilah dia tak enjoy.Aku mau dia sentiasa happy. Aku mahu hidup berdikari walaupun sudah bersuami.
Tapi aku masih belum dapat offer kerja. Tapi aku juga tak boleh terus di sini, bekerja. Aku mesti berhenti, tapi mesti terus bekerja.Bagaimana?
Ketika aku menyatakan hasrat untuk berhenti : Dia memberikan aku 'izin'. Mungkin sebab telinga dia sudah tepu mendengar keluhan aku hari-hari.
Tapi kalau aku betul-betul berhenti : Dia mungkin memberikan aku 'penampar' pulak.
Aku semakin keliru dan bercelaru.
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SOALAN
:: Apa kau rasa bila setiap hari, orang yg kau sayang pulang dari kerja dan menangis di dalam bilik air? ::
JAWAPAN
Kalau aku, aku bagi jer dia berenti kerja.Pastu biarlah dia buat apa yg dia suka.Kalau dia nak sangat kerja kat saloon tu, bagi jer lah. Asalkan dia tak kacau duit kau, sudahlah. Tak gitu? Hehehehehe....
Friday, July 14, 2006
CALL ME 'PUAN' PLEASEIt has been few days tak update blog.nak kata sibuk, tak la sibuk sangat. saja ja la kot buat-buat macam sibuk.sibuk mengemas baju orang tu yg baru pindahkan barang-barang dia ke rumah aku, sibuk basuh kain baju yang dah lama terperap dalam bakul tu,biasalah kerja-kerja asas seorang surirumah.
Hmm nak kena cerita ke pasal Majlis Akad Nikah aku hari tu? Actually ingat malam lepas majlis tu terus nak update blog nih.sekali tetamu dok lepak sampai pukui 1.00 a.m. mana aku ada kederat dah nak nulis.pastu postpone, postpone, sampai la ke hari ni.so cerita pun dah basi...pengantin pun dah basi.tapi best jugak la hari tu sebab kawan-kawan rapat semua mai umah.ni lah part yg paling enjoy.so far alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly.
aturcara majlis memang berjalan seperti yang dirancangkan. sebelah lelaki sampai kat masjid al-mukminin kota kayang sebelum waktu isyak.pastu sebelah pompuan pulak sampai kat masjid.pastu bila orang azan, kami semua solat jemaah isyak sama-sama.kan lebih afdhal sebelum nikah tu solat dulu?lagipun aku memang tak bermekap.pakai bedak tempek-tempek sikit, pakai baju pengantin, telekung, dah boleh solat.tak payah la nak bergincu lipstick, bercelak shadow bagai.lawa tak lawa dah memang nak kawin dah pun...(punyalah malas nak bersiap budak nih). sampaikan bila tengok kasut aku,mak aku memang maki aku habis-habisan.tau aku pakai kasut apa dengan baju pengantin yg vogue tu? aku pakai kasut Bata Comfit tu ja...
Pastu lepas solat isyak, tok imam pun memulakan upacara mengakad nikahkan aku dgn suami aku yg tercinta...
Tok Imam : Azmir b. Ilias, aku nikahkan dikau dengan Yuzaini bt. Yusof berwalikan bapanya kepada saya dengan mas kahwinya RMxxxx.xx tunai...
Amet : Aku terima nikahnya Yuzaini bt. Yusof berwalikan.....
Tok Imam : Oopp..opp...part berwalikan bapaknya tu tak payah sebut...Ok, ulang balik sekali lagi
(Aku yang pada mula tadi duduk bersimpuh sopan, sekarang nih dah duduk bersila sambil menyapu muka.Apa laa mamat nih...)
Amet : Aku terima nikahnya Yuzaini bt. Yusof dengan mas kahwinnya RMxxxx.xx tunai...
Alhamdulillah....semua angkat tangan, tok imam membacakan doa selamat. Tamatlah status single untuk Yue & Azmir. Sah sebagai suami & isteri.
Isk kekadang rasa macam tak percaya pulak. Inikah yang aku nanti-nantikan selama ni? betoi ka aku dah jadik isteri orang nih? tak percaya...tak percaya...
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Kisah Majlis Akad Nikah tu tamat di situ.yang selepas daripada majlis tu orang lain tak boleh tau.wakakakakakka....
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Tapi dalam pada kau dok hepi gila tu, ada jugak yang membuatkan aku hangin,tension,geram,dukacita,berang,dan menyinga ialah apabila ketika aku sedang bercuti tu, ada la pulak orang gila dari opis yg call aku.hadoi...hangin gilaaa!!!! oi aku dah habaq aku cuti kawen la bongok, dalam form tulis "Marriage Leave". apa tak paham ke aku tengah sibuk kat umah? dia ingat aku cuti ni main-main ja, dok relax-relax rehat kat umah? aku sibuk buat preparation la bangang! masa tu jugak dia nak call aku.nak tanya mana benda tu,mana benda nih.bengang la aku.masa aku ada kat opis taknak tanya habis-habis.bila aku dah balik kampung baru nak kelam kabut.aku memang hangin gila.rasa macam nak jerit ja.dah la kacau aku masa tengah cuti.cakap pulak kurang hajaq dengan aku.siap tanya tengking-tengking.apa bangang sangat ka hang nih?betina nih memang dah banyak kali buat aku hangin. everytime nak mintak apa dekat aku, cakap kuat-kuat.jerkah macam aku ada kat sabah. memang jenis menatang yg tak reti cakap elok-elok dengan orang.weh b**i, kalau aku nih takdak,keja hang tu tak ke mana hang tau dak?aku nih bukan tak boleh kalau orang nak mintak tolong.aku mmg tak kisah kalau benda tu dah urgent nak buat mcmana.tapi dengan cara dia tu,dengan kurang hajaq tak bertempat tu.aku memang takleh tahan sungguh dengan betina tua nih.dia nih kerani bawahan biasa ja,bukannya tahap exec macam aku pun.tapi dia punya berlagak,pergghhhhh...macam modal company nih duit dia yg bayaq.dah la kaki herot,terkepak,berjalan senget,mata terbeliak,spek tebai berlapi-lapis.tak padan dengan muka buruk,perangai pun buruk jugak! hoi pi mampoih la hang...!!! kalau membunuh tu tak berdosa dan tak kena tangkap, memang dah lama menatang nih aku tindih dengan lori.aku benci hang!!!!
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Kesimpulannya, aku hepi dengan perkahwinan ni,tapi aku tak hepi langsung untuk terus kerja kat sini.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Friday, June 30, 2006
:: WINNIE THE POOH ::
Last nite was a very great pleasure when Siti suddenly give me a suprise invitation to watch Disney on Live : Winnie the Pooh & Friends Musical concert. Thanx to Kamal for the most pricey tickets.Yeayyy!!!!
Actually aku & kak ngah selalu cakap "Bila laa kita nak dapat pi tengok show ni? Mahainya tiket dia...Mesti sampai bila-bila pun tak mampu nak pi.." But at last, God answered our questions - We was there. Alhamdulillah...
As usual,kalau keluar reramai ni mesti ada saja benda nak ngumpat.We actually never expect that a BIG show like this, the audience are called "customer".Masa nak masuk parking tu, mamat yg jaga parking tu tanya "You all ni customer ke?Kalau customer parking kat sebelah sana ye". And we all like..tercengang, terbeliak,terkelu lidah berkata. And aku pun terjawab "Err..actually kitorang ni nak datang tengok concert Pooh. Kira customer ker tuh?" And confidently the mamat said,sambil senyum-senyum sinis "Ha ah jadi you all ni customer la".
Gulllpppp? Err..anyway, ok....????? Put that in your mind - customer -
Well, i know that my English is not that good to begin with but hey, I'm better than some people who got the chance to further their study in English-speaking-country but yet still have the proficiency of a Tadika Kemas kids. I mean gorsh.. you think the government send you to far far away country to makan angin only is it?There are still lots of people want to be there, me for instance. But you know laa... me not very clever. Went to local university only. Play play some more. I know you also play play there, fail papers here and there but who knows? You come back, people look at your resume, "Waaah, oversea graduate la... mesti can speak English very well ni...". Uwwekkk...that just make me puke! Just wait until i show you my A-Grade TESL thesis ok (if chosen to be registered).Hahahahaha...
Well, Siti said that's a wedding gift for me. Heheheh..Tenkiu,tenkiu...
And last nite after the Pooh show, Boyot had also ask me and amet to lepak kedai mamak together-gether like we used to do before.and he also mentioned that this will be the last lepak before we change status.
While tonite, they (Siti, Rose, Cik Mah, Wa & maybe Bee) are coming to visit my pigeon-hole-size-apartment. As to celebrate the guests, i will cook a lavish dishes they always desired to have - LAKSA. They said that this is their first & last visit before i get married. Heheheh..now seems like everybody is paying me the last - thing - before - i - get - married - things.(It's like i only have 7 days to live because of a brain cancer or something like that huh?) Hehehe...anyway,it is very interesting and exciting! You guys really turn my mood to colourful emotions...
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Few days before, received an unsuspected call from a cousin. He's going to give sponsorship for my wedding photography (He's in journalism anyway).It is very good to hear such news.
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7 days to go. I just counting by myself,and suddenly realise that tomorrow will be the last Saturday for me to enjoy my "Cik Yue" title.While the next Saturday i will be called "Cuk" - sebab selalu kena cucuk (lawak bangang n lucah ini adalah SMS dari seorang ex-ofismate aku beberapa hari yg lalu).
Talking about this, suddenly i feel a little bit nervous. Actually, the feeling should be on behalf of amet.We always heard that before the holy matrimony, the Tok Kadi always ask that simply-killing-questions to the bridegroom. So now, i had ask amet to be very well prepared (baca balik semua buku-buku text masa sekolah dulu) or otherwise he will be cold-sweating in the air-conditioned mosque.
Well, the questions are deadly simple we used to learn in primary school. But heck,as growing older, most of us just ignore about it.Now, in this last 7 days, we are digging for the scattered infos in our own memories.Teruknyaaa... : (
Kekadang bila ingat balik, macamana la boleh lulus ujian PAFA dulu? Dan macamana la pulak sekarang nih dah tak ingat apa langsung?
Kalau nak tau if we are still competent enough, try to answer these questions (without looking at your Form 3 text book, ok?)
1. Rukun Islam - ada berapa? Sebutkan semuanya.
2. Rukun Iman - ada berapa? Sebutkan semuanya.
3. Cuba mengucap dua kalimah syahadah serta berikan makna lengkapnya.
4. Rukun Nikah - ada berapa? Sebutkan semuanya.
5. Apakah itu Talak? Khulu'? Fasakh? Ilak? Rujuk? Eddah?
Hah, tu cuma 5 soalan basic.Kalau berani, cubalah jawab. Hah jawab...jawab...
Friday, June 23, 2006
CRAZY = INSANE = NUTS
Just came back from Singapore for 3 days meeting. well it supposed to be a Regional R&D meeting but at last the conference room turned to be the battle of war.since many of the local R&D teams - from Malaysia, Thailand, Taiwan, China and Hong Kong are totally not satisfied of what regional team commanded us to do.
and for me, the situation just could be added up in my positive list of resigning.everyday after the session ends, i just went back to my room, crying and crying alone. i have used up all the notepad provided in the hotel room to draft the best ever resignation letter.hahahaha....(Yue is laughing crazily)
And until today, at the moment i am typing out this entry, there are still emails flying around into my inbox,discussing about that Confusing-Standard-Operating-Procedure. I also have no idea how they can call this a "Standard".Hahahaha....(They are driving me crazy again)
Arghhh lets just forget about the tough work. No matter how, the resignation notice is now ready to be tendered. I only need to wait until the company clear up my travelling claims (which cost about RM3K - i will not simply resign without getting all this money back to my account first,of course!!!). And i really hope that the first week of July is the latest to submit.
Well, it has been few weeks i didn't see Amet.Just talking thru the phone is not enough to express how i miss you so much dear..Ouhhh..for the situation like this, while my head is ding-dong ding-dong thinking for the next business plan, or if not, finding another new job, i really need your smelly armpit...aahhh..it's only you who knows how i love to smell it...hahahahaha...(crazy crazy crazy)
Now i feel like we both are just like a business partner - talk thru the phone,communicate via emails & sms,and make a one-week appointment to see each other (only if need be.)
Hhuuhhh...
As for the wedding preparation, what i can see now is, amet is the one more excited than me - He already send invitation cards to his friends,ex-skoolmates,ex-colleauges and even requested for the wedding gifts (teruklaa budak laki-laki nih..). While my cards are still in the un-opened box.
Anyway, when he's telling me that some of them are giving us options whether to have a refrigerator or a washing machine - that is the part that excite me too. I really need a washing machine please.Thank you.Hahahaha....
(Humm..maybe its good enuff if my girlfrens give me a fridge.dont u think it's a good match anyway, girls? )
And we also got sponsored for a hairdressing (thanks to abg boyot) - eventhough i will not be a freehair bride, but since it is FOC,just grab the opp to do whatever style i want la kan.but maybe i am not so keen to go for this - fikir dululah.
Nothing much can make me draw a sincere smile on my face for the time being.If people make a very tickle-you-until-you-pee jokes pun, i have to force myself to smile a little bit.My jaws cramp and paralyse because of the s-t-r-e-s-s- I cant laugh anymore.
Except, laughing crazily....Muahahahahahhahaha...
Just came back from Singapore for 3 days meeting. well it supposed to be a Regional R&D meeting but at last the conference room turned to be the battle of war.since many of the local R&D teams - from Malaysia, Thailand, Taiwan, China and Hong Kong are totally not satisfied of what regional team commanded us to do.
and for me, the situation just could be added up in my positive list of resigning.everyday after the session ends, i just went back to my room, crying and crying alone. i have used up all the notepad provided in the hotel room to draft the best ever resignation letter.hahahaha....(Yue is laughing crazily)
And until today, at the moment i am typing out this entry, there are still emails flying around into my inbox,discussing about that Confusing-Standard-Operating-Procedure. I also have no idea how they can call this a "Standard".Hahahaha....(They are driving me crazy again)
Arghhh lets just forget about the tough work. No matter how, the resignation notice is now ready to be tendered. I only need to wait until the company clear up my travelling claims (which cost about RM3K - i will not simply resign without getting all this money back to my account first,of course!!!). And i really hope that the first week of July is the latest to submit.
Well, it has been few weeks i didn't see Amet.Just talking thru the phone is not enough to express how i miss you so much dear..Ouhhh..for the situation like this, while my head is ding-dong ding-dong thinking for the next business plan, or if not, finding another new job, i really need your smelly armpit...aahhh..it's only you who knows how i love to smell it...hahahahaha...(crazy crazy crazy)
Now i feel like we both are just like a business partner - talk thru the phone,communicate via emails & sms,and make a one-week appointment to see each other (only if need be.)
Hhuuhhh...
As for the wedding preparation, what i can see now is, amet is the one more excited than me - He already send invitation cards to his friends,ex-skoolmates,ex-colleauges and even requested for the wedding gifts (teruklaa budak laki-laki nih..). While my cards are still in the un-opened box.
Anyway, when he's telling me that some of them are giving us options whether to have a refrigerator or a washing machine - that is the part that excite me too. I really need a washing machine please.Thank you.Hahahaha....
(Humm..maybe its good enuff if my girlfrens give me a fridge.dont u think it's a good match anyway, girls? )
And we also got sponsored for a hairdressing (thanks to abg boyot) - eventhough i will not be a freehair bride, but since it is FOC,just grab the opp to do whatever style i want la kan.but maybe i am not so keen to go for this - fikir dululah.
Nothing much can make me draw a sincere smile on my face for the time being.If people make a very tickle-you-until-you-pee jokes pun, i have to force myself to smile a little bit.My jaws cramp and paralyse because of the s-t-r-e-s-s- I cant laugh anymore.
Except, laughing crazily....Muahahahahahhahaha...
Friday, June 16, 2006
Hatiku sedih,dadaku pedih.
aku tahu aku buat muka masam tadi,dia akan mengata
aku tahu,aku buat diam kering macam tunggul kayu mati tadi,dia akan mengata.
aku tak kisah.dia nak kata?nak merajuk?nak mengadu pada mak dia?nak mengumpat aku dekat boyfriend dia?silakan...
memang orang selalu kenal aku sebagai "Yue Yang Lemah Lembut".memang aku lembut.aku tak pandai marah.puas Amet mengajar aku untuk menjadi seorang pemarah,pembalas,penjahat.tapi aku tak boleh.paling lama aku jadik garang pun 15 minit.pastu cool balik.
paling aku marah pun,aku akan cuba sedaya upaya menegur orang itu dengan cara yang paaling lembut.
paling aku nak marah pun,aku akan jerit kuat-kuat pada Amet,bukannya pada orang yg buat aku marah itu.
Oh sedihnya...Kenapalah dia tak boleh faham?
bukankah dia sepatutnya sedar yang tindakannya untuk merajuk dan marah pada ku itu adalah salah?
bukankah dia sepatutnya sedar yang dia sedang menumpang dengan aku?
bukankah sepatutnya dia bersyukur dengan apa yang ada?
bukankah sepatutnya dia berterima kasih pada aku yang memberinya makan,tempat tinggal,kereta (plus minyak) tanpa pernah meminta satu sen bayaran pun?
bukankah dia sepatutnya cuba bertolak ansur ketika keadaan sesak dan memaksa?
bukankah dia sepatutnya cuba memahami bagaimana aku cuba berkorban untuk memberikan yang secukupnya pada dia?
tidakkah dia dapat melihat semua itu?
Kalau ikutkan hati,mau saja aku halau dia balik.pergi berambus jauh-jauh.sekarang aku faham apa yg ibu selalu adukan pada aku.sekarang aku dapat berkongsi rasa dengan ibu.aku betul-betul faham.tp aku masih x faham dengan perangai dia...
Ya Allah, percepatkanlah peredaran masa, agar dia balik ke tempat asalnya,dengan segera.
aku tahu aku buat muka masam tadi,dia akan mengata
aku tahu,aku buat diam kering macam tunggul kayu mati tadi,dia akan mengata.
aku tak kisah.dia nak kata?nak merajuk?nak mengadu pada mak dia?nak mengumpat aku dekat boyfriend dia?silakan...
memang orang selalu kenal aku sebagai "Yue Yang Lemah Lembut".memang aku lembut.aku tak pandai marah.puas Amet mengajar aku untuk menjadi seorang pemarah,pembalas,penjahat.tapi aku tak boleh.paling lama aku jadik garang pun 15 minit.pastu cool balik.
paling aku marah pun,aku akan cuba sedaya upaya menegur orang itu dengan cara yang paaling lembut.
paling aku nak marah pun,aku akan jerit kuat-kuat pada Amet,bukannya pada orang yg buat aku marah itu.
Oh sedihnya...Kenapalah dia tak boleh faham?
bukankah dia sepatutnya sedar yang tindakannya untuk merajuk dan marah pada ku itu adalah salah?
bukankah dia sepatutnya sedar yang dia sedang menumpang dengan aku?
bukankah sepatutnya dia bersyukur dengan apa yang ada?
bukankah sepatutnya dia berterima kasih pada aku yang memberinya makan,tempat tinggal,kereta (plus minyak) tanpa pernah meminta satu sen bayaran pun?
bukankah dia sepatutnya cuba bertolak ansur ketika keadaan sesak dan memaksa?
bukankah dia sepatutnya cuba memahami bagaimana aku cuba berkorban untuk memberikan yang secukupnya pada dia?
tidakkah dia dapat melihat semua itu?
Kalau ikutkan hati,mau saja aku halau dia balik.pergi berambus jauh-jauh.sekarang aku faham apa yg ibu selalu adukan pada aku.sekarang aku dapat berkongsi rasa dengan ibu.aku betul-betul faham.tp aku masih x faham dengan perangai dia...
Ya Allah, percepatkanlah peredaran masa, agar dia balik ke tempat asalnya,dengan segera.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
CARI KERJA
Aku dah betoi-betoi tak tahan!!! Aku betoi-betoi nak berhenti kerja!!! Aku nak berhenti !!!! Aku tak kira!!! Aku dah mula kumpul segala macam jenis iklan yg aku nampak.
Tak kira apa kerja sekalipun aku nak mintak semua (kecuali kerja social esscort / waitress kat pub/ disco). Dari admin exec, admin assistant, secretary, beautician (yg amat aku harapkan tp very low possiblity nak dapat), SPA assistant (juga yg sgt aku minati), sampailah ke Asistant Manager. semua aku mintak. asalkan aku dapat keluaq dari kilang ayam busuk nih dengan segera!!!
Now, it seems like i focus more on job searching instead of thinking of my wedding ceremony. Eventhough akad nikah is the most important & big part in my life, i feel like i am not really in the mood right now. I just feel like "Hmmm...it's just a wedding afterall...".
Well, i know, with the wedding 25 days away, this is not what i'm supposed to say.But sorry, i have no time to be dreamy of marriage as 85% of my brain is thinking of looking a new job for myself.
Oouuhhhh...why i didn't chose to be in any Sekolah Teknik after the PMR? Why i chose UM to study? Why i didn't go to any Sekolah Jururawat? Or got myself registered in any Beauty Therapist Training Programme?
Now, it's too late to regret what i have chosen. Oouuwww....
Aku dah betoi-betoi tak tahan!!! Aku betoi-betoi nak berhenti kerja!!! Aku nak berhenti !!!! Aku tak kira!!! Aku dah mula kumpul segala macam jenis iklan yg aku nampak.
Tak kira apa kerja sekalipun aku nak mintak semua (kecuali kerja social esscort / waitress kat pub/ disco). Dari admin exec, admin assistant, secretary, beautician (yg amat aku harapkan tp very low possiblity nak dapat), SPA assistant (juga yg sgt aku minati), sampailah ke Asistant Manager. semua aku mintak. asalkan aku dapat keluaq dari kilang ayam busuk nih dengan segera!!!
Now, it seems like i focus more on job searching instead of thinking of my wedding ceremony. Eventhough akad nikah is the most important & big part in my life, i feel like i am not really in the mood right now. I just feel like "Hmmm...it's just a wedding afterall...".
Well, i know, with the wedding 25 days away, this is not what i'm supposed to say.But sorry, i have no time to be dreamy of marriage as 85% of my brain is thinking of looking a new job for myself.
Oouuhhhh...why i didn't chose to be in any Sekolah Teknik after the PMR? Why i chose UM to study? Why i didn't go to any Sekolah Jururawat? Or got myself registered in any Beauty Therapist Training Programme?
Now, it's too late to regret what i have chosen. Oouuwww....
Thursday, June 01, 2006
KPLI
Start looking for info like..errmm....
1. So you are a teacher wannabe?
2. What are the advantage & disadvantage of being a teacher?
3. What is it about : Being A Teacher
4. There is more to being a teacher than you might think.
Looks like i really start preparing for a BIG change in life huh?
Are Yue sure?
Start looking for info like..errmm....
1. So you are a teacher wannabe?
2. What are the advantage & disadvantage of being a teacher?
3. What is it about : Being A Teacher
4. There is more to being a teacher than you might think.
Looks like i really start preparing for a BIG change in life huh?
Are Yue sure?
I was on fake MC last Monday (so jujur, right?). I woke up in the Monday morning with Monday blues - feeling so grumpy. My eyes was so heavy i cant open it. I told my mom (she was here visiting my new apartment) "Bu, cek takmo pi keja la hari ni.Tak larat la.." And she just "Ikut suka la. Jangan kena marah dengan bos sudah.."
So, aku called boss and told her that i cant go to work today because i am very ill. i called her at 7.00 a.m. in the morning, ok..
Memang benar kata orang, mulut ibu tu masin...Yesterday aku memang kena marah dengan boss. Padan muka aku.Tapi apa plak nak marah-marah orang ambik MC kan? I know it was fake, but what if aku betul-betul sakit?
Lagipun sejak bermula tahun 2006 ni, dah setengah tahun berlalu, sekali pun aku tak pernah ambik MC lagi.Kalau setakat demam pening sikit-sikit tu, aku akan gagah perkasakan diri jugak pegi keja. Tahun lepas pun aku cuma ambik MC beberapa hari ja, tak sampai 50% pun daripada jumlah yang diperuntukkan. I have been so committed all the while. So takkan la kerana satu MC dalam masa setengah ni bleh jadik issue? Lagi pun, dalam dok MC tu aku still lagi make few calls (regarding work) - aku tak lupa tanggungjawab.
Balik-balik bila aku sampai ofis semalam, bukak email dari boss aku - "Even if you are sick you must take the responsibility to make the necessary re-arrangement of any appointment made on that day, or at least call and inform me about it!! "
I dont understand why i still receive such blame? I did called her VERY EARLY in the morning, i have called people and make re-arrangement (lagipun this appointment is not very important, just a so-so only lah). So what else? Macam ni baik aku pi keja...Kalaulah masa tu aku memang betoi-betoi sakit nak mampos, agaknya memang aku dah mamposs...
Kadang-kadang aku rasa sangat enjoy keja kat sini. But when this kind of thing happens - tidak berperikemanusiaan, i feel like i really want to be a....err..... teacher!!!
GERAMNNYAAA!!!!
So, aku called boss and told her that i cant go to work today because i am very ill. i called her at 7.00 a.m. in the morning, ok..
Memang benar kata orang, mulut ibu tu masin...Yesterday aku memang kena marah dengan boss. Padan muka aku.Tapi apa plak nak marah-marah orang ambik MC kan? I know it was fake, but what if aku betul-betul sakit?
Lagipun sejak bermula tahun 2006 ni, dah setengah tahun berlalu, sekali pun aku tak pernah ambik MC lagi.Kalau setakat demam pening sikit-sikit tu, aku akan gagah perkasakan diri jugak pegi keja. Tahun lepas pun aku cuma ambik MC beberapa hari ja, tak sampai 50% pun daripada jumlah yang diperuntukkan. I have been so committed all the while. So takkan la kerana satu MC dalam masa setengah ni bleh jadik issue? Lagi pun, dalam dok MC tu aku still lagi make few calls (regarding work) - aku tak lupa tanggungjawab.
Balik-balik bila aku sampai ofis semalam, bukak email dari boss aku - "Even if you are sick you must take the responsibility to make the necessary re-arrangement of any appointment made on that day, or at least call and inform me about it!! "
I dont understand why i still receive such blame? I did called her VERY EARLY in the morning, i have called people and make re-arrangement (lagipun this appointment is not very important, just a so-so only lah). So what else? Macam ni baik aku pi keja...Kalaulah masa tu aku memang betoi-betoi sakit nak mampos, agaknya memang aku dah mamposs...
Kadang-kadang aku rasa sangat enjoy keja kat sini. But when this kind of thing happens - tidak berperikemanusiaan, i feel like i really want to be a....err..... teacher!!!
GERAMNNYAAA!!!!
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