FLASHBACK



A great moment to remember. Teringiiiinnnn bangat nak ulang kembali..tapi tahun ni tak de org sponsor laa. Yuran mahal sangat. Nak consider hotel,transport,nak kena bawak laki, anak...Lagipun tak byk exercise la spnjg tahun ni,takut cramp plak. Takpalah simpan ja niat ni maybe utk 2008 buleh join (simpan duit sekali). Huhuhu...saya nak larii.....(bukan lari dari rumah daa...)

SELAMAT BERPUASA

Selamat berpuasa pada semua. Nampak gayanya Insya Allah aku akan dapat berpuasa penuh tahun nih. Apa? Ingat aku pregnant lagi? Tak laaa....tapi disebabkan aku sekarang breastfeeding Zuzu, so period aku akan terstop buat seketika. Begitulah kata doktor dan juga melalui pengalaman mak n mak mertua aku. However, kena berhati-hati ketika ‘bermain’ nih, takut terbuncit plak sekali lagi. Hehehehe....

Tapi puasa tahun ni nampaknya aku tak dapatlah pi terawikh sbb Zuzu masih terlalu kecik takmau nanti she makes any trouble in the surau (Menjerit2 mcm budak2 yg aku selalu curse masa terawikh last year). So maybe lepas bukak posa aku bleh pi merayau2 kat shopping complex ke hapa. Maybe tinjau2 baju raya Zuzu, baju keja aku, kasut keja aku, handbag aku, alat mekap dan kosmetik aku..Hahahaha...




Well lupa plak selama ni nak cerita tentang pengasuh Zuzu. Aku x hantar dia ke nursery, sebaliknya ke rumah jiran yg betul2 terletak atas rumah aku. Nama pengasuh ni Kak Yan, or as dia selalu membahasakan dirinya dengan Zuzu as “Mak” or “Mak Yan”. She still quite young I guess, maybe somwhere around 30’s. Dia Cuma ada sorang anak lelaki darjah 4, dan mengasuh sorang lg budak lelaki berumur 1.5 years. So far aku amat berpuas hati sbb dia x jaga ramai budak, dan rumah dia sgt kemas, dan juga pandai mengasuh, dan dia sgt suka membeli baju untuk Zuzu mcm anak sendiri. Dan dia mmg suka sbb selama ni dia x pernah dapat mengasuh budak pompuan.

Aku harap Mak Yan akan dapat jaga Zuzu sampai besar. Sekian (Xleh nak merapu sbb mengantuk sgt nih)

ZUZU IN ACTION

Sejak dah ada baby ni asyik nak cerita pasal dia je laa...mcm la aku sorang ada anak ek. Mesti org pun naik bosan. Lantaklaa..sapa suruh masuk blog aku. Hahahaha.....

** Posing tidoq tahap x hingat dunia
** Gelak ketawa riang ria...
** My little sweet smile..
** Gaya dah mula nak nangis...

** Zuzu possing with one of the hair clips

THAT'S MY GIRL

Semalam before balik keja aku round2 dulu pasar malam Mount Kiara. Memula ingat saja2 je nak round. Sekali ternampak la plak banyak gila org jual sepit rambut, hairbands, and orther accessories lah. Memula tengok je, pastu rasa mcm geram gila, pastu amoi tu plak dok offer kat aku suruh tengok2. So pas tengok apa lagi, terpaksa la aku rembat 3 pasang hair clips utk Zuzu. Hahaha..best sungguh dapat baby girl nih. Bleh dressing macam-macam....hehehe abg jgn jeles ok...

** Zuzu is wearing Bali-themed gown (Mak Tok Kiah beli kat Sarawak nii..)

ROMANCING AT BORA ASMARA

At last, after few times delayed, Amet and I had a chance to dine at the so-called Bora Asmara (what a romantic name, huh), a charming Balinese-themed restaurant, nestled at the sleepy Sg. Penchala.
I get to know about this restaurant after I found an article in The Star few months ago. But that was at our very hard time – so we decided to delay visiting it until we got a bit extra money to spend.

Last august,20th was our wedding anniversary. We planned to celebrate it somewhere but have to delay because Amet was so busy at work. He came back home at 11 pm everyday, plus working on weekends (boringnyer…). So we just managed to go there last night - 2 weeks belated anniversary.

As we stepped through the wooden doors,.we were impressed with the beautiful decors. The setting is just lovely with beautiful water features, rustic wooden tables and chairs, lit stone lamps, and Balinese decor tastefully placed around the outlet.. A waiter came an offer us a seat. I actually have a plan in mind to seat in one of their private hut called ‘Bisek-bisek’. But we had been given just a small table (reason being that’s the only table left, as other empty tables are reserved/booked). Luckily we put Zuzu in the stroller so that she can sit in that.

Zuzu was sleeping soundly. But as the weather is a bit hot that night, and we were sitting at the open air area with no air-cond or fan, Zuzu suddenly wake up and started to make noise. At first it was kind of “ek ek ek….”, but after few minutes it turned to be a loud cry. Huwaaa…malu giler…
I tried to give her milk (in bottle), but she refused and start to mengamuk. I had no choice but to breastfeed her in front of people. Lucky we sit at quite a dim place, and I wear a tudung so that can cover a bit. Huhh….

And the food arrived, we had Spicy Tom Yam, Steamed Kerapu and Kailan in Oyster Sauce. While for drink Amet chose to have Blended Mocha and for me is their speacilities “Bandrek” – spice + ginger + lemongrass tea. Well, I can say that I’m a bit disappointed with the food. Instead of huge prawns found inside, the Tom Yam just taste like curry and no smell of lime leaves or corriander. I am one of Tom Yam fan and I know how to differentiate between bad and good ones. And the steamed Kerapu was just so-so (not worth the price, ok), just like ikan rebus which I had during my pantang. And the kailan was also just OK – nothing special.

Since the food is served in biiiiggg plates, the small table seems to be crowded and uncomfortable for us. Somemore there’s a big umbrella stack in the middle of the table, and the tiang is really mengacau us to enjoy the food. I have to spoon Amet the Kerapu, and he also had to serve me the Tom Yam. It is very uncomfortable for us, especially for me as I was holding Zuzu on my left hand and only hv the other hand to eat everything. Sounds so kelam kabut isn’t it. That’s how it goes when u have a baby, ok.

And with the band playing musics very loudly, and the singer don’t know come from where - sounds like she's having sorethroat or something, I don’t feel like this dinner is gonna be a romantic one. Zuzu also looks terpinga-pinga with such a loud a messy musics.
We forced ourselves to finish up everything (tak sedap gilaa..). Paid quite a big amount (langsung tak berbaloi), and went back home (this is our real paradise).

My advise is : don’t go there. Harap tempat jer cantik gila, tp makanan and service hampeh…

PETUA MODEN

Learned from experience, I would like to share the petua-petua untuk memudahkan bersalin. Kebanyakannya adalah petua dr orang tua-tua, dan selebihnya petua yg aku rekacipta sendiri.

1. Banyakkan berdoa dan membaca al-quran masa tgh pregnant (solat toksah pesan la,dah mmg wajib).
2. Ambiklah supplement dan makan makanan berkhasiat secukupnya supaya kita cukup bertenaga untuk bersalin nanti. Kalau badan tak cukup khasiat dan lemah,mmg sakitnya lebih sikit.
3. Buat keja berat-berat sikit (Contohnya aku masa perut 7 bulan, sibuk mengangkat barang2 sbb pindah rumah. Dan bila dah tengah sarat 8 bulan lebih, dok alih katil dan ubah susun atur bilik sorang2 masa laki aku pi lepak kat kedai kopi – baguskan? Setakat panjat2 ubah kain langsir dan paku dinding tu kira perkara biasa la tu..)
4. Jgn takut/malas2 nak bergerak.lg byk gerak lg baik (since umah aku dekat dengan Ikea, Ikano, The Curve, One Utama, Tesco, di sinilah tempat aku merayau-rayau. Actually tak beli apa pun tp saja je jalan dari hujung entrance ni sampai ke hujung nu.)
5. Jgn terlalu manjakan diri (especially for the first time preggers. Selalunya masa ni lah suami n keluarga nak tunjuk sayang yg teramat sgt. Biasanya tak boleh buat itu tak boleh buat ini. Mmg lah kdg2 kita rasa penat, letih dan tak larat. Tp kalau boleh jgn la terlalu mengambil kesempatan nak bermalas-malasan. Buatlah semua kerja-kerja rumah spt memasak,membasuh,mengemas dsb hingga ke hari-hari terakhir. Aku masih ingat malam sebelum bersalin tu aku dok masak mee goreng.Dan hari sebelum bersalin tu jugak aku still naik moto pi keja,melambung2 perut bila tayar masuk lubang.)
6. Makan je apa2 yg rasa nak makan (takdak pantang larang nak makan apa masa ngandung nih.ada org kata takleh makan kicap,takleh minum kopi,minum air soya tapi bukan yg dalam kotak mesti yg segar, takleh mkn nenas, takleh minum ais etc. kalau semua takleh mana nak dapat nutrient yg cukup betul tak. So aku lantak ja telan apa yg ada. Kalau setakat kicap tu taktau la berapa botoi dah habis. Alhamdulillah..anak aku boleh dikatakan putih la jugak...)
7. kalau boleh, dapatkan air/minyak selusuh, diminum/makan dengan nasik/ disapu pd perut masa perut 7 bulan. Insya Allah...mudah proses bersalin nanti (sesapa nak air/minyak ni cakap le sbb tok wan aku mmg tukang buat minyak ni. Bleh order free of charge)
8. Doa masa nak bersalin “Lailahailla anta subhanakainni kuntuminadzzalimin” (Sebut tak henti-henti sejak mula rasa contraction sampailah dah nak push)
9. Mintak ampun dari ibu dan suami masa dekat2 nak bersalin tu (maklumlah masa awal2 pregnant mesti banyak nyusahkan diorang kan.biasa la pertukaran hormon...ada yg pening2,muntah2,demam2,dan ada jugak yg sampai lari dari rumah! Hahahaha...sapa tuu...Ampunkan ayg na abg...buat perangai masa ngandung dulu..hehehhe)

Sekian petua moden dari saya. Saya bukanlah nak berlagak pandai atau besar kepala, tapi itulah apa yg saya lakukan dan saya dapati kesan/hasilnya amat memuaskan. Alhamdulillah...cuma 2 jam dalam labour room, dapatlah seketoi budak gemok bernama Zuzu....

ANTARA TOK KUNING DAN TAMAN IRA

I feel very tired now. Just arrived from kampung at 6 o’clock this morning, took a short nap and rushed to work. Phewww.....
Sampai je ofis dah ada meeting yg sedia menunggu. Letih gila. Aku rasa adalah dalam 1/10 drpd input perbincangan tu yg masuk dalam hotak. Yg lain2 tu ntah melayang ke mana, maybe ke alam maya kot. Aku betul2 ngantuk dan blur hari ni. Bila boss aku mintak opinion pun aku bg jawapan ntah hapa2. Tak senonoh betul.
Aku sebenaqnya tak kisah sangat dengan penat letih balik dari kampung ni. Tapi apa yg aku nak luahkan di sini ialah ketensionan aku semasa berada di kampung. Ok, mesti ramai yg selalu dengaq org kata kalau kahwin dengan org lain-lain negeri, nanti mesti selalu gaduh masa nak balik raya. Dan biasanya kita akan dengaq perbualan seperti ini ;

“Suami awak orang mana?”
“Orang Perlis jugak..”
“Ohhh...satu negeri...senang la nak balik kampung ek.Takyah berebut-rebut..”

Hahaha...aku kan kalau orang cakap mcm ni, dah taktau nak jawap apa. Amat salah sekali persepsi org itu. nampaknya org itu tak tahu kalau kahwin org satu negeri, perebutannya lagi hebat. Ini semua berdasarkan pengalaman aku yg tak habis-habis bergaduh dengan Amet setiap kali balik kampung. Sampai kadang-kadang aku rasa mcm takmau balik dah sampai bila-bila. Sejak dari aku baru kahwin, sampailah sekarang dah ada Zuzu,keadaan masih tak berubah. kedua-dua keluarga berebut2 nak mintak balik umah masing2.bila sampai ja kat sempadan Kedah-Perlis, sure sakit kepala aku memikir nak balik ke mana dulu.

Kalau aku balik rumah Amet dulu, tak lama pastu mesti dpat SMS mak/ayah aku “Bila nak balik sini. Kami dah lama tunggu ni. Mak dah ambik cuti sbb nak tunggu tengok cucu.”

Pastu bila dah balik rumah aku, dapat plak call dari mak/ayah mertua aku “Jom kita keluaq pi makan ikan bakaq kat kuala perlis.Kalau boleh malam ni jugak sbb kami dh janji dgn adik.”

And things like that lah yg membuatkan aku sentiasa rasa serba salah. Baru duduk kat rumah ni org nu panggil, baru dok rumah nu, org ni panggil.

So bila aku balik kampung, aku akan jadi keletihan yg amat sangat. Dan yg paling aku tak suka, aku dan Amet mesti bergaduh.

Walaupun kami selalu buat schedule siap-siap sebelum bertolak balik, tp bila sampai kat kampung schedule tu bleh buang kat longkang ja. Semua plan kami pasti akan dimusnahkan oleh interruption dari kedua-dua pihak. Contohnya masa kami plan nak dok Tok Kuning, ada jemputan kenduri plak kat keluarga Amet di Jitra. Masa tengah gebang-gebang kat Taman Ira, tok aku plak suruh pi rumah dia. Macam tu lah setiap kali balik, tak pernah puas hati. Orang nu buat ayat sedih, orang ni buat merajuk. Last-last yg gaduh, yg nangis, akuuu jugak.

Kadang2 aku rasa betul2 sakit hati, geram,marah dan menyampah nak balik. Maybe aku pun patut buat macam orang lain yg keras hati, balik kampung cuma setahun sekali. To be considered……

AIN ZULAIKHA AZMIR

Macam biasa aku bangun pagi, mandi dan terus gosok baju nak pi keja. Tapi tiba2 dapat SMS dari mak aku suruh bawak adik aku pi sepital sebab dia demam teruk,muntah dan cirit birit sampai dah lembek. Actually malam semalam aku dah bawak dia pi PPUM. Ingatkan dah OK,rupa2nya makin teruk pulak. So aku decide to call ofis and tell them aku on emergency leave. Bila aku masuk dalam bilik adik aku untuk ajak dia ke sepital,tengok2 dia dok tidoq lagi. Maybe keletihan sangat sbb dehydrated kot. So aku ingat baik jugak kalau aku pi buat check up perut dulu kat klinik. Lagipun mmg aku supposed to go on Monday, tp aku malas nak pi. But since petang semalam aku ada rasa senak2 sikit, aku ingat baik jugak aku pi klinik.

Aku kejut amet dan mintak kalau buleh dia pun ambik EL jugak sbb takut aku tak larat nak uruskan adik aku sorang2 nanti. So dia pun call ofis dan ambik EL. Since dia pun cuti, aku ajak la dia temankan aku pi klinik dulu.

Sampai kat klinik, nurse tu pun ambik BP dan test urine cam biasa. Tapi bila tengok result dia kata BP aku ni lebih tinggi lak drpd biasa. Dia Tanya kalau2 aku ada rasa apa2 mcm pening ka, kabur penglihatan ka,kot2 PE (preeclampsia). Aku kata pening tu takdak, tp ada la rasa mcm senak perut sikit2. so nurse tu advise suruh aku jumpa doctor.

Bila masuk bilik doctor, dia kata dia nak cek tengok ‘kat bawah’. Dan alangkah terkejutnya bila tetiba doctor tu kata “Emm… you dah siap beg baju utk ke sepital tak? I think you better go now sbb actually you dah open 3 cm, and even dah ada blood show pun haa…” sambil jarinya yg berlumuran darah tu ditunjukkan kat aku.

So aku pun keluar dan dgn muka slamber cakap kat amet “Abg, doctor suruh pi sepital. Dia kata ayg dah nak bersalin.”

And amet was so blur, mcm tak percaya “Eh ayg jgn la buat lawak. Betoi ka ni.”
“Betoi…jom kita balik ambik beg baju.”

Sampai di rumah, aku call mak sedara aku yg dok kat Sg Buloh supaya tolong bawak adik aku ke sepital sbb takut kalau amet tak bleh coupe kalau bawak kami dua2 sekaligus.
Then aku tukar baju,dan siapkan barang2 utk dibawak ke sepital. Sebelum keluar rumah aku sempat lagi ambik gambaq saat2 terakhir perut aku yg besar tu. Lepas ni dah nak kempis dah…

On the way ke sepital aku still tak rasa apa2, so aku still tak percaya yang aku ni tengah dalam perjalan nak pi wad bersalin. Aku menyanyi lagu Biru Mata Hitamku mengikut radio Era. Amet pun drive relax ja,tadak pecut2 mcm ambulan.Bila sampai kat sepital, aku ajak Amet pi café dulu, nak makan.tapi malangnya kat café tu takdak makanan yg menyelerakan so aku just minum teh ais dan roti.

Sudah makan,kami pun berjalan masuk ke wad bersalin tu. Bila sampai kat kaunter,nurse tu Tanya “Kamu datang untuk apa? Nak bersalin ke?” maybe dia musykil sbb tengok aku dok berlenggang2 membawa perut besaq tu sambil dok ralit berSMS dgn henfon. Habis register kami pun dibawa masuk ke bilik doctor utk mengesahkan sekali lagi sama ada aku ni mmg dah nak bersalin.

Doktor pun sekali lagi seluk kat dalam ‘toot’ “Hmm.. dah buka 4cm. oklah nanti saya mintak nurse bawak awak masuk wad.”

Lebih kurang pukul 2.00 ptg aku pun masuk ke wad dan disuruh berehat kat situ. Tapi sebaik sahaja aku nak baring2 atas katil tu aku mula rasa senak. Mula2 sikit2 dan sekali sekala ja. Bila budak2 trainee nurse tu dating pun aku still bleh buat lawak sambil gelak2 lagi dgn depa. Tapi lama2 makin sakit dan makin sakit. Menangis nangis jugak la sakitnya. Hehehe….pusing sana pusing sini,sat baring sat duduk semua tak kena.

Nurse2 kat situ asyik mai dok pujuk aku “Sabarla…nak bersalin mmg sakit. Awak kena tahan sikit. Ini baru buka 4cm, taktau berapa jam lagi baru nak bukak habis. Kalau kami bawak awak ke labour room pun takde apa yg boleh dibuat. Lagipun kalau dah masuk sana awak takleh makan minum dah.kalau 8 jam awak tak bersalin, 8 jam jugaklah awak takleh makan minum. Baik awak dok sini..” Dalam kepala aku terbayang2 kalau lah 8 jam lagi aku kena dok tahan kesakitan tahap melampau mcm ni, mau banjir hospital ni. Sakit gila ooo masa ni. Tak sangka, baru beberapa jam tadi aku dok happy2, ni tetiba ja bleh rasa sakit gila.

Tak lama pastu ada doctor datang dan aku dengaq dia cakap “I think we better bring her to the labour room now.”

So dalam pukul 5.00 ptg aku dimasukkan ke labour room. Masa dalam ni kesakitan aku makin bertambah disebabkan oleh contraction yg semakin kerap. Nurse suruh aku tarik nafas dalam2 bila rasa terlalu sakit. Tapi aku dah tak sedaq sama ada aku tarik nafas, atau tidak. Yg pasti dalam hati aku tak habis2 berdoa semoga aku cepat2 bersalin. Amet yg dok kat sebelah cuma mampu tengok ja. Masa ni aku mmg dah tak bagi dia nak usap2 aku, atau nak pegang tangan aku. Habis aku tolak tangan dia sbb aku rasa terlalu sakit sampai takleh ada sesapa pun yg sentuh aku.

Tak lama lepas tu doctor mai utk pecahkan water bag aku. Masa lepas water bag pecah ni, kesakitannya makin bertambah2. aku rasa mcm seluruh isi perut aku bergegar2. aku rasa baby aku menolak2 dengan kuat nak keluaq. Aku rasa mcm lubang depan dan belakang aku nak pecah sangat2. aku rasa mcm aku dah tak tertahan sangat2. aku rasa ada air yg membuak2 keluaq kat bawah sana.aku meraung dan menangis tak henti2.

Tak lama pastu nurse mai “ Haa.. dah effaced ni. Dah 8cm dah pun. Nanti kalau awak rasa dah nak teran panggil saya ye”

Lepas nurse keluaq tetiba aku rasa mcm perut aku berkocak kocak dengan kuat dan mcm ada sesuatu benda yg besaq dan berat menolak2 kat bawah tu. Aku menjerit “Abg!!!! Cepat panggil nurse…dah nak keluaq ni!!!!”

Lebih kurang pukul 6.50 pm aku stat meneran. Tapi tak menjadi sbb ni first time so aku tak pandai nak meneran. Nurse tu tak habis2 pulun “Teran lagi, kuat…sikit lagi ni. Jangan nangis, teran je. Kalau awak tak teran betul2 nanti baby awak lemas. Ni kepala dia dah keluar sikit ni. Bak sini tangan awak tu” Sambil tu dia capai tangan aku dan letak kat hujung kepala baby yg dan terkeluar sikit kat bawah tu.Tangan aku dapat merasa rambut2 yg basah dgn darah, tapi malangnya disebabkan aku tak kuat teran,kepala baby termasuk balik dalam perut.

Amet pun tak habis2 dok support “Ibu, teran lagi ibu…kuat2!! Tu dah nampak kepala baby tu. Sikit ja lagi. Cepat ibu, kesian kat baby”

Lama kelamaan aku rasa nurse tu pun dah tension. So dia panggil sorang lg nurse utk tolong.Nurse ni mcm ganas sikit. Sampai ja dia terus tekan perut aku. Nasib baik la masa ni aku pun terasa nak meneran sekuat2 hati. Aku tarik nafas dalam2 dan teran kuat2….tetiba aku rasa ada seketoi benda besaq keluaq dari lubang bawah tu. Tengok2 ja baby aku dah ada kat celah kangkang aku. Hahahha…terus hilang semua rasa sakit tadi. Betoi..dah tak rasa langsung dah sakit tu. macam magic ja.

Aku n Amet telah dikurniakan seorang baby girl pada jam 7.16 pm.Aku senyum ja tengok baby yg diletakkan atas dada aku. Kalau ikut hati aku nak gelak kuat2 sbb happy sgt. Tapi takut nurse tu lari plak. Best gila…mcm tak caya baby aku yg keluaq ni. Hehehe….sekianlah cerita mcmana aku bersalin.

Masa sakit tu rasa mcm inilah kali terakir aku nak beranak. Tapi bila baby keluaq ja,rasa macam best jugak bersalin nih. Hehehe….bleh la tambah sorang dua lagi pasnih.

Alhamdulillah atas kurniaanMu Ya Allah…

KAKI

Hmmm..kaki aku dah makin membengkak dan membesar. Macam belon yg ditiup sampai nak pecah. Nampak berkilat-kilat. Kadang2 tengok mcm kelakar. Kadang2 mcm geram. Dan kadang2 sedih.
Kasut aku semua dah tak muat nak pakai. Habis dah aku korek2 kotak kasut yg lama2. Still tak dapat masuk gak kaki gajah ni. Last2 jumpa kasut adik aku yg saiz 8, yg dah hampir rabak, yg dah memang dia confirm nak buang - aku ambik, aku letak selofan tape kat mana2 yg patut, dan itulah yg aku pakai pi ofis sekarang ni.
Kenapa tak beli kasut baru?
Nak makan pun dok bilang duit syiling, inikan pulak nak hulur RM10 (at least) untuk pelapik kaki?
Sabar ya kaki. Bila aku dah kaya nanti, aku lapikkan kau dengan Scholl. Biar kau tidak letih membawa aku ke sana sini.

DUIT DUIT....

Hai...susahnya bekerja di kalangan orang kaya2ni. Diorang ni bila2 masa ja bleh mintak duit. Aku tau semua ni company requirement, sbb tu depa bagi gaji besaq. Contohnya hari ni, depa mintak kami semua bayaq untuk company’s sweater. Sorang RM64.00 which I think very fair and just a small amount to everybody, but me. And they might simply ask to pay about RM50 per person for company’s outing/activity every month. And they’ll ask to go out for ladies day’s lunch (once a month) at expensive restaurants which I never stepped in before (but this one ok as it is under HR/Admin budget). And they asked to share on buying birthday gift worth few hundreds for one person despite whatever position she/he is (bayangkan kalau sebulan ada 3 orang celebrate bday?)

Actually nak kata depa kaya sangat pun dak jugak (sbb gaji semua lebih kurang sama ja). Tapi maybe depa takdak banyak hutang mcm aku kot. Aku mengaku aku mmmg byk hutang – kad keras la,PTPTpu la, kereta la,dan mcm2 lagi. Aku ni lebih separuh gaji memang guna untuk bayaq hutang ja. Yang lebih sikit2 lagi tu lah nak buat bayaq sewa rumah,mana dengan nak beranak lagi,nak beli barang baby lagi,nak makan lagi,nak bayaq bil,dan itu dan ini.semuanya cukup2 takat nak hidup ja. So mcmana la aku nak memenuhi permintaan depa tu?

Henfon aku dah kena bar hampir sebulan. Tapi aku takleh buat apa2 tanpa duit. Dan sebenaqnya bil aku cuma bernilai RM85.00 dan aku masih tidak mampu! Oh...sadisnya kan? Dan bayangkanlah jika aku tetiba sakit nak terberanak kat tengah jalan,agaknya mcamana la aku nak call orang? Tapi call 911 free kan?

Baju dan barang2 baby pun aku beli ala kadar ja. Itupun kalau ikutkan hati aku nak beli dalam sehelai dua ja. Kalau tak cukup baju, aku ingat nak balut ja dengan kain batik. Tapi adik aku yg beriya-iya sangat nak beli sampai 4 – 5 pasang. Dia kata kesian kat budak tu. Ini bukan masalah kesian atau tidak. Masalahnya aku tak cukup duit dah cik oi.Kain napkin dan barut aku dah kutip dari mak aku (yang adik beradik aku pakai turun-temurun). Kalau nak diikutkan plan asal, tilam baby tu aku cuma nak guna TOTO yg ada kat umah ja. Tapi mak aku pulak dok suruh beli. Terpaksalah aku beli gak. Tapi itu pun aku cuma beli tilam cap siam kat padang besaq ja. Takdakla baby aku nak merasa barang2 berjenama BebeHomes ke hapa. Kalau nak jugak,esok dah besaq hang beli sendiri. Hahaha…

Untuk barang2 aku pun aku cuma beli maternity pad ja. Itupun yg 10 keping punya, just enough to cover masa kat sepital. Kalau nak kira betul2, banyak lagi barang yg aku perlukan – pam susu, stoking, maternity bra, breast pad, dan few things lagi lah. Itupun ubat bersalin aku tak beli lagi. Hopefully sempat la tunggu next gaji utk beli ubat-ubatan. Otherwise, biaq ja lah urat2 aku mengembang dan membengkak.

Hari tu mak mentua aku mai, dia advise suruh beli flask ayaq panas. Terpaksa jugak aku pi beli. Itupun setelah aku mengajukan satu soklan bodoh “Err..mesti kena beli ka flask ayaq ni mak?” And the answer is “Ya, mesti. Sebab nanti takleh minum ayaq sejuk dah.”

Kalau orang tengok slip gaji aku, mesti orang tak percaya cerita2 ni semua. Tapi percayalah, aku terpaksa pikir dua tiga belas kali cuma untuk sebijik McChicken, iaitu burger yg paling murah kat McD.

Hari ni ialah birthday seorang ofismate, dan diorang semua telah mengajak aku untuk makan kat restoran. Tapi aku menolak dengan alasan terpaksa berjumpa dengan seorang kawan lama yg datang dari jauh. Padahal aku tak jumpa sapa2, dan cuma minum teh, dengan sekeping biskut wafer yg aku jumpa dari pantry, kerana, di dalam purse aku cuma ada RM1.48…..
Cerita ini bukanlah untuk memohon simpati daripada mana2 pihak (terutama pihak BersamaMu TV3), tetapi sebagai AMARAN untuk semua rakan2 dan pembaca, agar mengguna dan menguruskan wang (ketika senang) dengan sebaik mungkin. Banyakkan menyimpan, kurangkan berhutang. Sekian, peringatan untuk semua dan diri sendiri.

HSBC - Stupid Banking

Kad ATM aku semalam kena telan kad uptown masa aku cuba nak cek if gaji dah masuk. Bila aku pi jumpa Customer Service dia, dia suruh aku “datang semula esok”. Alasannya – sistem ni x dapat cek sekarang.

Hari ni aku dah call HSBC tu. Tau dak dia kata apa?

HSBC : Kami dah cek status kad cik, dan kami dapati kad itu bukan atas nama cik.
Aku : What????? Tak mungkin....
HSBC : Ya, mungkin cik tersalah bawak kad org lain ke? Kawan2 ke? Atau suami ke?
Aku : NOOOOO... Anyway bleh saya tau atas namasapa kad tu? Maybe tertukar dgn kawan ofis saya?
HSBC : Ok wait na..saya cek dulu...Ok cik, kad ni tak berdaftar atas nama sapa2.
Ayg : Whattt?????
HSBC : Lagipun bila saya cek, dalam akaun cik ni tak pernah ada memohon ATM kad. Dan tiada rekod menunjukkan kami dah issue ATM kad pada cik.
Aku : Isk isk isk...magicnya lah kan. Agaknya mcm mana la pulak ATM kad ni bleh ada dalam wallet saya. Dapat dalam mimpi kot. Siap ada bagi slip nombor pin lagi. Jin mana la yg kacau saya semalam...
HSBC : Kalau boleh saya cadangkan cik pergi semula ke Damansara Height (opening branch), dan bincang dgn diorang. Cik boleh apply ATM kad baru kat sana sebab kita mmg tak dapat pulangkan semual kad ni sbb bukan bawah nama/akaun cik.
Aku : Oklah!!

Gila bodoh menatang hsbc nih! I mean, come on..you advertise as an international banking body and so and so...and this thing happened?? Oh shittt!!!! I don’t wanna talk more. I’m so speechless....

IBU

This few days, I’m not feeling very well. Setakat badan rasa lenguh2 tu mmg toksah cerita lah. Siang malam lenguh habis satu badan. Duduk tak kena, baring tak kena, mengiring salah, terlentang salah. Semuanya serba tak betoi. Pinggang rasa mcm dah berkarat, keras semacam ja.
Kaki pulak makin mengembang. Aku cuma ada 2 pasang kasut ja yg masih muat untuk disarung ke kaki. Itupun satu selipar jepun, dan satu sandal. Itulah yg aku pakai pi ofis (tak bergaya langsung!) Dan bila malam ia semakin membengkak and mengejang. Bila suruh Amet urut, mcm biasalah, dia punya urut mcm pegang agar-agar – picit punyalah slow, x rasa apa pun. Pastu tak sampai seminit pun urut, dah stop. Pastu mcm2 lagi perangai dia – bila aku letak kaki depan dia, mula la dia buat muka terlena la, menguap la, mengeroh la. Teruk betoi.

Perut pulak bila malam selalu rasa keras kat bahagian atas. Tak pasti sebab apa, tapi doktor kata itu biasa (tapi aku tak biasa!).Kdg2 sakit sgt sampai takleh tido.And plus when my baby kicks, it becomes tougher (I have a strong feeling that my baby’s leg is going to be quite long (mcm Amet) because bila dia kick rasa mcm nak pecah perut aku). Since I’m already in my 34th weeks (about 8 months), the baby kicks more frequent, and it makes me too exhausted (and sometime angry too – sudah2la menendang, go to sleep! Ibu tak larat laa...) I know that my baby cannot wait to come out and see me, and so do I (actually aku taknak dia keluar too fast sbb takut takdan lepas probation period, tp aku tak sabar nak beranak sbb aku dah tak larat menanggung badan yg gemuk ni).
And if according to pregnancy ticker, I have another 6 weeks to go – lambatnya....tak sabar dah nak get back to my slim figure nih. Hehehe....

And going up talking about my breast (Syyhhh..this is secret, baca and shut up,don’t say anything!), I’m currently facing this situation of “Colustrum Leakage” - well, you know when the so called “early milk” or “susu awal ibu” is coming out from my nipple (without any signals ok – and tiba2 ja baju aku rasa basah kat situ). This is agak menggelikan, yet sometime it’s quite exciting and fun though. I always ask amet to use it as face-cream (hey do you know people is making money out there using colustrum – and they sell it at minimum price of RM350 per small bottle, and you are just leave it wasted?). I tell you guys, colustrum is really a charm – it’s only a matter of using it or not.

And another concerns that I have now is nose-bleeding. According to physicians & studies, It is normal to have nose-bleeding during pregnancy because the blood vessel tends to expand and it may give pressure (especially utk yg berhidung mancung mcm aku ni). But worse has come to worse where now I also have to face the symptoms of “muntah berdarah”. It normally happens in the morning or at night, where I always feel like vomitting. It sounds a bit scary, but yes, it does happen – to me.

And with all this symptoms,it gives me nightmares almost every nite – terberanak masa tido la (tup tup bangun pagi,baby dah ada sebelah),pastu mimpi aku mati masa beranak and then become a vampire with beautiful face and bleeding nose,terbang merata-rata mencari mangsa (hiieee....hiiieee....best o bleh terbang...) and macam2 lagilah.
Well, those are the early challenges to be a mother – it’s not that easy,ok. Dan tujuan cerita ini bukanlah untuk menakut2kan sesiapa yg ingin mengandung, tetapi sebagai panduan serta peringatan untuk menghargai kasih sayang seorang IBU (sob sob...).

YUE & AMET DAH PINDAH

Dah lama jugak x updet.Actually Amet and I hv moved to new place, Mutiara Damansara, on April 28th. So dekat rumah baru ni x ada talian hayat internet lagi. Talking about the rumah, we ‘accidentally’ got one in the ground floor. Secara tak sengaja that day we just jalan-jalan cari rumah in that area, and noticed an iklan, so that we call the landlord and ta da...it’s in ground floor. So without waiting longer we paid him a deposit and moved on two weeks later.
Well the rental is a bit expensive compared to the previous one, eventhough size is just about the same. But since it’s in a well-managed environment, and not too crowded with cars and people, and the most important is this house has a separate kitchen (not like the previous one where there’s no wall/divider between hall and “so-called-kitchen”), we found this is the most suitable (yet affordable) to welcome the baby.
But until today, kami belum habis berkemas lagi. We just managed to settle the ruang tamu and kitchen and bed room and guest room. While the bilik bacaan/bilik komputer/store left untouched.
It has been about 10 days since we moved and we have received guests in almost everyday! The first one was ‘sepupup kesayangan’ Amet and his wife and mother. The second one was Pah. The third comes in group of “Gang SS2” which is Siti, Rose, Cik Mah and Wawa (siti brought pizza – thanx!). And the fourth is Along (my sister in-law) and abg Fauzan, together with Boyot and Isma and also Kak Ngah (my sister).
And in this new house, kami telah ‘terpaksa’ memasang Astro sebab tiada channel tv yg dapat didetect. Actually we don’t really need Astro as our whole week is already filled up with tv programmes on TV3 and NTV7. These 2 channels are already enough for us.Tapi tu lah, as I said, kami ‘terpaksa’ pasang astro....
So itu sahajalah sedikit cerita tentang rumah baru ni. Sesapa yg nak datang melawat, you are most welcomed.

MY NEW WORK SPACE

TADAA......Lets have a look...very nice aaa...tp sayang tak dapat ambik gambaq kerusi hijau yg cantik itu. Tertolak ke tepi pulak masa ambik gambaq tadi. tapi palah. that's all..nak menunjuk ja. Well, by the way, do you notice my MacMini over there? Just next to the monitor. MAybe you all tak perasan.Maklumlah...it a mini. well,please focus.Thank you.Hahahaha.....

Aku kan paling sangat tak suka bila orang komen apa yg aku pakai masa aku tengah pregnant ni. Aku memang tak suka pakai maternity dress. That’s it. Full stop.
Pagi ni pagi-pagi lagi aku dah hangin. Kat ofis aku ni ada seorang tea-lady. She’s 2 years younger than me. But she’s already a mother of two. So she always pretend that she has thousands of pregnancy experiences to share.
Apa yg dia cakap yg membuatkan aku bengang sangat tu?
Dia : Eh, kau pakai jeans ker?(We are allowed to wear jeans/casual to office on Friday)
Aku : Ha a…
Dia : Isk, tak elok pakai ketat-ketat masa tengah ngandung ni.
Aku : Tak ketatlah. Ni seluar orang mengandung la. Ada getah kat pinggang ni..
Dia : Ye lah tu..walaupun ada getah, tapi ketat. Tak elok untuk baby.
Aku : Mana ada, apa yg tak elok tu? Diorang dah buat research la before jual seluaq ni.
Dia : Nati baby kau takleh nak gerak.
Aku : Ok.
(Biasala aku bukan suka sangat gaduh2 dengan orang yg cakap tanpa asas saintifik ni)

And I am kind of a person that don’t really care about all those “don’t-do-that-things”. I eat everything I want, I drink cold water and ice-creams all the time, I put soy ketchup in my cooking and rice, I watch ghost and scarry movies, I sleep on my tummy, I run and jump, I ride motorcycle to work, and all. – I believe that getting pregnant should not be a barrier to have fun and enjoy your life, rite?

And so I think when it comes to dressing. I think i can still bergaya as usual - wear pants and jeans and skirts. But of course i'll make sure it's the maternity pants with kanggaroo bag in-front. And i can still feel my baby kicking all the time (Baby aku sekarang ni mmg active gila. Menendang tak henti-henti.Penat ooo)

So that's the story lah.(Actually byk lg nak lepas geram nih, tp dah buat appointment dgn tuan rumah, dia dah call. dan nak maki puas-puas..)

STARBUCK

Just a short and sweet story to share.Has been quite busy with new job, so tak sempat nak update lagi. Anyway, today I’m not going to bercerita about my new office. Maybe weekend ni, I really need to update – there’s a lot of story to tell.

So today, let me tell you what has happened during the lunch time tadi. Normally we will go out for lunch at about 12.30 p.m. But today ada beberapa orang contractor nak buat sedikit kerja, and they need to shut off the main electricity switch. So we went out for lunch early – at almost 12 o’clock. So after makan2, we lepak2 for a while lah while waiting for the contractor to finish their job. Then later come our HR Manager,Kris, also wants to makan there.
While waiting for her to finish food, we borak2 about our birthdays. Then suddenly Kris said “ Eh, tomorrow is Alex birthday la. What are we going to give him aaa? What does he like?”
Then the talkative Kiran comes with her idea “I saw that everyday he brings Starbuck coffee to office. How about treating him with Starbuck’s voucher?”
Haaa..gooodd idea – everybody agree.

Suddenly Kris’s phone rang “Ah.. I need to go back to office now. The contractor is waiting for me. Ha by the way who’s going to purchase the Starbuck’s voucher? How about Agasthiya and Yuz?”
Ok – we both agree.

So Agasthiya and I walked down to the Starbuck café.
Me : Hi, ummm we would like to purchase a voucher.
The Guy : Oh ok, but you need to go thru my manager, and he’s currently not in the office. Maybe pergi toilet kot.
Us : Ok, we will wait here.
The Guy : Ok, please have a seat.

After waiting for a while…we still didn’t see the manager’s batang hidung.
Us : Lambat lagi ker?
The Guy : Ummm..not sure. Maybe he went to the bank.
Us : What? Tadi you kata dia pergi toilet?
The Guy : Err…sorry actually I’m not sure. Anyway, would you like to have some drink?
Us : (Dengan muka bengang) Kalau free ok laa….(Gila x tau malu)
The Guy : Yaa….sure sure, I’ll give you free. What do you want?
Us : Anything laa..as long as not plain water (Demand pulak)
The Guy : Hehehehe…of course. I’ll give you Iced Latte ok?
Then we got our Iced Latte, one each. Good customer service haa..??? But the manager still not coming back.

Aghasthiya : Eh Yuz, you see or not, that guy aaa..is not giving this because of customer service you know. He’s looking at you la..i think he is flirting with you laa..
Me : Hahahaha..maybe he didn’t see my big tummy haa??
Aghasthiya : Ya lah, I think so. Hahahaha…
Me : I think we should go back first la. Maybe can ask their phone number so that we can call the boss later.

We walk to the counter..
Us : Can we have your phone number. We cannot wait for long.
The Guy : Errr..what if you give me YOUR phone number (sambil mengeluarkan handphonenya, dan tengok kat aku), then I can ask my boss to call you back.
Me : Aghasthiya, give yours la. I didn’t bring mine.
The Guy : Oooo.. (muka frust).
Hahahaha…what do you think? I will simply give my phone number over one cup of free coffee? Jangan harap la dik oi…Cuba celik mata kau tu luas2 tengok kat perut akak ni…

Then Aghasthiya gave hers, and we walked out of the café with free latte in our hands. Hahahha…..what a nice day haa….Lalalala….kami bernyanyi riang…..

GELI ISK GELILAH!

Saya bangun pada pukul 4 pg semalam untuk kencing. Dengan mata separuh terbuka saya membuka paip.Tiba-tiba mata micro saya terpandang sesuatu di sebelah kepala paip itu. Bukan hantulah! Tapi seekor haiwan/hidupan mini yg amat menggelikan.Cukup untuk membuatkan kencing saya tidak mahu keluar. Saya mencampak getah paip dan berlari keluar dari tandas.

Saya kembali untuk tidur. Tapi saya tidak boleh.Saya terfikir mahu menSMS adik saya di USM tentang haiwan ini (kerana dia orang pertama yg menemuinya di rumah ini beberapa minggu yg lalu).Tapi saya sangat kegelian hingga tidak mampu utk memegang henfon.

Saya terus tidak boleh tidur.Saya menjauhkan bantal dari dinding kerana takut haiwan itu ada di dinding tempat saya tidur.Saya mencampak selimut jauh-jauh kerana takut dia berada di selimut saya.Saya mengibas-ngibas tilam kerana risau dia terjatuh di situ.Saya membuka lampu dan melihat sekeliling dinding,atas lantai,atas baju dan semuanya.Saya betul2 kegelian.Saya tutup pusat saya supaya baby saya tidak melihat haiwan itu.Akhirnya saya terlelap,tapi ditemani mimpi tentang haiwan itu.Tahi!!!! (Shit!!!!)

Haiwan itu rupanya begini : Ia sangat kecil,bersaiz lebih kurang 3-5mm,berbentuk oval,dengan bahagian tengahnya agak kembang,berwarna kelabu dengan sedikit titik-titik,dan di hujungnya keluar satu kepala berbentuk seperti cacing/ulat halus berwarna hitam.Yucksss!!!! Mendescribe ciri-cirinya di entri ini sudah cukup membuatkan tekak saya meremang.

Pagi ini saya bangun dan perut saya berasa sangat sakit (saya mahu buang air besar).Saya kejutkan Amet supaya pergi membuang haiwan itu dengan segera.Tapi dia memang sangat malas untuk bangun pagi. Dia suruh saya menangis dulu,peluk dulu,merengek dulu,barulah dia membuang haiwan itu.Namun begitu,semasa melepaskan hajat,saya masih berasa tidak selesa dan takut kalau-kalau haiwan itu masih wujud.Saya fikir saya tidak membuang saki baki perut saya sehabis-habisnya.Laluan saya merasa tertutup kerana badan saya terlalu tertekan.Mata saya tak henti-henti melilau ke kiri kanan atas dan bawah.

Sehingga waktu ini saya masih belum mandi kerana rasa kegelian itu masih belum hilang.Tambahan pula lampu bilik mandi saya sudah rosak, dan saya tidak dapt melihat apa sebenanya yg ada di dalamnya.

Saya juga tidak bersandar ke dinding semasa menonton TV hari ini kerana hati saya tidak berasa yakin.Saya betul-betul takut.Saya betul-betul geli.

Saya juga tidak lalu hendak makan hari ini.Saya fikir sebentar lagi saya mahu keluar dan makan di mana-mana.Tapi dalam kepala saya sudah berfantasi terlalu jauh ---> Bagaimana kalau kedai-kedai makan itu juga ada haiwan seperti ini? Bagaimana kalau haiwan-haiwan itu jatuh ke dalam perkakas mereka tanpa disedari?

Saya tidak mahu makan.Saya juga tidak mahu tinggal dalam rumah ini.Saya geli.

Sudah sepagian saya menelek laman-laman web yg mengiklankan rumah.Saya mahu berpindah dengan segera.Saya sudah tidak tahan lagi hidup dalam ketakutan seperti ini.Saya lebih rela berhadapan dengan harimau atau singa.Tapi saya betul-betul benci pada hidupan mikrob dan juga haiwan yg "diam". Contohnya seperti cacing,lintah,pacat,ulat dan sekaumnya.Kerana mereka ini tidak berbunyi dan tiada isyarat untuk menggigit kita.Tiba-tiba saja sudah melekat di kaki menghisap darah.Saya betul-betul benci pada haiwan jenis ini ---> mereka tidak meminta,tapi mendatangi dalam senyap.

Sebenarnya ia bukan satu yg ada di dalam rumah ini. Sejak adik saya datang, kami sudah menemui beberapa ekor dan membuangnya.Kemudian selang beberapa kami menemuinya lagi.Ia seakan-akan tidak akan pernah habis.Saya tidak ada idea bagaimana ia datang,wujud atau membiak.Ia melekat di dinding-dinding dan pintu.

Sebelum ini (dan sehingga kini), perabot-perabot kayu di rumah saya diserang kulat seolah-olah 'white fungus'.Saya terpaksa saban minggu mencucinya.Tapi yg ini saya kurang geli kerana sekurang-kurangnya saya tahu ia tumbuhan,fungus,yg tidak akan merayap ke mana-mana.

Tapi haiwan yg baru muncul ini...dengan rupanya yg jelik..dengan identitinya yg tidak diketahui...saya menjadi sangat benci!!!! Ia sangat misteri. Ia sangat unidentified.

Saya berfikir,gaji bulan ini saya mahu memberi duit muka untuk menyewa rumah baru.Saya betul-betul sudah tekad.Saya tidak kisah untuk mengangkut dan mengemas barang dengan perut yg sarat.Asalkan saya dapat tinggal tanpa was-was.

P/S : Amet,tolong luluskan permintaan saya yg satu ini ya.

FACT OF LIFE

Sometime God is giving something BIG , sometime He also takes back something BIG.
He is just doing fair - especially for somebody who always leave Him behind.
Dont be angry to God, dont be angry to yourself, but change and improve.
Life is a very long journey.
There's a lot that we've learnt. There's a lot we are learning.There's still a lot we need to learn.
Alhamdulillah....Thank You God for giving me a LIFE to learn.

Allah berfirman maksudnya: “Sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. – (Surah al-Insyirah, ayat 6)

PREGANCY DICTIONARY

afterbirth- when the hard part begins

cravings- an excuse to gluttonize your way through pregnancy

dilation- one of those things a pregnant woman has to take her doctor's wordfor

elastiphobia- fear of making it into the Guinness Book of World Records for"Most Stretch Marks"

first trimester- the first three months of pregnancy when you wonder, "Is ittoo late to hire a surrogate mother?"

maternity clothes- what a pregnant woman wears to show people there's areason she's fat

miracle- 1. the birth of a baby 2. The fact that you lived to tell about it

obstetrician- the doctor who tells you you're doing fine when you thinkyou're caught in the jaws of death

pregnant pause- the amount of time it takes for a nine-month pregnant womanto get out of a chair

prenatal- when your life was still your own

pushing- the final effort to get a ten-pound baby through an opening thesize of a dime

second trimester- the time when you ask the question, "Will my husbandnotice if I eat this gallon of ice cream and side of beefbefore he gets home?"

third trimester- the final months of pregnancy when you wonder, "How muchlonger can I keep from waddling?"

This joke was supplied by Laughzone.com !

NOT FAIR & NOT SQUARE


Hai...susah...susah...serba tak kena aku dengan Cerebos ni. Maybe i've never mentioned before yg aku keja kat sini sebenarnya just on contract basis sbb nak assist ex-boss aku yg tengah maternity leave. So mengikut perjanjian yg telah ditangani aku hanya perlu bekerja apabila diperlukan. Maksudnya aku boleh datang bila-bila masa, pukul berapa yg aku suka,dan boleh jugak bercuti bila-bila masa yg aku suka; provided keja aku siap.

Memandangkan keadaan yg agak flexible itu jugak, mereka berjanji utk membayar aku dengan bayaran yg agak 'longgar'. Maksudnya gaji aku cuma seciput miut. Dan aku setuju untuk dibayar sedikit dengan syarat keja aku jugak cuma sedikit.

Tapi apa yg aku tak puas hati sekarang ni, aku rasa aku dah keja mengalahkan manager.

1. Suatu hari ketika aku bercadang utk berehat di rumah (sbb aku confirm dh takde keja nak buat), salah seorang staf telah menelefon aku dan meminta aku segera ke ofis sbb ada pegawai Jakim datang utk inspection.Aku suruh dia layan dan tunjuk je apa-apa dokumen yg Jakim mintak. Aku yakin diorang tu tak akan lama. Biasanya diorang ni datang buat eksyen je lebih, saja nak bg org takut la konon.Tapi budak ni still insist nak jugak aku dtg sbb dia masih baru.Terpaksa la aku pergi jugak ofis. Bila aku sampai,org Jakim tu cuma tanya itu ini sikit2,buat-buat pandai (tp nasib baik aku lg pandai),pastu dlm 15 minit diorang pun blah.Huh...buat membazir minyak keta aku ja.Dah la sakit hati melayan diorang ni - konon nak suruh org buat on-line application.Tp on the same time, nak jugak suruh apply secara manual.Pegawai tu kata utk mengelakkan drpd kehilangan data.Haahahahaa...lawak bodoh betoi la...Kuno!!!! Apa hangpa ingat aku byk masa sgt nak buat dua keja utk satu benda? Isk isk isk...encik....kalau nak buat on-line,buat la betul-betul.Kalau masih tak mampu,dan tak berkebolehan,buat je lah cara manual.Hangin aku...hangin....

2. Aku terpaksa arrange satu meeting between a supplier from Singapore dgn manufacturer from Batu Caves. Dan aku terpaksa dtg ofis setiap hari just utk check emails and phone calls from them.Dan diorang sgtlah susah utk dihubungi, dan jugak amat susah utk memberikan cuma satu tarikh yg diorang free utk meeting itu.Dan yg menjadi mangsanya ialah aku - duit aku yg seciput itu terpaksa dihabiskan utk mengisi minyak kereta semata-mata utk dtg baca email. Bullshitttt...

3. Aku juga merasa sangat, sangat, sangat geram apabila orang-orang kat sini selalu sgt tanya aku "Kau dtg keja pukul brpa hari ni,dtg lewat ek?". Atau begini "Eh,how come yesterday you tak dtg keja pun? Ponteng ek?" Atau juga begini "Eh, baru pukul 4 p.m. dah nak balik ke?". Dan jugak begini "Kau ni mcm biskut laa..sekejap ada sekejap takde.Boss tak ada kau main-main ek."
Pakcik-pakcik dan makcik-makcik sekalian, semasa boss ada pun saya tak akan segan silu untuk datang lewat balik awal, atau tidak datang langsung sbb saya mmg telah diarahkan untuk berbuat begitu. Jangan sampai saya sumbat mulut tu dengan periuk ayam nie....Geramnyaaa!!!!!!!!!

4. Sampai hari ni, gaji aku yg cuma separuh dari gaji operator tu,still tak masuk-masuk lagi. Aku dah empat lima kali call HR tp dia kata big boss outstation, so takde sapa nak sign cheque tu.Dia kata lg diorang akan balik next Monday,kalau sempat diorang akan sign.Kalau tidak aku kena tunggu lagi dan lagi dan lagi....Haaaa..bagus sgt lah kalau mcm tu....Jgn harap la aku nak dtg ofis minggu depan. Aku dah takdak duit nak isi myk la mangkok...!!!

5. Memandangkan aku dah lama meninggalkan company ni, so bila aku dtg balik, of course lah aku dtg dgn a new style (actually takdakla beza sgt cuma ada la beberapa helai baju baru). So makcik-makcik kat sini mulalah menyibuk - tanya aku mana kau beli baju ni, berapa ringgit, jenis apa. Malah ada yg sampai dah tertahan tangan tu, terus menyelak leher baju aku sbb nak tengok brand/label. Isk isk isk...makcik tolonglah...makcik-makcik jgn haraplah dapat pakai baju mcm saya ni. Baju-baju saya ni semua mahai....takdak kat Malaysia ni. Ni semua imported punya... (Made in Thailand). Hiiiiiiiii.......sakit betoilah hati aku.

6. Terpaksa layan sorang manager yg begitu kelam kabut dan tak tahu apa-apa. Semua benda dia confuse. Org cakap lain dia fikir lain. Orang tanya lain dia jawab lain. Sedangkan dokumen yg dibelek tiap-tiap hari pun dia masih tak sedar lagi benda tu dah lama wujud.Bila dia tanya, aku jawab.Pastu tanya lagi sbb tak paham-paham samapi sudah.Aku mmg heran mcmana dia ni bleh jadik manager. Dah la kelam kabut mcm ribut,keja tak organized,pastu ntah hapa hapa lah dia ni.Bluurrrrr...........

Memandangkan keadaan begitu genting sekali, aku dah tak sabar2 nak bg notice berenti.Aku akan berhenti sebulan lebih awal drpd contract itu.Kalau mengikut hati yg kejam,aku mcm nak bernti hari ni jgk.Tp nasib baik ada lg separuh hati aku yg baik.Kesian jgk kt boss aku yg tgh confinement tu. Dengan membantu dia ni,aku harap-harap masa aku bersalin nanti,aku pun dpt bercuti dgn senang hati jgk.

GOD HAS PLAN FOR YUE


I am not to believe on the horoscope. But what i read last few weeks seems like true. But anyway, it's just a forecast. Whether it will become true or not, it's the God's decision. The horoscope, dated somewhere in January 2007 says that Cancer person may face difficulties in the begining of February, and will start feeling better by mid of the month. Well, i started to feel the 'joy' exactly in mid Feb where i received a call for interview with Ajinomoto - a company everybody is dying to work for. Eventhough it's just an interview, i still feel so lucky to have been shortlisted (at least i got the opportunity to visit the MSG giant). Anyway, i didnt hear anything from them since that day ( when i stepped on the interview room, i already knew it's gonna be tough).

The next day i got another call from another company for another interview. However, since it's CNY, we have postponed it to the following week. It was Feb 21st when i attend the interview. I dont put so much hope on this application because they advertised for Assistant Manager. Of course aku sedar diri that i am not senior enough to be an asst.mgr. Amet pun masa aku nak apply dia gelak-gelak main ja.Anyway i just give a try since they invited me for the interview.

There was a warm welcome upon my arrival - ready in the meeting room are drinking water (in a beautifully design crystal glass) and a small bowl of sweets. After a few minutes, the manager (which is going to be my immediate superior if i'm accepted), enter the room.My first impression says that he is a very workaholic guy, and all that he has in his mind now and then is just 'work' (due to his improperly-buttoned shirt and not so manager-style).

So the interview started as usual asking me of my current and previous jobs experience and so and so...Until comes the toughest question : "Since you are already working in quite a big,multinasional company and you are quite in a strong position, why do you want to leave your current job?"

Of course i cannot say like this : "I want to immediately quit because i just cannot bear another moment with those crazy people in the company.And actually you know what, i just feel that my current job is just sucks and i have been suffering and my salary is so small i need to eat wood and stones for dinner. "

So instead of saying the 'real' and 'honest' thing, I take a deep breath,smile and reply like this : "Actually, i just would like to move into something new which i know that this company has. Instead of just doing the same thing everyday, i would like to find another room where i can learn and develop myself. Eventhough there's just a little different of job responsibilities, i believe there will still be differences especially in terms of the environment, products and your nature of business. I have involved in local pharmaceutical industries, now i am looking for a more global communications and interactions with countries you are dealing with like Germany, and US. I will still retain to be a good team player, loyal, highly-motivated and hardworking as i used to be, and on the same time to learn something new from an optimistic boss like you. And i know that this position in this established company is my true-calling. I have proved to my current company that i have finished all the projects they thrown at me, and now, i need a fresh challenge.That is why i am moving on".

Hahahaha....What a wonderful words huh? All that i have in mind at this moment is just trying to leave them with the impression that i'm not going to slot into the company like any another cog, but i'm going to crank the whole business up to a new level.

After the interview i go back and take a short nap, until i heard my handphone rang.

"Hello, Ms.Yuzaini, I am Ms. A from [the company i went for interview just now]. I would like to check with you, how long you need to notice your current company if you are leaving? And when are you able to come for second interview? Oh,by the way i would like to say congratulations that Mr.X has shortlisted you. Anyway, based on your years of experiences, we have discussed and decided not to offer the post of assistant manager, but however we will offer you a position as a senior executive."

And i was like banging my head on the wall - am i day-dreamin'?

So on Friday, i went there again.

HR Mgr : Hi Yuzaini, congratulations and welcome to your new world!

Yue : Hehehe..thank you.

HR Mgr : Ok so this is your job responsibilities, company procedures,bla..bla..bla... (Dia ni cakap byk gila, sampai aku tak payah cakap apa dah).

Until comes the most exciting topic - the salary.

HR Mgr : So Yuz, what do you think of the amount that you applied for? Do you it's too high or too low?

Yue : Errr....i think, maybe when i applied for asst.mgr, i put quite a big number there. but now since you're offering me a senior exec post, maybe it just not suitable. I think it's too high.

HR Mgr : Yes, actually we are not giving as what you asked. You know why? Because we think that is TOO LOW! So, we are giving you more than that. Ok? Now you can jump if you would like to. And you can go back and have a great dinner with your husband tonite. Congrats and please dont forget to come and report duty on April 2nd.

Yue : Speechlesss......(nganga).

And that happens on Feb 23rd, which the Offer Letter i showed to Amet as his birthday presents (he's so excited to see the figure,he already has plan to claim a CK perfume from me soon).

ALHAMDULILLAH...Thank you Ya Allah for giving me this opportunity and strength.

HOLIDAY

Howdy! Just come back from Kuantan & Kemaman.Attend a schoolmate's wedding in Kuantan and off to Kemaman in the afternoon. Quite disappointed cannot meet with Chai's newlywed-wife as they just arrived from Kota Bharu - so busy with their lunch and sanak saudara. We just cant wait anymore as the weather was so hot i feel like it's boiling my baby.

Well, actually went there accompanied by Amet and Pah (It's fun to have Pah around as she will protect me not to have fightings with Amet all the way). As we arrived Kemaman, Epe is already waiting for us. Me and Pah were sent to our budget hotel (it's cheap yet comfortable) while Amet stay in Epe's place.

At night Epe took us to eat "Satar" and "otak-otak". At first i thought "Satar" is the shop's owner name because it's wriiten as "Satar Pulut Panggang". Only when i heard Epe ordering "satar satu set" then only i realized it is the fish-based-snack name. Then Epe took us to visit her working area in Paka (he's an engineer in Oil & Gas company, still single and looking for someone,his salary is more than amet+me, quite handsome and good looking, a lil bit chubby, very kind-hearted, and very humble - Epe, i'm promoting you over the net! You should pay me a treat.)

The next morning our breakfast was in Kopitiam Hai Peng. As usual me and amet had our favorite drinks, Cham Ais while Pah chose Milo. Then we proceed to Teluk Chempedak. Lepak-lepak at the beach for about an hour. Actually amet was so excited to go for mandi-manda di tepian pantai, he already brought his beg to the beach. But since we arrived at almost 12 o'clok, he decided not to expose her already "tanned" skin to a darker one.

Pah drives on the way back. Tetiba dia rasa nak singgah tengok "The French-themed resort" yg diiklankan kat tengah jalan. So up up we go up to the Bukit Tinggi. Dalam hati berangan-angan nak masuk ke Colmar Tropicale and Japanese TeaHouse.Yabedabedooo!!! But then, when we arrived at already puncak bukit tu, there is a RM16 ticket/person that we need to pay before they can open the so-called French gate to us. So kami pun buat2 tebal muka and make a U-turn kat situ. Damn! Apsal la dah sampai kat puncak baru korang cakap nak kena bayar. Mahal plak tu. Kalu setakat RM4 takpelah jugak.Dahla kami ni style yg ada RM10 jek dalam wallet masing2 (aku lagi la- takde duit langsung!) Teruk betul.

So dengan hati yg kecewa, we sail down to the highway and proceed to KL. On the way back, i said to both of them " Nantilah kalau ditakdirkan gaji aku yg besar tu tak dimasukkan dalam Maybank, aku akan belanja hangpa mai sini. Sebab kalau masuk Maybank, gaji RM3K pun takleh keluar sebab hutang credit card aku x bayaq." Hehehehehe...(kalau ada staf Maybank yg baca jgn marah ek..)

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Itu cerita about our weekend journey. Ini pula cerita about my current life. My life has been like a roller coaster this few weeks (or better say this few months since i found pregnant). It has been all up and down since then until now. My financial is not yet stable, so do my health condition.

JOB/WORK - Well, it is already 1 month since i started joining back Cerebos. But yet to receive my payment cheque (Tommy, i'm waiting for it..). Memula berangan this payment is to be used for barang2 baby yg penting2. Tapi bila kira2 balik dah banyak plak terguna pakai masa balik kampung minggu lepas dan jalan2 kelmarin. So terpaksa postpone dulu barang baby.Have to replace back amet's account (utk byar sewa umah & keta). Huhuhuhu...takpelah lagipun lambat lg nak beranak.
Makcik-makcik kat kilang ni pun dah start notice that my belly is getting bigger and bigger. Memula diorang selalu tanya if i'm pregnant but i always deny it. But now mmg dah takleh hide it so have to tell them the truth. They are all so happy like this is their grandchildren.They started to warn me not to do this and that, and all the old-folks pantang larang (but it never go into my head).

BABY - So far i think she/he is ok. Can feel she/he kicking already...hehehehe.Kekadang rasa geli dan tergelak jugak sorang2. Macam lucu je ada benda dok gerak-gerak dalam perut. Hihihihi....Kadang-kadang rasa dia tendang kuat sangat sampai aku terkejut. Especially in the afternoon. Next check up will be on March 13th.Ayway i have already move from UMMC to Klinik Kesihatan Kelana Jaya. First, bcoz UMMC is not providing a full check up (sepanjang aku dok buat check up kat sana, tak pernah pun ambik BP, Hb, weight, urine etc.) Secondly, sbb UMMC tak guna Kad Merah as per required if you plan do deliver in any Government Hospitals. Thirdly, because i cannot keep the medical record - what if something suddenly happen to me like bleeding ke? Or what if tetiba ketika aku tengah melancong kat negeri lain, aku rasa nak terberanak? Any documents/medical record to show to the hospital? So, i decided to choose Government Clinics. Senang, semua record ada kat aku, nak beranak kat mana pun boleh.

MARRIAGE LIVE - amet, any comments? we are fighting like cat & dog (except on the bed).

FAMILY/PARENTS/IN-LAWS - Balik kampung on CNY holidays. Mak & ayah are so happy to see me put on more weight. Mak already looking for kekabu nak buat tilam and bantal baby. Ayah brought choices of fruits from everywhere he goes. Tok & wan also served me like a queen - buah janggus (gajus) la,salak la,mcm-mcm ada. Tok Limah pulak sibuk nak kaitkan buah amra kat atas pokok.
While my ibu mertuaku pulak dah hulurkan duit for me to buy maternity dress. But as her request, she would like to see me wearing the maternity 'gown' - so i chose to buy Jubah that i can always wear even after giving birth. Lagipun aku tak minat sgt nak pakai those 'baju maxi' that makes me look really like a pregnant woman (still wants to hide it huh?)
And they are all start planing for my postnatal treatment - all the jamu la, girdle la,tukang urut, what you can and cannot eat, pantang and whatsoever. Eerrrkkk???? Can i really follow all these rule? Or just pretend like aku bersalin kat oversea je - makan je burger McD and KFC. Hahahahaha....

BUNGA & DAUN


Ada seorang budak yang bernama Bunga. Bunga bekerja sebagai seorang eksekutif dengan gaji yang agak besar. Dahulu Bunga bekerja di Pulau Pinang. Tapi sekarang Bunga telah dapat bertukar ke Kuala Lumpur. Teman lelaki Bunga bernama Daun. Dia sudah lama bekerja di Kuala Lumpur. Daun juga seorang pegawai yang berpendapatan besar.

Apabila Bunga ingin berpindah ke KL, mereka menaiki bas sambil membawa sangat banyak beg yang berisi pakaian dan barangan Bunga. Apabila sampai di Puduraya, mereka terpaksa memanggil kawan mereka untuk membawa baran2 tersebut. Ini kerana kedua-dua Bunga dan Daun tidak mempunyai kereta. Daun hanya memiliki sebuah motorsikal.

Bunga menumpang di rumah pakciknya untuk beberapa hari sehingga dia mendapat rumah sewa. Setelah mendapat rumah sewa, Bunga sekali lagi memanggil kawan2nya yang ada kereta untuk mengangkat barang2nya. Sebelum itu Bunga dan Daun juga telah meminjam kereta kawannya untuk ke IKEA kerana ingin membeli sedikit barang.

Setiap hari Bunga pergi kerja menaiki bas. Namun begitu, Bunga terpaksa berjalan sedikit dari rumah sewa ke jalan besar dan dari tempat turun bas ke ofis. Ini kerana bas sangat besar dan tidak dapat masuk ke jalan yang sempit. Keadaan ini adalah agak merbahaya kerana Bunga ialah seorang perempuan. Kawasan itu pulak banyak penyangak dan dikenali sebagai kawasan gangster. Bunga juga telah diberitahu bahawa di kawasan itu kadang2 terdapat penagih dadah atau indon tak guna yang berkeliaran. Tapi Bunga dan Daun sangat ingin berjimat. Mereka tidak mahu membeli kereta kerana itu membazir. Walaupun gaji mereka sangat besar, mereka ingin menyimpan wang banyak2 sehingga menjadi bukit dan dibawa mati.

Bunga tidak kisah untuk membelanjakan wang membeli beg Guess berharga RM500, kasut Elle berharga RM200, dan baju2 berjenama yang tak terkira mahalnya. Namun Bunga amat kisah untuk membeli hanya sebiji kereta untuk melindungi dirinya dari cuaca buruk dan kejahatan manusia.

Bunga dan Daun tidak kisah untuk menyusahkan kawan2 mereka. Walaupun ada pepatah mengatakan "a friend in need is a friend indeed", namun begitu kita tidaklah perlu terlalu berjimat sehingga terpaksa menyusahkan orang lain. Lagi pula kawan2 yang menolong mereka adalah bergaji sangat rendah berbanding dengan gaji mereka yang mampu membeli 3 bijik kereta sekaligus. Sedangkan kawan mereka yang tidak bekerja pun juga memiliki kereta.

Sekian cerita untuk kali ini. Saya harap kalau ada antara kawan-kawan saya yang kaya seperti Bunga, janganlah kedekut untuk membeli kereta bagi kegunaan dan keselamatan kita kerana pada hari ini orang penjahat sangat banyak dan keadaan di luar adalah tidak selamat terutama untuk kawan2 perempuan.

Sekian, ambillah pengajaran dari kisah ini. Jangan terlalu kedekut hingga menyusahkan diri sendiri dan orang lain. Duit tidak boleh dibawa mati (kalau nak bawak jugak masuk kubur boleh, tapi lama2 dia reput jugak).

This is the most miracle thing ever happen in my life. This is found in my uterus. Yes, it is really exist in my body. I can't believe. I still can't believe it. It's real.

*Hidung mancung mcm ibu,telinga capang mcm ayah.

Today supposed to be a big day for me. I’m supposed to be registered as a ‘student’. But alas, because I am currently 5 months pregnant, the offer is automatically cancelled. So pity huh? Well, even though I never hope too much of getting this offer from Ministry of Education, I feel so regret that they can easily cancelled after all the effort I’ve put into it. Ok,ok, some of you might be so-o curious to know what is that “offer” right? The letter quote as per below :

Name : YY
I/C : *******

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa anda telah ditawarkan untuk mengikuti kursus seperti berikut :

Kursus : TESL
Tempat : Institut Perguruan Darul Aman, Kedah
Tarikh : 5 February 2007

* Tawaran ini akan terbatal dengan sendirinya jika:
Sekiranya anda mengandung/belum melepasi tempoh 60 hari bersalin/mendapat kemalangan dan memerlukan tempoh rawatan yang panjang, anda tidak dibenarkan mendaftar.

Well, I’m not the one who really wanted to apply for the course. Actually it was Amet who insisted as he always said “Abg suka sangat kalau dapat isteri seorang cikgu. Memang dari dulu lagi abg berharap sangat ayg ni jadik cikgu.”
So do his family – as his parents, older and younger sisters are all teachers too.

It was my mother in-law who reminded me the day when MOE start selling pin number for online application last year. Since the pin is just RM6, I purchased it and sent out the application (I was so main-main at that time). A month later, they called me for evaluation test – it was just objective papers, so I just tick A, B, C or D where ever I like. But lady luck is on my side again – I got the interview (while thousands applicants are so disappointed they are killing themselves for not a getting this chance).

The first intake has been called in January. My name was not in the list. But later come the second call, my name is there. Hey, I got it! I never imagine to be a teacher – wearing baju kurung everyday (with color-matching handbag and shoes), leaving my Seed shirts and Nicole pants in the wardrobe, and talking gently to the pupils…

“Ok murid-murid, ikut cikgu yeee….A for Apple, B for Bird, C for Cat…..H for Horn..”

“Cikgu, cikgu…saya nak tanya soalan..what is the different of Horn and Horny?”

Hehehehehe….i’ve been dreaming too far. Now the reality is, all those things will not happen soon. Unless I re-apply again after the baby is born.

Well, I don’t know how do I feel rite now. I miss to go back to college, being a student, doing assignment. But I don’t know whether I really want to be a teacher. And I’m not sure if I can get a better job in future.

Talking about the baby (I mean, MY baby), sometime I feel like….. (Hmmm I’m not supposed to say this.) But yes, I feel like I start losing everything when I found myself pregnant. So pity my baby I have to say this. But it doesn’t mean I don’t want her/him to come to our life. But I think I’m not ready. I got a better job before (in AsiaLink, not Laksa Shack keparat tu okay), yet I have to resign because I’m too weak to adopt with this foreign creature in my womb. Now that I got the KPLI, also I’m forced to decline. Just because I’m pregnant.

Anyway, I hope that my baby will be a strong person after we had gone through all these obstacles. And I hope she/he is sleeping while I’m writing this. I don’t want her/him to read this rubbish. I love you dear…I’m waiting for you to join me in this real life.…Oh God, please give both of us strength, patience and a very good health. We'll rock the world, baby!

JOBS EXPERIENCES

My age is just 25 years and 6 months old, and my jobs experiences are :

1. A&W - waitress (3 days)
2. HPA Industries – QA/R&D Exec (1 year)
3. Binary Pharma – Sales Exec (3 months)
4. Cerebos – R&D Exec (1 year 8 months)
5. AsiaLink – Nutritionist (1 month)
6. Timely Vibes – no title,kena tipu ( 3 days)
7. Laksa Shack – QA & Training Exec, kena tipu jugak (1 week)
8. Will be back to Cerebos by next week

And all these experiences happened in just 3 years time.

Anyway I’m so excited to tell everybody of what happened in (6) and (7).

TIMELY VIBES

They advertised in The Star vacancy for Admin Exec. Since I was jobless for about already 1 month, I just gave it a damn try (masa ni kepingin bangat mahu dapat kerjaan biar bisa makan yang enak-enak). I made a phone call and they asked me to attend an interview. This company is in Amcorp Mall, Level 9 (let me give you full information of the company so that nobody will kena tipu like I was).
They asked me to bring along all relevant certificates, as well as IC photocopy to prove that I am really Malaysian. Sounds so nice hah? Just 2 days after the interview, the post was offered and I have to start working the day after.

First day, I have been told that I can only get my offer letter after attending 5 days in-house training, so as my salary – will be decided how much I will get paid after the training completed.

Second day – pagi petang aku asyik tanya group trainer – actually what is my position here? What job I am supposed to do? Why cant you tell me how much is my salary?
And the trainer responds – You will do all the admin jobs, clerical works, answering phone, attending walk-in customers, and so on. It’s very easy. However you have to complete the training first before you can handle all the tasks.

Third day – aku dah hilang sabar.

Me : Excuse me sir, I really want to know what is your real business and WHAT IS MY POSITION AND HOW MUCH IS MY SALARY here?

Trainer : It is as what I told you yesterday…

Me : I want to know the details and REAL things. Otherwise I will see the Director directly.

So I went and see the director (Jangan main-main sama gue).

Me : (Repeat the same question)

Director: Ok here, what I can tell you is that we have two choices of payment scheme. One is basic salary which is very small maybe around RM1200 - RM1500. And the increament is very slow, maybe around RM80-RM100 yearly. While another one is commision scheme where you will be paid based on how your performance is. The increament can be anytime as long as you work hard. Most of us are getting about RM4000 – RM5000. And like me, not less than RM15K per month. So we do not encourage you to take the basic scheme as it is very low and slow.

Me : But if I don’t want to choose the commmsion scheme, is it ok?

Director: We do not prefer to offer the basic payment scheme to anybody, except the receptionist.

I went to see the trainer again.

Me : Encik, you and I sama-sama Melayu. Please don’t lie to me. Please tell me the truth. You betul-betul akan bagi choice for me to pilih the salary scheme or you memang hanya akan bagi comission? And please cakap betul-betul la encik, apa kerja I sebenarnya ni? You tak kesian ke tengok I datang sini hari-hari. You tau tak I tak ada duit. I terpaksa pinjam duit dengan orang nak buat tambang LRT datang sini, nak makan tengah hari. Last-last I keja tak ada gaji. Apa ni encik?

Trainer : Ok, let me tell you the truth. Kita kena jual saham. You have to find only one client, dengan modal USD 200,000 untuk melabur. And after that you just relax and maintain dia punya akaun. Itu je. Very easy. Kita memang tak akan offer you basic scheme. Kalu you dapat cari client, you akan dapat duit.

Me : Oooo macam tu..kenapa you tak bleh bagitau saya awal2? You tak kesian ke kat saya? Saya dah habiskan duit datang sini, 3 hari dah habis RM30. Encik ingat saya banyak duit ke?

Trainer : Saya tak nak paksa, kalau awak nak cuba, awak boleh stay. Macam saya ni, saya Cuma mintak pakcik saya melabur, pastu sekarang saya relax je. Sebulan minimum RM2500. Kdg2 bleh dapat lebih. Awak cuba lah cari sapa2 sedara mara ke kawan ke yg nak melabur.

Me : Encik, sedara mara saya semua keja biasa2 je. Mana la nak ada modal sampai USD 200,000. Encik ingat saya ni anak jutawan ke?

Trainer : Terpulanglah kepada awak.

Me : Lain kali tolonglah jangan buat orang macam ni lagi. Cakap awal2!!!!

So aku angkat beg, terus blah. Company penipu!

LAKSA SHACK

Dengar nama mesti korang ingat company ni established giler kan? Aku pun selama nih memang ingat macam tu jugak. In fact, I can be considered as their regular customer. Kalau tak dine-in, aku take-away. Kat umah aku pun banyak tupperware dia. But now, I want to reveal the black side of Laksa Shack….

I was appointed as QA & Training Exec about last 2 week. Firstly they told me that my salary is gonna be less than my current salary (about RM300 less). But I cant help myself, I need a job immediately. So I just accept it.

The first day they gave me a desk, but it was just sharing the long table with the receptionist. They said it is just for temporary. I got no PC, no stationeries except one ball point pen that I requested. I was asked to prepare some training materials using the manual photocopy machine – I have to prepare 6 booklets with 80 pages, MANUALLY.

The next day (onwards), I was asked to go to all the outlets. At first, I thought it’s gonna be fun as all the outlets are in shopping malls. But later I found out that this job is terrible – I am an Exec, and I cant sit down for even half a minute. I was forced to stand up and walk here and there all the time. Everyday I feel so dizzy and drowsy and my lower abdomen is so painful. I feel like throwing up and fainted. Until one day I really fainted in the shop (my baby is so tired, pity her/him..sob sob…)

The next day they told me they would like to reduce my salary first (RM600 less than the first offer), and will revise it after conformation (it takes 6 months). It is very easy to do this because they havent give me appointment letter to sign before. Oh one more thing – any travelling to the outlets is on my own cost, no milage/petrol claims. So I cry (not in front of them, but in the toilet). But I still have no chooice. I have to work. I need money to buy napkins and baby clothes.

So I went back dengan kepala yang amat berat. The next morning, I receive a phone call from my superior “ Yue, I have already discussed with the big boss. She wants you to take rest first since you are pregnant. We think that this job is to heavy for you. We don’t want to take a risk.”

“Take a rest? But, how many days? When I can start to work again?”

“I mean, from today onwards, you do not have to come to work anymore. Maybe you can re-apply again when we have vacancies”.

So that’s it. I have been sacked???? I cant belive it! But anyhow, aku memang tak hingin nak keja dengan company bangang macam ni. Keja giler punyer teruk, macam buruh kasar, sampai pengsan aku keja, gaji cukup2 minyak keta ja. Pi mamposss lah hang!!! Dahla tak bagi staff meal, nak makan bayar sendiri. Memang kau gilaaa!!!!

Selama aku keja, tak pernah seorang tak diberi meja dan PC sendiri. Apatah lagi kena berdiri kat kedai sepanjang masa. Dia ingat aku apply jadik restaurant crew ke? Hoi, aku jadik sales exec dulu pun dapat flat panel punya PC la mangkok hayun!!!!

Lagi satu aku nak cerita, ini betul bukan aku nak dengki. Restoran tu semua memang tak bersih. Korang tau je lah Indon dan Bangla yg buat keja. Aku pernah jumpak diorang simpan ubat tikus sekali dengan cili yg digunakan untuk masak laksa. Korang tau kan ubat tikus tu racun? Kalau nak try sakit perut, silakan. Pastu dia punya puding tu selalu sangat berkulat. Dah banyak kali customer complain, tapi takde improvement. Pastu sesapa yg suka makan Laksa Johor, diorang punya spagheti tu selalunya yg semalam punya, dah basi, berbau pun digunakan lagi. Dia punya pest control pun tak bagus, selalu jumpa banyak lipas dan serangga yg bukan2 kat kawasan dapur. Tikus pun ada jugak. Bayangkan bila tikus tu dah naik merayap kat atas periuk,pinggan, sudu, pastu korang plak pergi makan. Pergghhhh…Aku bukan nak reka-reka cerita. Inilah yg aku jumpa selama seminggu lebih aku keja kat situ. Kalau sebulan taktaulah makhluk apa plak yg aku jumpa dalam periuk laksa tu. Eeeeiiiii……

EMERGENCY (PART II)

Since aku dah berjanji nak updet cerita Part II, maka terpaksalah aku tunaikan walaupun dah berkarat. Actually memang awal2 nak updet tp monitor plak meletop terpaksa la nungggu replacement dulu.

Oklah, selepas peristiwa makan ubat tahann muntah tu, aku pulih dan rasa ok. Siap bleh pergi makan kenduri, pergi jejalan, semua aku buat. Tapi aku cuma bertahan untuk 5 hari. Pada hari Rabu minggu berikutnya, aku demam yang teramat sangat. Muntah toksah ceritalah. Pegang badan aku macam pegang bara api biar sampai jadi arang. So pada petang yang amat tidak tertahan itu, aku terpaksa call Cik Mah, ex housmet aku dulu. Hajat memula tu nak gi lepak kat umah dia je. tapi memandangkan keadaan aku yg dah amat lemah, aku dibawa ke UH sekali lagi. Sampai di sana, doktor cuma cek sikit2 je pastu aku tengok dia pi buat satu call. Dok tak lama kemudian datang sorang assistant, ajak aku naik kerusi roda. Aku heran. aku tanya dia 'Awak nak bawak saya ke mana ni?"
"Cik kena masuk wad"
"Haaa????? Betul ke nama saya ni? Awak tak salah orang ke?"
"Nama cik Y****** Y**** kan?"
Aku mengangguk dan dia terus tolak aku ke wad 10U. Disitulah aku terlantar selama 3 hari. Masuk air 10 botol.
Actually banyak perkara menyedihkan dan menyentuh perasaan selama aku di wad itu. tapi malaslah nak cerita sebab macam dah basi.Takmau ingat2 lagi. nanti kalau hati dah bengkek aku cerita balik.

EMERGENCY (PART 1)

Seperti yang telah digembar-gemburkan oleh Amet kat chatbox tu, aku terpaksa membuat confession yg aku memang telah diwardedkan pada minggu lepas. Actually aku amat tak sangka yang keadaan aku akan jadi semakin teruk dari hari ke hari. Kusangkakan panas hingga ke petang,rupanya demam di waktu panas. Hampeh!

Hari tu setelah lebih kuarang dua minggu kat kampong,aku rasa macam badan aku dah okay,orait,elok dah. So aku pun berangkatlah pulang ke kuala Lumpur untuk mencari rezeki. Sesampainya ja aku kat sana, hidung aku ni terus dapat menghidu bau bawang putih dari rumah jiran2. sepanjang aku mula disyaki nak jadik mak budakni,aku memang paling sensitive sangat sama itu bawang putih. Sampaikan rupa bawang putih tu pun aku takleh tengok. Tapi drama sinetron bawang putih bawang merah tu takleh miss la pulak. Disebabkan bau tumisan itu, tekak aku dengan serta merta menjadiloya yang teramat sangat. Maka macam biasa terpaksa lah aku keluakan segala isi perut yg ada.

Baru ja 2 hari aku kat KL, badan aku yg mula rasa nak kuat tu dah kembali jadiklembek.aku taklalu nak makan. Tak lalu nak minum. Asyik muntah siang malam. Tapi aku cuba lagi bertahan. Sampailah satu petang tu, aku rasa dh betul2 tak tahan. Aku call Amet, dia kata dia banyak keja lambat lagi nak balik. So aku call best fren aku Pah. Nasib baik dia baru on da way nak balik keja. So aku mintak dia bawak aku p UH. Sampai sana, doctor pun taktau nak buat apa. Masuk ayaq sebotoi, pastu bagi ubat tahan muntah. Pastu dah bleh balik.

So aku balik rehat kat umah.masa ni aku rasa mcm dah ok giler ah. Macam konon2nya esok tu dah bleh pi jejalan merata tempat. Tetiba bila aku bangun plak pagi esok tu, conditionnya sama jugak. Makan sikit muntah, tak makan pun muntah. So aku pun bedalje lah ubat tahan muntah yang doctor bagi tu.

Kebetulan bila makan ubat ni, aku rasa mcm lapar yg teramat sangatla pulak. So aku pen ngajak le si Amet ni pi makan mee kari kat amcorpmall. Masa on da way tu pun aku still pening2 lalat lagi. Siap singgah kat Shell muntah kat situ. And on he same time aku memang dah rasa badan aku mcm mengeletar semacam ja. Tapi aku takmau kasi tau amet nanti mesti dia caci maki aku macam biasa la ayat dia “Ha kalau dah au sakit,nak mai makan jauh2 buat apa.dok ja la rehat kat umah. Jangan mengada-ngada”.

So untuk mengelakkan ayat itukedengaran, aku terpaksa memaksa diri menahan kesakitan. Perut aku pulak rasa memulas2, badan aku rasa ringan, dan mula kejang! Sampai ja kat depan pintu amcorpmall aku terpaksa cakap kat Amet, aku dah mula terasa effect ubat muntah tu. Aku ni memang sebenaqnya sensitive sangat dengan ubat tahan muntah. Macam2 jenis yg aku takleh makan/tak sesuai dengan badan aku. Kalau makan mesti badan aku melawan. Memang aku betul2 takleh tahan dengan effect ubat ni. Kuat gila.

Sampai kat emergency wad, doktor2 kat situ pakat buat derk ja kat aku. Diorang taktau nak buat apa untuk hilangkan kesan ubat tu. Semua buat bodoh padahal aku dok mengelupur dengan kejang leher sampai ke kaki. Aku betul2 tak keruan masa tu sekejap turun katil, sekejap berjalan. Tapi diorang just decided nak tunggu sampai kesan tu hilang sendiri bila dah cukup 8 jam. Masa tu baru 2 jam dari waktu aku makan ubat tadi. Gila ke apa doktor kat sini. Think something la bangang.

Tetiba dalam aku dok resah gelisah tu,mai la kawan aku Dr.Amirul. so dia la yg kelam kabut buat call kat specialist itu ini,pharmacist dll untuk mencari sesuatu yg dapat mereversekan balik effect ubat tu tadi. Tapi langkah malangnya, disebabkan aku pregnant kebanyakan chemical utk reverse semuanya aku takleh guna. Takut nanti jadi apa2 plak kat baby aku. Adalah dekat 2 jam jugak barulah dapat satu benda ni yg boleh dicuba. Sebaik saja mirul menginject ubat itu ke dalam saluran darah aku, aku terasa macam kerongkong dan saluran pernafasan aku disentap dengan kuat. Bibir aku terus jadi pucat lesi dan kering. Dan dengan segera aku mula loya dan muntah dengan banyaknya. Dan secara beransur-ansur kekejangan badan aku mula hilang, dan aku merasa sedikit lega dan dapat berbaring dengan lebih selesa. Sambil tunggu 2 botoi ayaq dimasukkan, aku duduk diam ja memikirkan apa la nak jadik dengan aku nih. macam2 hal. Aku berjanji tak akan ambik ubat muntah lagi sampai bila-bila.

(Cerita selanjutnya bersambung di entry akan datang…)

AKU DI KAMPUNG

Dah lebih kurang seminggu aku balik duduk kat kampung. Bermakna lebih kurang seminggu jugaklah aku duduk terperap ja kat dalam umah ni. Kecuali keluaq untuk ke klinik dan sepital. Badan aku ni rasa betul-betul tak sihat. kekadang aku rasa macam aku dah bertukar jadik orang lain. aku dah tak macam aku yg dulu. aktif dan ceria. sekarang ni aku cuma asyik tidur, baring, duduk, berjalan sikit-sikit kat dalam umah.aku rasa badan aku teramat sangat lemah.aku rasa mcm tak larat sangat.

aku tak sangka aku akan jadi sampai macam ni.aku ingatkan alahan mengandung setakat pening sikit2 ja.rupa2nya pening dia memang luar biasa, tak pernah aku rasa.aku takleh bau orang masak, aku takleh dengar bunyi bising, aku takleh tengok tv lama2, aku takleh membaca.

Cuma hari ni aku rasa macam ok sikit. kalau tidak jgnkan kata nak menaip, nak tengok skrin PC pun aku dah nak muntah.ini pun aku angkut laptop ni menaip kat luar rumah. bagi kena angin sepoi-sepoi sikit,sambil lepak2 kat bawah pokok. kalau menaip kat dalam bilik nu, aku rasa dalam masa 15 minit nanti mesti aku jatuh pengsan.

aku rindu sesangat nak keluar jejalan dan berhibur libur macam dulu2.tapi aku memang takleh. aku dah cuba keluaq rumah hari tu, ikut mak.tapi malangnya, samapi kat tengah jalan ja aku dah mula rasa pening dan muntah lagi. last2 mak terpaksa bawak aku balik umah semula.hmmm..bosannyaa!!!

Aku dah buat semua basic check up. memang aku ada masalah. berat badan aku less than 45kg, Hb less than 11gm% (meaning tak cukup darah,ada tanda2 anemia),blood pressure 90/60 (low). sekarang mcm2 ubat dan vitamin aku kena makan. dah la aku tak lalu nak makan.macam2 laa....

kekadang, berada dalam situasi mcm ni membuatkan aku terfikir, betapa perlunya kita menghargai, menyayangi, menghormati dan mengenang jasa ibu kita. rupa2nya bukan waktu nak melahirkan je yg sakit.waktu mengandung pun seksa jugak!

Aku cuma mampu berharap dan berdoa agar Allah akan mengembalikan kekuatan dan kesihatan aku seperti dahulu. Aku ingin hidup semula!!!

CONFIRM!

Have been feeling very bad these few days. went to see a doctor last night.

Patient : Yuzaini Yusof
Sickness : Pregnant, 1.5 months
Current feeling : Pening gila, kepala rasa mcm dok kat bawah, kaki dok atas,loya,takleh tido,gelisah, tak lalu makan tapi lapar, kembung perut masuk angin, rasa macam nak duduk tapi bila duduk rasa nak berdiri, sentiasa berjalan mundar-mandir di dalam rumah, seksa taktau nak cakap.You better don't try!

So Jujub, you may start to kumpul duit dalam tabung to buy a GAP ot Fischer-Price. OK?

A new girl joined today. And to my surprise, she is a Malay. Taking post of account assistant, graduated from USM. So now I have a friend for lunch and Zohor prayer. Thanks God.
Have been very busy lately (see dah berapa hari x update blog). Everyday have to go out as we are having Bone Scan promotion at all HealthLane pharmacies.and everyday arrived home at least at 9.00 p.m. So tiring…

But today no outing. Make me feel very boring again. Lucky got this new girl. Chat with her a lot. I feel like my mouth thanks the girl because she makes me talking (baru la mulut tak cramp).

So her name is Baei (don’t know her full name). Dia banyak cerita pasal housmates dia yang semuanya graduate but tak dapat keja (meaning tak dapat keja best-best). They are currently working as clinic assistant, guru sementara, shop assistant, etc. so pity huh? Things like this make me feel sangat-sangat bersyukur kepada Tuhan. Eventhough aku selalu lompat keja, but never find difficulties to get a new one. Syukur Ya Allah…

Diorang tu memang since grad belum pernah merasa keja yg suitable dgn degree yg ada. Not to say that keja yg diorang buat skrg ni not good. But not worth it la kan. You study like dying, finish the PTPTpu money, and lastly keja tak setimpal.

Anyway I advised her not to memilih. Maybe God wants to test you first. Mana tau esok lusa dapat surat SPA suruh pi jadik assistant director kat pejabat perdana menteri ke kan. Yang penting kita kena ada usaha dan selebihnya tawakal.

Jangan jadik macam amet’s cousin (they call her cousin – but I don’t want to). Keja nak mintak, tapi what is a resume pun tak tau. Apatah lagi bila kita talking about ‘cover letter’. Terbeliak je bijik mata dia. Yang dia tau Cuma Tanya ada kabel tak nak mintak keja kat sini. Cik kak…kalau nak pakai kabel pun orang nak jugak tengok ko punyer resume…paham tak mangkookkkk….pastu pulak nak mintak keja punyalah nak berlagak. Demand habis…nak keja government la, nak keja bank, nak keja yg banyak benefit la. Kepala hangguk hang. Bukak kain dulu la..baru dapat keja best…Ya ampun…mulut gue nih kalo udah hangin, bringsit banget deh. Oklah takmau mencarut lagi (untuk hari ini). Bye…

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI

No other words can explain my feeling better than ‘boring giler’. It has been about 3 weeks and nothing changed here. And I have to come back to work since yesterday, on Hari Raya Ketiga, while the other still riang ria wearing their new Baju Kurung. I had no choice, or otherwise will get salary cut-off at the end of the month as I still not yet entitled for annual leave.

And it make me more sad when the receptionist told me that they always got paid at 7th of the month – Oh My God – my wallet is already empty now! I have even postponed Duit Raya for Mak – hope can replenish her with triple ang pow soon.

The Hari Raya was so joyful – we bring Amet to meet with close relatives he supposed to know. And he was a lil bit blur and pening to remember all those Pak Ngah, Pak Njang, Tok Wa, Tok Cik, Tok Teh and so on.

I have also met with his relatives as well, but manage to remember everybody’s name (and their kids) very well. No pening nor blur at all. They are all very kind to me and I like everybody except one of his cousin in-law (24 jam asyik melekat bawah ketiak + melentokkan kepala kat bahu laki dia even while the others were enjoying food kat meja makan. Heeeiiii..geli geleman betoi ler aku. Aku pun ada laki jugak, takdak la teruk macam hang!).

And just now tgh aku dok mengelamun melayan boring, tetiba received a call from Jeril,my-ex (artificial) lover at MRSM. I think it has been about 8 years since our last chat. We talked about our latest life-updates, jobs, family, until he asked me :

“Ko tinggal mana sekarang? Sewa ke? Dengan sapa?”
“ Aku tinggal kat Damansara. Ha a sewa jer la..dengan husband.”
“ Aaaa..? Dengan sapa? Bila ko kawen? Apsal aku tak tau pun?”
“ Aku baru je kawen 2 bulan lepas. Aku bukan taknak jemput ko, tp masa tu aku takde alamat ko. No phone pun takde.”
“ O hoo…takpelah. Anyway sempat lagi kan nak wish Selamat Pengantin Baru…”
“ Thanks..nak bagi hadiah pun sempat lagi nih…Hahahahaha”
“Cesss..kena pulak aku.”

So thanks God for giving back one friend to me, even though we had agreed 8 years ago not to contact each other anymore, forever. Stupid Puppy Love!