JACOBS WALK OF LIFE

Since Zulaikha and Zubaidah had fallen asleep, I would like to take the chance to blogging. Yah it’s been quite buzy days for me lately. With the audits at office, with the CAR to be replied, with the remeh temeh matters to touch up with the bank,lawyer and owner of our new-house-to-be-so-soon, with the house chores and baju bertimbun yang tak habis2 dibasuh – semua di atas had leave me energyless to blog at night (before this bleh blog kt ofis, tp now takut sbb mata-mata kat ofis aku dh makin bertambah, benci okeh).

Nak cerita pasal last weekend 21 June Aku, Amet, Kak Ngah (adik aku), Zuzu n Yaya joined the Jacob’s Walk of Life. Kami bertolak at about 7.15 am. The event was held at Tmn Metropolitan Kepong (tempat yg main layang2 dkt dgn area Selayang tu).We had pre-registered online about a month ago. So bila sampai kami expected to be served like last year’s event (last year just me n Amet yg pi sbb Zuzu blk kg that time, and Yaya was 6 months old in my tummy!), which means we’ll get a T-shirt when we show our pre-registeration coupon or IC. Unfortunately this year, hang daftar ka tak daftar, sapa sampai awal, bleh mintak T-shirt berapa puluh helai suka hati mak bapak dia jek. Disebabkan kami yg betoi bendoi nih, kami pun queue up la mengikut abjad nama – Amet went to A-D station, and me go to U-Z station. Disebabkan kelincahan aku, aku berjaya mendapat 2 helai T-shirt saiz M for me n Kngah. Masa tu x terlintas plak di fikiran nak mintak sekali untuk Amet and Zuzu sbb aku still ingat kena ikut registration mcm dulu.

Suddenly Amet call, dia ckp baju dh habis. Aku try g tengok tempat U-Z, pun dh habis gak. So frust menonggenglah dua beranak tuh.Nak exercise pun, dh habis acara. Tinggal orang2 yg betul2 nak join Walking saja.teruk betul la JWOL tahun nih. Dh la nk minum Anlene pun x dapat, nk mkn Jacobs pun berebut mcm pelarian Somalia. Memalukan! Aku rasa area tu mmg ramai org pendatang haram, or kampungan sampai x paham langsung arahan pihak penaja.

Disebabkan kekecewaan yg amat sgt, kami telah blah dr padang tersebut dan mencari breakfast yang tidak menyihatkan aitu minum di kedai mamak at Damansara Perdana. Huhu…

Sekianlah kisah Walk of Life yang hanya berhabis di atas jalanraya dan taman ermainan kanak-kanak sahaja tanpa dapat bersenam walau sekelumit pun. Benci. Next year aku nk berkhemah siap2 kat sana.B.U.D.U.H. sungguh arrangement tahun nih.Huh!

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Apakahhh???

hahaha kepoyoan seorang ibu beranak dua.
kebetulan saja je bawak si kecik-si kecik ni berjalan2 kt One Utama. kebetulan ada la plak benda alah ni dok buat promotion kat situ. sapa beli voucher dpt barang of our choice + free make-up + bergambaq + dia cuci sekeping gambaq saiz A4. ni semua Amet la yg dook buat pulun suruh aku buat.aku ni xdak la intersted sangat..tp dah dia dok suruh x berhenti2, terpaksa la aku pi..keh keh keh...

Masa tengah mekap tu, si Zubaidah ni lak buat peranga megantuk, so terpaksala breastfeed dia sambil bermekap pulak. potong la markah ibu...huhuhu

Tp kurang puas hati sket sbb mekap artist tu mcm x paham aku punya request. aku nak mata kaler hijau, dia pi letak kaler brown2 gitu. pastu mcm x berapa naik dia punya mascara tu nampak eyeliner jek lebih. so mata aku nampak terbeliak mcm pontianak x cukup makan jek. benci tau...

pastu ambik gambaq pun x best sbb cameraman tu mcm x friendly langsung. aku nk senyum bat gaya2 model professional pun x menjadi sbb x lalu tengok cameraman tuh.

tapi best bila bleh tambah koleksi perfume Estee. this time, i choose Beautiful Sheer. plus, dapat sebijik mascara + lipstick + small make-up case.

And after jalan2 dapat lagik kasut Vincci. Semua di atas adalah hadiah sempena Father's Day!!! Heheehhe....day for a father to buy gifts for a mother..keh keh keh (pandailaa....)

NUBY

Zubaidah is a bit hard on bottle-feeding. asyik2 nak breast feed ja memanjang. tp nasib baik masa kt umah baby sitter dia ok (bila dh lapar dia hentam jelah kot apa yg ada).

Nak dijadikan cerita her babysitter is on leave from 10 - 14 june, so i take the turn to jaga dia for two days (wed - thursday) and my mom comes to babysit on friday onwards. So masa dok dgn aku tuh, langsung dia takmau minum susu botol.macam2 cara aku buat - bancuh susu cair, susu pekat, susu suam, susu sejuk, semua dia buat main2 ja. and i hv tried few types of bottles, name it - AVENT, Dr. Brown, botol murahan cap Giant, Baby Kiko and few others.

Until 2-3 hari lepas, we went to One Utama (bawak Zulaikha jalan2 after sebulan dia kt kampung, kang dia lupa pulak OU tu heheh), and I saw a Nuby bottle at Mothercare shop. But when i asked for the smallest (5 oz) size, it is out of stock.

So i decided to go to The Curve today and luckily, i found a last piece (ada few bottles lagi but bigger size) after masuk keluar 4 bijik kedai okeh...

Apa yang penting kerjee..same.., the Nuby nipples are more likely to mother's natural nipple. Plus it is BPA-free, non-drip nipple type.

Alhamdulillah...after trying the first gulp, Zubaidah telan habis licin semua susu 3 oz tu. keh keh keh..lega sikit hati ibu tengok budak gumok nih minum susu. So plan nk mula kurangkan BF, and nk start fully formula (ibu yg malas). Hopefully dia akan terus suka dengan botol tu dan boring2 mcm botol lain dah...

Otherwise, i might try the next brand i've been spying on - the Tommy Tippee Easivent bottle pulak..Baby-baby sekarang nih bijak-bijak. Botol susu pun can be very choosy. apa nk buat...ibu nk pi keja, kena lah cari jugak botol yg sesuai...huhuhu

LOOSE LIPS SINK SHIPS

Ooohhh..lemah semangat aku nak tulis entry nih tau. actually aku dah malas nak sumpah seranah tempat aku bekerja. ye lah dimana aku bekerja, di situlah rezeki aku makan dan bagi makan kat anak-anak aku betoi tak? tapi bila dah sampai tahap kebangangan yang maksima...meletop jugakkk!!
korang pernah dengar tak proverb "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy"?

Aku rasa kita semua dah dengar proverb nih sejak tadika lagi. walaupun aku cuma belajar kat Garden International School tadika Kemas Kg. Telaga Nyiur Manis, itu hanyalah proverb biasa yang bermain di mulut2 comel kami. and i (as well as most of my friends) keep saying it thousands time during our school days (Hey SMKAP girls, do you remember kita tampal this proverb poster in our kelas 2 Sumaiyah?).

Then, one day in a meeting in this so called big company, aku pun mengeluarkan this proverb just to menggambarkan how is our situation (the operators work EVERYDAY days and night including Sundays). I tried to grab their (the big bosses) attention to give a little bit condiseration to the workers to get some rest and time for their valuable family, and of course time for their own refreshment, so that they can improve by giving quality works instead of buat keja sambil terlelap.

So come this GENERAL MANAGER "apa yang kamu cakap tu?". frowning and blur. and i bet the Directors dont even able to catch up my saying (poor English listening skill, definitely).

Oh my Godddd!!!!! And the others (ahli mesyuarat) some smiling (yg pernah dengar, maybe) and some look even blur dan ternganga.

bila la nak berkembang maju kalau macam nih? patutla pun produk dia takde kat oversea. aku bukan la berlagak pandai sangat & bangga cakap bahasa penjajah nih. but sometimes, we just need English. especially for the board of Directors and managers. takkanlah english words yang level2 tadika pun xleh paham.

Aku rasa, that will be my last English word here. Next time, dont dare to talk English in this meLAYU place.they will treat you like a dog among the cats...huh!

Errr...by the way, have you ever heard of "A fool at forty, is a fool forever"? I wonder how old are my bosses???

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

(I just get to know it is celebrated on Second Sunday of May, so the day may vary for each year)

Today is Mother's Day.
I am celebrating without my Princess Zuzu by my side.
I am celebrating it all alone in ofiice. I have to work on Sunday, on Mother's Day.
I am not getting any gifts, or a kiss.
Because my Princess Zuzu is far in Perlis.
And Princess Yaya yet to know how to give me a kiss, but just pandai menangis.

To my mother & mother in law, Happy Mother's Day i wish to you.
I love both of you, hope you love me too. Hohohoho...

**Aku amat sangap dipaksa bekerja pada hari ini**
Tapi esok aku cuti...yahoo!!!!!

PULANGKAN...OH PULANGKANLAH

Ini cerita backdated. Labour Day tu kami balik kampung, ambik cuti tambahan so dptlah stay dlm 5 hari kat kampung. semua best kat kampung, kecuali tahap kepanasan di tahap gaban terbakar. sempat pi umah semua sedara mara terdekat, and sempat jugak jumpa kawan-kawan rapat (Aida n family, Isma n husband, Elly n family) lepak2 kat tepi pantai.

tapi yg x bestnya...masa nak balik tu...semua org mintak suruh tinggal Zulaikha kat kampung.depa (mak ayah aku & mak ayah in-law) cakap sebab depa kesian tengok aku yg dah kurus melidi. depa cakap aku nampak cengkung, mata tenggelam mcm hantu raya tak cukup rehat, x cukup masa untuk menikmati keseronokan uruskan diri sendiri. huhuhuhu...manusia nih mmg mcm tu. kalau aku balik dengan badan gemuk, mesti cakap aku x pandai jaga badan, makan tak kawal atau masuk angin. nih aku dah slim comel lote mcm anak dara,cakap aku x cukup makan pulak. adusss...cakap je lah mmg depa nak ambik zulaikha.huhuhu..amet pulak siap pasang pakatan rakyat komplot ngan mak-mak nih supaya agenda mereka itu berjaya. tidak kusangka, laki aku yang menjadi tali barut disebalik semua ini! akhirnya..ibu dan anak yang saling merindui itu telah dipisahkan....huhuuhuhu...

depa kata nak jaga zulaikha sampai aku gemuk gedempol sebulan (Insya Allah kami akan balik kampung lagi 6/6/09 ni sempena pertunangan adik ipar aku), tapi aku rasa dalam seminggu ni pun dah rindu membuak-buak kat dia. aku tak kira, minggu depan aku nak paksa mak hantaq anak aku balik. kalau tidak, aku suruh zulaikha beli tiket naik bas sendiri!
Zulaikhaa!!! Pulanglah!!! Ibu rindu padamuuu!!!!

IN PROGRESS

Finally, we have signed the S&P (sales and purchase agreement) as well as the bank loan agreement. Alhamdulillah...after passing by the hassle & messels, we are already at half-way.

Eventhough the house is a second-hand (we cant afford to buy new development as we will need to pay both for rumah sewa & rumah baru), we are still very excited to move in. well, at least it is uch much spacious compared to the rented apartment we stay currently. and anyhow, it will be our OWN house and we can do anything we want without asking permission to the owner.

Talking about permission, we just got greenlight from our lanlord to install an aircond at the apartment. we cannot wait until we move to the new house, but to install the aircond first as Zubaidah doesnt seems to sleep soundly at night due to hot weather nowadays. I've asked the contractor about the disamble and re-installation cost (once we move out) and agreed as it doesnt cost a bomb.

BAck to our new house, it is already renovated - with kitchen cabinets and extended wet kitchen. So that i will have a bbiiiiggggggg dry & wet kitchen as what i've been dreaming for years.

Thanks God i will not need to squeeze myself while cooking anymore. And no more screaming to Zulaikha & Zubaidah if they come 'to help' me baking cakes or potong sayur together. Oh, how fun to have those cute little girls accompany me cooking all the time. And if mothers & sisters come, that kitchen will be the place for gossipings and 'buat ketupat', heh!

However, we still have to wait for about 1 - 2 months for-bank-owners-us-transferring process/drawdown/change title and so. Hmm..i still have time to think if i want to add anything else before we move in - maybe the hob & hood, En.Amet?

Restaurant Review : Waroeng Penyet @ The Curve

Theme : Indonesian traditional meal & snacks

We tried : Ayam Penyet Set (Ayam Penyet + Nasi Puteh + Spicy Sambal + Salad + top of crunchy batter)

Komen : For the food i will give 3 stars but the service is not memuaskan hati. you know the typical indon - loklaq, kasar and kurang respect customer. and the handwash area is a bit dirty. Urrkkk!!! Tp sedap le...
I'm still interested to try the Siomay Bandung (traditional bandung dumplings)

Aweeraaa!!! kesian wiraku telah kalah di medan perjuangan . sob sob sob. sekian...selamat balik ke perlih na...anyway tahniah kerana telah mengharumkan nama perlih (semangat assabiyah betoi).

(DON'T) PUT THE BLAME ON ME

Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada SEDIH dan GEMBIRA?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada yg SENANG dan yg SUSAH?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada yg MISKIN dan yg KAYA?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada JAHAT dan BAIK?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada HITAM dan PUTIH?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada SUKA dan DUKA?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada TERANG dan GELAP?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada DERITA dan BAHAGIA?
Dan kenapakah pilihan aku selalunya yang derita, gelap, duka, hitam, jahat, miskin, susah dan sedih?
Akukah yang tersalah memilih?
Kenapa dalam hidup ni mesti ada PILIHAN?

CHANGE AGAIN?

i was on half day EL yesterday when Amet call, asking me to go back to look after Zulaikha. she got msg from the babysitter that Zulaikha is having high fever.
We meet at home and took Zulaikha to PMC. the doctor give her pcm suppository (this girl mmg suusaaahhh sangat makan ubat), so she looks better in few hours. but her face still look reddish and burning of high temperature. the only problem is to give her the oral antibiotics (pharmmacist, please create a suppository for antibiotics too..!!) Baru jek nk suap setitik, dia dh muntah. aduss...

Today, i am on leave - took Zubaidah for vaccination. just 2 of us went to clinic. she just nangis (mcm x nanges jek?) sikit, then fall asleep after kena cucuk. and continue sleeping all the way back home. lentok jeh atas car seat tuh, kesian...
sampai umah dia terus tidur dgn amat lena, so aku pun tumpanglah sekaki.hehehhehe
until 1 o'clock, terpaksa bangun nak siap--siap, pi mana? ada invitation. interview. heheehehheh
then, after interview, my head start pening. it's not that i''m not feeling well, but it's about to choose - do i really wants to quit my current job? do i really wants to join the new company?
the new one offered me more, but in terms of allowences, they had less. while the current one give less basiics but with more allowences.
and if after this i move to our new house, i have to pay every-day-toll to go to the new one.
pheww...this time it's quite hard for me to make decision. usually i never reject any job offred. dapat jeh offer lebih, terus blah. tp sekarang nih dh pandai demand, dh belh buat pro & con. maklumlah...dh byk pengalaman...heheheh
well, lets take a rest first. i will think better when i'm relaxed.

I wish i have more time and more energy everyday - i've been thinking of what to blog since few days but couldnt find a right time to do that. i had so many stories in queue to be listed in this blog.

after the HSBC day (14/4/09), we went again to HSBC Amanah on 16/4/09, just to clarify on few questions lingering in our mind, and as well as getting advice from the friendly banker (Mr. Fazli). I tell you, this is the most convenient bank i hv ever been. they treat us like frinds, play with Zulaikha n Zubaidah, buat lawak sini sana, but on the same time doing the job efficiently. even the manager (thanks Mr. Tengku Azhar) comes and see us and talks and give advice aboout this and that (Ok to tell the truth, we are gathering infos for housing loan and other infos on S&P, lawyer/loan agreemnet fees etc.) And they make us feel like at home. And we stay late until 10 pm (the bank supposed to close at 9.30 pm). i would like to highly recommend this branch to everybody as i am sure all of friends are looking for the best service too.

And to continue discussion, we went there again on Sunday (yes, they open 7 days/week too). Until then we agreed to open an account, get their insurance etc. so they give us 3 bags of compliments gift and umbrellas.Bravo!!!

So if you are looking for the bestest bank in the town, kindly proceed too the HSBC Amanah @ One Utama - you'll definitely get the first gold class bank service.

PETANG YANG MALAM

On Sunday (12/4/09), aku isu satu cek dekat orang, but asked her to cash it on Tuesday (14/4/09) sebab aku akan gi bank in duit dalam my HSBC account on Monday.
So on Monday, aku gi ambik duit dari Maybank n CIMB and nak gi cash depositkan kat HSBC. first time aku masukkan duit, ATM machine tu reject with note "Not more than 30 pcs per transaction." OK so aku masukkan 20 keping. but this time keluar plak mesage "Kad ditelan. Sila hubungi pihak bank". And that time was 5.50 pm. the bank is already closed. i asked the guard what shuld i do. luckily HSBC guard is very well trained (and good in english too! Tahniah!!), so he asked me to use the phone at the corner to talk to their Customer Service Representative (CSR).

"Can i hv ur IC number please?
Given.
"I'm so sorry but your name is not listed here. Culd u pls spell ur name for me?"
Given.
"I'm so sorry miss, ur name is really not listed in our system.I suggest u go to our branch at One Utama bcause they still open until 9.30 pm.Thank you."

At HSBC One Utama.
"Salam..my name is Fazli, may i assist u miss?"
"Yes, please. my atm card dh kena retained kat uptown td. i nk depositkan duit je. tp x bawak pulak no akaun."
" OK, let me check ur status in the system.Can i hv ur IC."
Checking.
" Miss, is the account is really under YOUR name?"
"Yes, of course"
"I couldnt find anything under ur name, or IC number here. peliknya..when do u opened the account, and what type of account it is?"
"It is a PowerVantage, come with atm card and cheque book. i opened in April 2006."
Checking again, but same result.
"Let me call few friends from other branches. And one from Call Centre too. Hope they can help. Actually, kalau u ada bawak no akaun, it will be helpful."
"Kalau mcm tu saya balik ambiklah. ada kat rumah. Saya nk bank in urgent ni. Saya dh janji dgn org tu dia bleh cashkan cheque by tmrow. Nanti dia cakap saya tipu pulak."
"Hmm...susah jugak tu. It's ok awak tngu skjap je, saya try call diorg ni dulu."
Make phone calls here n there.
" Hah, ok ada pun. ni ha Yue...Yus..., no akaun xxxxxxx, account auto-closed on October 2008."
"La dh closed? saya xde terima apa2 notification pun?"
"Hmm..saya mintak maaf atas kesilapan kami. tp saya pun x sure kenapa.saya mmg dh x bleh buka semula akaun ni. so meaning that ur cheque tu pun dh invalid."
"alamak...mcm mana nih? aduh...xpelah saya gi kasi cash je lah kt org tu esok. thanks."

Tengah jalan nk g parking, Amet called me.

"Akaun HSBC ayg tu dh auto-closed, invalid."
"Ha, why dont u go back to HSBC tu and ask them to buat bank draft. bahaya la bawak duit byk2 dlm beg tu."
"Hmm..ok jugak."

HSBC OU, again.

"Fazli, sorry ek. bleh tolong buatkan bank draft utk saya tak?"
"Hehehehe...ok buleh2...meh duduk. Tp ada syaratnya...u hv to open an account with us."
"Alamak...akaun baru la pulak..oklah, register je lah.."
setelah sekian lama, bangun duduk x tau berapa kali, siaplah jugak my new account at HSBC Amanah.
"OK terima kasih kerana menunggu, ini bank draft awak. ada charge RM5 kita akan deduct froom ur accountlah.thank you..."

Dah puku 9.00 pm. Amet plak ckp byk keja kt ofis. Anak-anak x ambik lg. Bank draft ni kena hantar malam ni jugak, nanti org tu cakap aku bg cek tendang pulak. Hari hujan.

Singgah umah jap, ambik anak-anak. Teruskan perjalanan yang mencabar di dalam hujan lebat, meredah jalam jam di malam gelap gelita, bersama dua anak kecik.

Sampai kt umah org tu, terus bagi dia bank draft tu. and mtk maaf coz acccount for the cheque is no longer valid.

On the way back, singgah jap Petronas, brreastfeed Zubaidah yg crying loudly n hungrily. Zulaikha had fall asleep at the back seat after crying few times asking for "shushu". Then terus balik umah, sampai dh dkt pukul 10 pm. Penat amat sgt okeh. Nk singgah tapau food kt mamak pun x larat dh. So just call McDelivery jek, amatlah x kenyang sekali. huhuuhu

Tetiba telefon bebunyi...(Wonderpets)

"Yuzaini, the bank draft aaaaaa...salah spelling nama woo...it shuld be W, but u put here M."
"Alamak..really ah? Aiyoo... salah lagi..Then how ah? Can i change a new one tmrow evening?"
"It's ok, i have an HSBC account too. why dont u just transfer to me. you can keep the transaction receipt as a proof lah."
"Hmm..oklah. but i still hv to go to the bank tmrow to cancel the bank draft. otherwise, my account will be empty bu now."
"It's ok, i can wait until tmrow."

So tmrow morning, ambik MC lah jawabnya! Ajak Amet sekali MC hahahha. pagi2 gi lagi HSBC OU tuh. pak guard tu pun dh kenal muka aku. cancelkan BD, transfer duit kt org tu.ok it's done. then received sms from org tu she had received the money in her account. Phew...lega sgt2. Alhamdulillah...setel satu hal. Terus gi makan2 kt food court. then balik umah, aku tiiidooooqqqqq dr kui 3.00 sampai kui 6.30 ptg. ambik anak2 gi minum mamak.what a wonderfull day (cause i learned lots of things).

KELANTAN NEGERI MAKANAN

There are lots of story to tell but seems like i'm always packed with a looonggg qeue of duties to be finished up. even when i'm typing this i still have 2 baskets of clothes that i should lipat and susun dalam almari, another one basket of dirty clothes to be cleaned (eventho i do hv a washing machine, but i still have to sidai it manually huh), and very thankful that nowadays Amet send his working shirts to laundry shop for ironing, heh!

Life is geting hectic (and headache) this few days - with kerja ofis yg bertambun-timbun, with Zubaidah yg got flu so not sleeping sounndly at night as she used to do, with Zulaikha yg dah langsung tak pandai nak tido awal (the earliest is 2.00 am okeh), and with few other things that i hv to think about (read : future planning and so).

oh ya, actually this entry supposed to be the story of our trip to Kelantan on last 13 March. we were attending Amet's friend wedding as well as jalan-jalan cari makan.

unfortunately, we didn't managed to get Nasi Kerabu on the first day, but just had Nasi Goreng Ayam (as usually found in KL) instead. felt so merugikan duit membeli makanan yang not traditionally Kelantan as our main intention is memang to go for makan Nasi Kerabu everyday, plus other dishes that jarang-jarag ditemui di KL like Nasi Ayer, sate perut percik, and the 'pretty ugly' kuihs.

it was only on the second day that Epe (Amet's friend in KB) suggest us to go to Yati Ayam Percik, a restaurant which serve variety of Nasi kerabu (ada putih, biru & kuning) and all the lauk pauk percik.

And so lucky at that time the Majlis Perbandaran Kota Bharu held a Pesta Makanan Kelantan (seems like they memang prepare it for me, so honoured, heh). So we bolot all the food yg mmg telah diidam-idamkan. Zulaikha had fall in love with Cik Mek Molek and Pulut i-dont-know-what-the-name-is, while i bought 'Miang Kam' - a Thai traditional snack, which to eat this you have to fold a daun kadok containing baked coconut,dried shrimps, baked peanuts, small piece of lime, bird chillies and a special sauce made of palm sugar.Kak Ngah tried the Nasik Ayer and Amet tak berani to try others but stick to just Nasi Kerabu (again and again).

The last day we had breakfast at Epe's house. His mother served us Nasi Dagang. i was not a Nasi Dagang person bcoz i dont really fancy curry lemak, but this time i found it very very very delicious that i eat every single rice in the plate, heh heh. The curry was not so lemak, and a bit spicy which just nice to suit my taste.(Nyum...meleleh air liur masa taip nih).

And maybe sebab kesiankan kami yang x sempat makan banyak2 nasik kerabu for all 3 days kat sana, Epe's mother had kindly prepare Nasi Kerabu tapau for us. sik isk amatlah terharu...Mekacih ye makcik..kalau nak datang KL jgn lupa bawak lagi...

From Epe's house kami terus balik ikut Jalan Pantai and singgah for a while at Pasar Payang to buy batiks and keropok losong. but all the way it's raining very heavily so we didnt berkesempatan to drop by the beautiful beaches to mandi manda (berat jeh bawak baju mandi,huh).

I really enjoyed the trip eventho penat a bit with Zulaikha & Zubaidah's punya pe'el.

(Oh ya, sempat jugak gi my old skool and berpossing kt situ, keh keh keh).

Restaurant Review : Mango Chili (Kinrara) & Mohsin (TTDI)

Disebabkan kekalutan dengan dua anak2 kecik ini, maka ibu telah memutuskan untuk tidak memasak apa2. Sebab? Kalau masak sendiri kat umah, pastu nak kena lap dapur, cuci periuk, basuh pingan cawan, lap meja makan dan lain2 yg sesungguhnya amat tak sempat sekali untuk dibuat dengan properly.

So ask Amet try makan kat Mango Chili @ Giant Bandar Kinrara sbb dia dok cerita yg Somtam kat situ best. Sampai situ at about 3 pm dh jd mcm minum petang plak. Makan nasik ayam percik and it's already served with Mango salad, so x jd nk order somtam takut x habis plak. The food is nice, cuma sambal dia tu x cukup pedas untuk aku.

Pas makan bawak Zulaikha main2 kt tempat mainan tu jap. Then balik singgah IOI Mall, dia main lagi Merry Go Round.Belikan dia happy meal sbb dr td xnak mkn apa2 sbb sibuk nk berjalan2. Dah habis comot dgn Milo tumpah kat baju semer, kami pun balik...

Singgah jap cari food for dinner kat Mohsin @TTDI. Beli Mumtaz Naan + Tandoori. This naan is highly recommended to all of you. Served with layers of cheese, mayonaise, tomato and salsa...hmmm - Mesti try!!!

LET THE PICTURES TALK

Restaurant Review : NOODLE STATION

Zulaikha : Nugget & Fries (Kid's Meal)
Comment : Tak makan pun. gigit nuget sikit ja. Pastu dia sibuk dgn lollipopnya dan berjalan mengacau pekerja2 kat restoran tu

Amet : Fried Yellow Noodle Hokkien Style With Abalone
Comment : Pun sedap gila jugak. Kuah dihirup sehingga licin. Amat sgt sedappp....

Yue : Wantan Noodle With Chicken Leg Mushroom
Comment : Very very delicious. Superb...for wantan noodle fan, mesti try nih. meleleh-leleh makan nih..Come with wantan soup. Tambah dgn cili jeruk and sambal.perghhh...anak nangis pun x hingat dah...

Overall rating : empat bintang

RESTAURANT REVIEW : WENDY'S

Last few nights (if not mistaken, Friday), we had a quickie dinner at Wendy's (sbb cik abg aku balik keja lambat sampai umah dh dkt pukui 9). Wendy's is not new in fast food business, they hv established well in few other countries, but maybe quite new for Malaysian.

we choose to to the nearest Wendy's at Giant Kota Damansara. The restaurant is just a typical fast food style. There were ample of places to sit (maybe it's not getting very popular compared to Ramly Burger heh!) And i think this outlet doesnt have enough workers. there were few dirty unoccupied tables waiting to be cleared. And our burgers came a bit late - not sure if they tried to protect the burgers' quality (preparation prior order only), or they dont have enough workers.
Amet had "Half pound double with cheese" small combo meal - come with fries and small soft drink. the patties look quite miserable - macam kepal-kepal dgn tangan jek. but taste nice and juicy. however, i feel that the spices are not enough to cover the raw meat-smell (hey, i am one of the sensory panel in Ramly okeh).

and for me, i tried the "Ultimate Chicken Grill" - a piece of full chicken breast, grilled and served with mustard and veggie. very simple and not spicy (maybe more suitable for Zulaikha). And i choose the Twisted Frosty, which finally dihabiskan oleh Zulaikha jek.

For me, there's nothing much extra special compared to other fastfood chain currently available in Malaysia. Maybe the menu can show a bit different, yet the price is slighthly more compared to McD, KFC and Burger King.

P/S : I always wonder when KFC Waikiki brger will make a comeback. this is the most lovely brger i ever had since (can feel the pineaple creammelting in my mouth now)

RELAXING

Balik keja ptg semalam, terus singgah kedai beli serbuk jelly nk buat dessert sket sbb dh lama x buat makan sendiri puas2. klu mkn kt kedai bleh rasa sket jek.lagipun kat umah ada bertin-tin fruit coktail hadiah from supplier.so sampai umah terus masak before ambik Zubaidah. kejap je buat puding ni, dlm 15 min siap dah.pastu biar sejuk dlm freezer,tgh malam nanti bleh la makan. Yummyy....

Pastu bangun pagi ni bawak sikit untuk staf2.kesian kat diorang keja penat2 kena la appreciate (bos yg baik kan aku nih).


Petang nih xtau nk buat apa.rest je lah kt umah.kemas2 umah skit (sawang kt dinding tu dh tebal makcik oi..).Amet g Lowyat beli brg komputer. Zulaikha ikut Mak Yan gi jalan2 umah sdara dia. just tinggal aku ngan Zubaidah jek. Oh by the way, Zubaidah dh bleh meniarap. Tu dia tengah tertonggeng sorang2 while ibu sdg berinternet ria...xoxoxo...

For lunch, i already have 2 pieces of pizza tapau back from office (ada jamuan tadi). So satgi bleh la golek2 dgn Zubaidah (bukan senang ooo nak bleh santai mcm ni...).

Hmm...maybe bleh buat home facial sikit kot sambil baring2 (sementara si monster kecik tu belum balik).

BONGKAK

Entri ini bukan untuk mengutuk sesiapa. tetapi sebagai peringatan bagi yang lali, termasuk aku sendiri.
Aku berdepan dengan 2 watak ini setiap hari. Mereka mempunyai persamaan - sedikit bongkak / membangga diri / bercakap besar / takabbur.

Watak A
Setiap masa berjumpa dengan dia, tak habis-habis bercerita tentang kehebatan anak2nya dan kebahagiaan keluarganya. Semuanya lengkap, anaknya bijak dan sebagainya. Dia juga bangga dengan kesuburannya dan ketererannya merancang keluarga tanpa menggunakan ubat-ubatan / peralatan. Satu hari dia maklumkan dia mengandung lagi. Saban hari dia bercerita perancangannya untuk buat baju mengandung fesyen itu dan ini, persediaannya membeli kelengkapan bayi yg bermacam-macam. walhal kandungannnya belum pun mencecah 3 bulan. setiap kali dia bercerita orang akan diam - tanda malas melayan. hari ini dikhabarkan dia keguguran. aku tidak mahu membuat apa-apa kesimpulan, tetapi cukuplah sekadar mengucapkan takziah.

Watak B
Dia baru sahaja join our company. and he was from quite a well-known-food-company. and he was a chef. and he keep telling me everyday all the fortune he has - he bought 2 houses and is planning to buy another one. he got 2 cars, he got resthouses in Port Dickson, Langkawi, this and that island and here and there. And he knows to do this and that. and he knows great people, the datuks and tan sris and befriend with the royal families and all. (please dont throw up reading this ok - i have been facing this every second every day and still steady). and oh ya, the latest one he told me this morning that he always chit chat with the MK Land owner (oh yeaa?? then why you still live in a cheap apartment instead of 3-storey-bungalow?)

then last week they said his was stolen - a Proton Waja. and today, his Kelisa pulak has been stolen. and i heard that his wife got VSS due to the everywhere-retrench-situation now. well, i hope his kaya-raya and millionaire-friends will give him a free car and a big position for his jobless wife.

that's all - just a two story stories to share. you make your own conclusion.

VALENTINE'S @ CAMERON HIGHLAND

Strawberry cream chocolate...enjoy fresh @ Strawberry Farm

Zulaikha @ Rose Garden...

Family potrait

With Intan, Pak Sheikh & the chubby Rafiq...enjoy tea @ Bharat Tea House

Parkland Apartment

Hijaunya bumi Tuhan

Semalam, terpaksa panggil sorang staf aku yang buat perangai. Kesalahan dia ialah bercinta di tempat kerja. memang bercinta itu tidak salah. tapi menjadi salah apabila mengganggu kerja, dan bila yg dicintai itu suami orang. Ok, ayat senangnya mcm nih, staf aku bercinta dgn seorang line leader yang telah berkahwin dan isterinya sdg mengandung anak sulung. Amat kesian kat isteri dia kan?

aku takmau blame sapa2. kalau bertepuk sebelah tangan tak akan berbunyi kan?
apa pun yg depa buat, aku hanya kasihankan isteri dia. awatla orang lelaki nih ghapla sangat? tuh baru bini tengah ngandung, dok ada depan mata, buleh main lagi. nanti bila tiba masa dia dok dalam pantang, dah balik kampung, kena puasa main plak sampai at least 60 hari, mcmana la agaknya si suami tu? tambahan lagi zaman sekarang nih banyak sangat alat komunikasi. senang2 ja bulehh dapat pompuan for one night stay.or even everynight stay. klu takut nak telfon, buleh sms. takut nk sms, buleh chating.

tak dinafikan, laki yg depan bini punyalah sopan, penyayang, tp bila bini dh berpantang, perrghh...gatai tak hingat. ada yg suruh officemate temankan minum, ada yg suruh pompuan lain tolong tidurkan dia, ada yg mintak diperkenalkan dgn kawan pompuan yg selama nih tak pernah bertegur sapa, ada yg sampai berangan nak .....isk isk...wallahualam lah. dosa sendiri tanggung aaa...

mmg tak dinafikan, pompuan pun zaman sekarang nih mmg ramai yang gaghik (sori, i have to frankly speaking here). ada pompuan yg suka kacau laki org, walaupun dia mmg dah tau org tu dah beranak pinak, tetap jugak nak kacau. ada yang menggedik2, sembang lucah, terdesak..macam2 pompuan (better call 'betina' rite?) lah yg ada. yg mmg tak ada rasa malu (kemaluan?). isk taktaulah nk cakap.dunia sekarang. Nobody can be trusted.

Penutupnya, staf aku telah diberi surat gantung kerja, manakala pasangannya telah diberhentikan kerana telah telah menimbulkan kekacuan apabila isterinya datang menyerang kilang.

Sepatutnya cinta membuahkan keharmonian, kasih saying, kedamaian. Tapi cinta hari ini lebih banyak menimbulkan kacau bilau, pergaduhan dan kerosakan.
Semoga cinta Yue, Amet, Zuzu dan Yaya sentiasa berbunga-bunga setiap saat dan ketika, malah sampai ke syurga. (Ya Allah, jauhkan kami dari sebarang gangguan sama ada syaitan mahupun manusia yang berniat jahat.Amiinnn…)

BENCI GILA!!!

I really hate that when somebody trying to tell stories about how they know how to cook this and that. Macam dia sajalah yang tau sangat memasak semua2 benda and like no others can cook like him/her. Tambah2 lagi bila dia pernah keja kat dapur hotel or dapur big restaurant. Asyiklah siang malam nk cerita tentang kepandaiannya yg hanya konon2 itu. Perlukah aku pun jadi bodoh, tumpang sama kepoh pasal kepandaian aku memasak itu ini? Arrggghhhh.....aku tak suka! Tak suka! Tak suka lahhh!!!! Terbakar la telinga aku dengaq orang cerita benda berlagak sombong mcm nih.

Aku pun tau buat pizza sendiri tp aku prefer mkn kat pizza hut sbb aku ada dua baby girl yang akan ‘membantu’ aku nanti.

Aku pun tokey kek, so x payah lah nak cerita yg hang tu pandai sangat buat cake and cookies. Aku bleh buat lebih cantik dari hang lah bodoh!

Oi, bleh hang blah pi cerita kat org lain dak? Not me okeh? Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh!

FEDERAL DAY

Bestnya hari nih sebab just kami-kami yg keja kat KL je yang cuti. Orang kat Selangor tu jgn jeles okeh. Hahaha..so mmg aku dgn Amet dah plan nak jalan-jalan hari nih. Tapi nak jalan berdua-duaan je, takmau bawak anak-anak (ibu yg kejam).

So pagi-pagi buta dah gi tinggalkan diorang kat babysitters, pastu dalam 9.30 pg dah mula gerak. Memula sekali plan nak pi Pertama nak format henfon cabuk Amet yg hidup segan mati takmau tu. Sekali dah sampai setengah jalan, baru dia teringat dia terlupa bawak henfon tu. (Selingan : nickname baru Amet ialah Tongga Buncit – aku yg bagi).

So teruslah pi Sogo, Best giler sbb x ramai orang, tapi banyak Sale. So senang jeh nak belek2, pilih2 lama2 sikit. Memang dah niat dari bulan lepas lagi nak beli jeans. Tapi dh try mcm2 jenis, still x dapat yg betul2 tangkap muat. Ingat nak beli Levi’s tp x bleh, kena boikot produk2 Yahudi nih (read : sebenaqnya tak ada duit daa..). So last sekali beli la jeans Nicole yg after sale tinggal RM30 jeh. Then rembat sehelai T-shirt merah sbb dah lama sangat x beli T-shirt.

Plan asal actually nak borong baju-baju keja sbb company aku x kasik pakai baju singkat2, mesti baju yg tutup punggung (maybe sbb punggung ibu beranak dua nih solid sgt kot). Tapi agak susah nak cari baju labuh2 nih. Nak pakai baju kurung tak sesuai la pulak sbb aku keja dalam lab & production. So lastly Amet suggest cari baju2 brand Scarlet jeh kat Jusco.

Blah la plakk pi MidValley. Sampai sana, sama la jugak, yang banyak baju kemeja yg atas2 punggung ja. Tp jumpa gak la sehelai baju yg ala-ala artist tp labuh. So after try posing depan cermin tu, nampak cam kelas jek, oklah. Then gi round2 lagi, tp mcm x round byk sgt sbb sakit lutut (sbb masa pantang hari tuh aku malas pakai stoking – inilah akibatnya x dengar cakap org tua2). Pastu jumpa sehelai T-shirt kaler purple utk Amet, then terus pi makan kat foodcourt Jusco tuh. Perghh…dari jauh bau Asam laksa dia tu amatlah mengiurkan. Tp malangnya aku masih kena pantang makan laksa lagi (kalau ikut cakap tok, dia suruh pantang sampai setahun. Tp mak aku kata lepas 100 hari bleh la rasa sikit2). Huhuhuhu…meleleh- leleh air liur ambbik bau je lah…

Pas makan teruslah blah. Masa masuk dalam keta tuh aku cakap kat Amet “Kita ni dah makin tua kan, jalan-jalan pun dah rasa penat, rasa lenguh semua.”

Disebabkan lenguh2 itu, aku pun offer Amet nak belanja dia gi massage (bukan aku yg massage daa..). So singgah jap kat Zen Reflexology kat Uptown for full body massage. Disebabkan kami sampai before 3 pm, dapat la promotion price for 2 pax. Jimat duit aku…Lepas massage barulah rasa ringan sikit badan nih.Lega…Pastu terus lah balik umah and take a short nap before ambik anak2….Huhuhu how I wish everyday is a Federal Day.

A NIGHT THOUGHT

It’s been a while since I managed to update this blog, not that I can’t be online..it’s just that the time has been occupied with something else (read : my two active girls).

I realized that when you are a working mom, the time you have for yourselves is really precious. You have to juggle between the feeding, the sleeping and the waking up time that your child schedules for you. Whatever that need to be done must be done within that time space. If you miss it, you lose it. Whether you want to take your shower, or going to toilet, or even have your meal, all must be done quickly.

And doing the ironing in the middle of night, washing the dishes during the wee hour is just become normal. All must be done only after they have doze off.

Now I understand why people pray for good health. I really wouldn’t want to fall sick, be it fever or flu, Nauzubillah if it’s something more serious. Not solely being selfish in wanting to be healthy, it’s more to taking care of the baby - who will feed, change, bathe them if I don’t have the energy to run the household. I can’t afford to sleep like I used to do during my single time - what if they are hungry, and I don’t hear them cry while I am sleeping soundly.

When you’re a mom, you put your child first and foremost in the priority list. However, between the tensions and stresses, I still feel great, lucky and proud to be a mom.

HARI CUCUK ANAK

Today both me & amet ambik cuti nak bawak anak-anak pi check-up. Sampai kat poliklinik Kelana Jaya dlm kui 8.30 pg, tunggu punya la lama sampai perut pun hampir kena gastrik, barulah dapat masuk. Timbang berat badan - si Zulaikha 10.6 kg, si Zubaidah 4.6 kg. Lepas nurse tu check-check danberleter lebih kurang, tibalah masa utk kena jab. Hahaha...si Zulaikha yg kena dulu sebab ibu & Zubaidah still dlm bilik pemeriksaan nak sembang2 pasal family planning dgn nurse tu. Ingat nak pakai Implanon plak lah kali ni. Aku mmg jenis kurang berdisiplin sikit klu nak makan ubat-ubat pil tiap2 hari nih. Kang terbabas lagi...beranak plak tahun depan. bila nak bleh makan laksa asyik kena pantang jek. Hahahaa...Setelah diinject dan menangis lebih kurang, kami pun balik lah umah...

Since anak-anak dua-dua tidoq, kami pun bersetuju to send them to their babysitters. So that we can go dating...! Yabeda bedooo...!!! (Mmg dah plan pun..hahahah)

Sampai kat OU dlm kui 1.45 pm, gi beli tiket dulu nak tgok wayang citer MAUT gitu..dapat tket kui 3.15, so decided to go karaoke murahan kat dalam kotak kecik tu. Balun la sorang dua lagu - Amet pilih Mata,Hati, Jiwa (Awie) dan lagu apatah (Broery Marantika). Aku biasalah...rocker sepanjang zaman memilih lagu Memburu Bayang (Kristal) dan Sakinah (XPDC). Hahahaha...gila betoi melalak dua laki bini syok sendiri nih. Pastu pi jalan2 sat survey sport shoes sbb susah dah nak jalan2 pakai kasut tinggi dengan anak dua nih. tak sesuai, asyik tercabut ja. kena pakai sport shoes sbb nak lari kejar2 zulaikha yg suka membuas di mana-mana tuh (kukuh kan alasan nih..)
So lastly jumpa la kasut yg berkenan di hati nih. Sesuai & nampak comel sekali mcm tuan dia kan??? Hahaha..tapi belum bleh bawak balik umah lagi sbb tokey kedai tu kata "No Money, No Talk" Hahahaha...



Pastu pi lah tgok citer Maut yg amat tak best gile tuh. Amatlah rugi sekali duit ku duit Amet kerana menonton cerita ini. Lain kali mmg betoi2 xmau dah tengok citer melayu. Iklan ja lebih, citer amatlah hampeh.

Then balik singgah Tesco beli barang2 sbb malam nih invite few friends mai makan2. Nak masak Laksa Johor versi Perlis nih. Hahaha...

SUPERBMOM

I just came back from kampong last 3 days. And everyday mengemas rumah yang telah hamper 2 bulan ditinggalkan (imagine how thick the dust on the windows and fans). Since I don’t have maid anymore, I sent Zulaikha to Kak Yan’s house and only Zubaidah stay with me so that I could manage to do the all-alone-gotong royong and cook for lunch and dinner.

I will start working next week so had another 3 days to arrange everything : the kids’ clothes, the rooms, their toys, the kitchen and my own duty roaster. I had planned in mind that I should wake up at 6.00 am everyday so I could get the things well prepared and ready when I come back from work in the evening. But I don’t know…waking up early in the morning is just happened during my school time few years ago.

6.00 Wake up - Bath
6.15 Subuh prayer
6.30 Prepare things to cook dinner (siang ikan & sayur siap2 so balik just
masuk periuk)
7.15 Breakfast
7.30 Breastfeed Zubaidah
7.50 Send kids to babysitters
8.00 Go to work

I will be a Superbmom. I will be able to do everything. I will be able to manage 2 kids and cooking and washing and eating and watching TV without a maid. I know I can do it. Kick your ass la!!! (opss I shouldn’t say this in front of the talkative Zulaikha..)

The source of my permanent headache has been removed. I mean, i had kicked out my stupid maid out of this house. I am sorry, but i wont be able to stand her stupidity and laziness. So please go before aku dera hang like Nirmala Bonat. I dont want my beautiful face to be printed in the front page of national newspapers and being interviewed in Buletin Utama "Kenapa puan mendera orang gaji puan?".

The answer is :
1. Dia amat suka menjawap dgn jawapan2 yg x munasabah
2. Dia pemalas, buat kerja ala kadar. Cuci botol susu anak aku pun x bersih.
3. Bila aku suruh buang sampah dan jemur tong sampah, dia cuma ambik sampah dan letak kat dalam plastik.
4. Bila aku suruh cuci kipas, dia cuma ambik penyapu dan menguis sikit2 habuk kat kipas tu.
5. Sampai 14 kali aku ajar dia mandi baby, tapi still tak ingat2 lagi.
6. Dia suka melalak dgn KUAT gila (nyanyi lagu Jom Heboh versi Indon) masa bagi Zulaikha mandi - malu oo dekat jiran2.
7. Dia masih tak pandai2 bg Zubaidah minum susu - dia bleh ambik botol susu dan terus suap kat mulut baby kat atas tilam. Kena riba dululah ngog...
8. Dia suka cakap aku nih garang, asyik nak marah dia. Dia terasa hati dgn aku. (Hahaha..mmglah aku kan Boss. Padan muka hang!)
9. Suatu hari dia mengejutkan aku dari tidur, semata-mata nak suruh aku minum. Adakah kau masih bleh bersabar??? Aku tak bagi penampaq dah kira cukup baik dah......
10. Ni yang paling aku pantang - suka sangat main2 golek2 kat bilik tidoq aku. ISk budak nih kang...Isk...x bleh aku haih!!!

Disebabkan sebab2 itu dan berpuluh2 lagi kejadian yang membuatkan aku betul2 naik hangin, aku telah memecat Tuti bengong itu. Hang bleh blah la oiii!!!!

5S = Seiri, Seiton, Seise,Seiketsu, Shitsuke SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!
5M = MY MAID MAKES ME MAD

Saya telah 38 hari berada dalam pantang. Ini bermakna saya telah 34 hari mempunyai seorang maid. Sepanjang tempoh itu jugalah saya sentiasa dalam keadaan gelisah, gundah gulana, tidak tenang, da pening kepala.

Maid saya itu namanya Tuti, usia sekitar 34 tahun. Sebelum ini dia pernah bekerja dengan ibu mertua bagi menjaga nenek yg sudah tua dan tidak sihat. Saya ada juga bersembang2 dengan dia 2 tahun yg lalu, semasa dia bekerja dengan mak, tetapi tidak terlalu kisah dengan perangainya kerana kami berjumpa pun sekali sekala bila saya pulang ke kampung.
Setahun selepas dia pulang ke Medan, dia menghubungi mak semula bertana jika ada kerja untuknya. Saya yg kebetulan sedang mencari maid pada masa itu terus bersetuju untuk menggajikan dia kerana pada firasat saya senanglah sbb kami sudah mengenalinya. Rupa-rupanya semua sangkaan saya meleset sama sekali...

Saya mengambilnya bagi tujuan megasuh anak-anak saya yg masih kecil. Memandangkan dia juga sudah beranak dua, saya kira urusan kanak-kanak tidak menjadi masalah baginya. Hari pertama dia tiba, dia hanya melakukan kerja-kerja rumah-membasuh, menyapu, melipat kain etc. Lebih kurang 2 minggu kemudian, dia mula menjaga Zulaikha. Sejak itu, sakit kepala saya bermula. Dia tidak pandai memandikan Zulaikha yg sudah sebesar itu - dia menjirus air yg amat banyak ke kepala anak saya sehingga saya lihat anak saya hampir kelemasan, tidak sempat benafas, lalu saya tegur dan mengajarnya.

Saya memintanya sediakan susu untuk Zulaikha.Tiba-tiba anak saya menangis tatkala susu itu masuk ke mulutnya. Saya ambil botol itu, Masya Allah...panasnya umpama kopi yg saya minum.Akibatnya lidah anak saya melecur. Susu yg dibancuh juga amat pekat lalu saya tanya bagaimana cara dia membancuh susu. Rupanya dia memasukkan susu dahulu ke dlm botol, kemudia baru diisi air. Saya tanya lagi, kalau air itu panas, bagaimana henda dibetulkan kerana telah dicampur susu? Dia blur. Lalu saya mengajarnya membancuh susu dan menguji kepanasan air.

Beberapa hari kemudian saya lihat dia menjamu anak saya makan nasi hanya dengan kuah gulai lemak. Saya amat terkejut kerana menyangka selama ini Zulaikha diberikan sayuran dan sedikit lauk, lalu dia ditegur lagi. Beberapa hari kemudian, saya membawanya ke jamuan keluarga di rumah tok. Kebetulan dia menyuap Zulaikha makan di hadapan saya dan saudara mara yang lain. Masa itu saya lihat Zulaikha tidak menelan makanan di dalam mulut dan seolah-olah mengulum sesuatu. Lalu mak meminta saya korek mulutnya, maka keluarlah seketul tulang lembu sebesar hujung jari. keesokannya saya mula memperketatkan pemantauan pemakanan anak saya itu. Saya dapati dia juga tidak mengasingkan tulang ikan dengan teliti dari nasi Zulaikha. Saya semakin runsing.

Itu baru menguruskan Zuaikha, dia belum lagi membiasakan diri dengan Zubaidah.Setelah umur Zubaidah hampir sebulan saya minta dia sediakan air untuk mandi. Nasib baik saya tidak minta dia mandikan terus, kalau tidak pastinya kulit anak saya melecur lagi. Air mandian itu panas yang amat. Lalu saya mandikan sendiri. Tapi malangnya, dia langsug tiada inisiatif untuk memerhati cara saya memandikan bayi, bagaimana menyediakan keperluan bayi sebelum mandi, bagaimana memakaikan barut, lampin dan menyapu minyak telon ke badan bayi. Sehinggalah saya cuba mengujinya pada minggu lepas - saya minta dia sediakan semua keperluan Zubaidah dan mandian dia. Langsung dia tidak tahu sehinggalah saya terpaksa berleter panjang dan menunjukkan padanya satu persatu. Apa yg saya geram sudah lebih sebulan berada di sini, dia langsung tidak berminat untuk bertanya dan belajar cara-cara menjaga bayi yg masih kecil dan lembut itu.

Dia hanya mengutamakan kerja-kerja rumah. Semua itu saya tidak peduli. Saya boleh melakukan sendiri.Saya mengambilnya untuk menjaga anak-anak semasa saya bekerja. Itu tugas utamanya. Kalau ada masa bolehlah dia membuat urusan lain. Semakin hampir tamatnya cuti bersalin, saya semakin risau. Bolehkah anak-anak saya ini dijaga dengan sempurna? Dan saya hairan, dia juga seorang ibu tapi langsung tidak tahu menguruskan anak-anak.

Saya saban hari berdoa, agar dia diberikan kemahiran menjaga anak-anak. saya cuma mahu anak-anak saya dijaga dengan selamat, rapi dan sihat. sebenarnya saya bukanlah seorang yg suka mengongkong anak-anak. saya suka melepaskan mereka meneroka dunia dan belajar sesuatu yg baru.Saya biasanya membiarkan sahaja Zulaikha memanjat di sana sini, tetapi tentulah mata saya sentiasa mengawasinya. Tetapi sejak ada Tuti, anak saya itu sentiasa dikendong ke hulu ke hilir menjadikannya sedikit manja dan kurang berdikari. Itu pun saya terpaksa tegur. Biarlah yg boleh berjalan itu berjalan dan berlari asalkan tidak ke tempat yang merbahaya.

Kadangkala timbul rasa geram yang teramat sangat sehingga terfikir mahu menjualkan saja Tuti kepada orang lain. Saya yang asalnya seorang yg baik hati, lemah lembut kini bertukar menjadi sebaliknya. Walau tidak boleh bersolat, saya sentiasa memohon kepada Allah agar saya dijauhkan dari meroyan. Kata orang tua-tua, wanita dalam berpantang mesti sentiasa tenang, gembira dan damai hatinya. Saya pula setiap hari bernafsu amarah dan penuh dengan kegelisahan dan kebencian. Senyuman saya yang dulu manis memikat, kini hanya tinggal senyum kelat umpama kopi tidak bergula. Wajah saya terpaksa dilakonkan seolah-olah sentiasa ceria kerana saya berpantang di rumah mertua (buat muka masam kang kena halau pulak). Sedangkan dalam hati saya mengalir air mata dan menyinga.

Kalaulah saya boleh berhenti kerja dan menjaga anak-anak sendiri di depan mata.....alangkah indahnya mimpi saya....