HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIN ZULAIKHA

Heyy, heyy...look who's that big girl?

It's my beautiful baby, Ain Zulaiha a.k.a. Zuzu.

Zuzu is one year old today. Hooreeyyy..!!!

Alhamdulillah...

Thru all the year, senang sangat jaga Zuzu nih. tak banyak meragam, tak banyak menangis. makan apa saja, tak ada perut kembung, tak memilih susu. Ohh...ibu hampir menitiskan air mata mengenangkan kebaikan kamu sayang!

And for the birthday, we didnt really had any party or celebration. we just bought a chocolate cake, my in laws come to KL, we play bowling and go for makan2 at night, and potong kek at the minight. that's all. i dont want to teach my daughter to be rained with presents and gifts otherwise she will request it everytime her birthday comes. i dont want her to be so materialistic, wearing a hundreds ringgit gown on one day big,garden party or so.

i want her to grow as a common, humble person. and i now, she will.

It's nothing but LOVE, that ibu will always have for you, sayang...

DREAM

i had a nightmare last night where somebody came and hit me terribly. when i woke up this morning my head felt so painful like i was really been knocked by a hammer or something. and so uncomforable feeling in my tummy too.

and worse come to worse when i realize its already 7.50 am when i opened my eyes. terus jump into the bathroom for a quick splash.dress up, and terus drive to work. with the terrible headache plus no breakfast make me almost fainted. told my boss that i really not feeling well and went back home.

tot to go see doctor at first, but the headache had become worse so what i see is just pillow. sampai at about 10 am terus landing on the bed, tido mati and only terjaga at 4.30 pm when the phone ringing.

Bangun and tengok umah bersepah giler sbb I didn’t kemas before going to work this morning. With the kepala still berdenyut2 like a heavy stone was tied on my head, I try to ignore and start sapu sampah, basuh all the pinggan mangkuk yg semalam, and kemas all Zuzu’s toys. Suddenly ternampak kain utk buat langsir which I bought last Saturday but still waiting to be sent to the tailor. So I took the red one which i planned to be used for bedroom. And I start gunting the kain, sew it (jahit tangan nih okey…) and tadaa….2 sets of curtain siap for my bedroom. So proud and tak sabar2 terus pegi gantung. Waaahhh…I’ve been dreamin for red theme for the bedroom for years and now only I managed to do it, and it just took few hours.this is what people say ‘when there’s a will, there’s a way’, huh. And I changed the bedsheet to suit the theme.

Then go to the kitchen, and start kemas the kitchen cabinet pulak. Seems like I’ve thrown away half of the contents which are kerepeks and keropoks bought during last Raya Haji! Hehhehehe…And also the fridge – kutip all the lauks and soups made last week and buanggg.. oh how I wish I had the time like this everyday so I can make sure that this house is not full of rubbish.

Finally it’s the time to mop the floor with roses & vanilla…ahh..it’s really the aromatherapy that works for headache…

Go and fetch Zuzu at about 6.30, then goring the fun fries for both of us to enjoy while watching Ezora. What a nice day (eventho I still wondering – what caused my headache and stomachache – am I really being hit by someone last night?)

KASIHAN

This morning i was in the documents room to use photocopy machine. at the same time, there were Ms. Clerk, Mrs. Account and Mr. Purchasing. there were also few other clerks which i'm not very familiar with.

i was using the machine when i heard them chit-chating, about toilet.

Ms. Clerk : Semalam kan...saya pergi bawak sepupu jalan2 kat KLCC tau. sekali kan rasa nak terkencing sangat2. terus lari masuk toilet dia, tak tengok apa dah, terus la lepas hajat...pastu kan baru perasan, toilet tu takde getah paip. terus pikir camana nak basuh? pastu kan saya nampak ada mcm kepala paip, try la pusing. tetiba keluar air dari bawah mangkuk tandas tu. hihihihi...toilet tu tolong basuh sendiri rupanya. hihihihi.... ade ke toilet mcm tu. tak pernah saya tengok.

Mrs. Account : Isk, ye ke? ade ke toilet mcm tu?

Ms. Clerk : Ye kak....mmg ada...

Mrs. Account : Isk isk...dahsyat kan. Hari tu kan akak try la bawak anak-anak pergi Jusco. Pastu budak2 ni nak guna toilet jugak. sekali bile masuk toilet dia, rasa mcm nak sesat pun ada. ada pulak banyak2 bilik dalam tu...ko tau tak, ada toilet khas untuk kanak2 di sebelah toilet ibu-ibu. pastu ada toilet yg ada temat duduk baby kat dlm tu. pastu kan...ko tau tak...siap ada sediakan bilik nyusukan baby lagi. siap dgn buaian pulak tu! pastu kan, ada bahagian bancuh2 susu baby, siap dgn air panas semua. ada bilik untuk bersolek. mcm2 lah. dahsyat betullah...tk pernah aku tengok toilet sampai mcm tu.

Mr. Purchasing : Hmm..saya pulak kalau pegi hotel ke, saya akan bawak tuala sendiri, sabun shampu semua bawak sendiri. kdg2 nak guna tandas pun tak yakin kat hotel2 ni. hotel pun sesetengah tu jenis takde getah paip jugak.susah betul.

Dalam hati, aku berkata "Oh oh...kasihannya mereka ni...".
i never thought there are still people yg tak pernah tengok toilet2 sebegitu? i cant imagine...
then, maybe for them, toilet kat ofis yg i-puke-everytime-i-go-in tu dah cukup hebat, cukup bersih, cukup wangi kan? bcoz they never see there are still double-mouble awesome toilets out there. oh....
and i tot, apa yg diorg ni buat selama ni sampai tak pernah masuk KLCC dan Jusco? spend every weekends and holidays at home???? damn....
if i continue working here, will i be like them? makin hari makin maju mundur...
kalau Jusco pun tak pernah pegi, then better dont ask bout The Gardens or Bangsar Village. and of course not Pavillion.
and i wonder, where they bought their clothes and shoes? their handbags? their kids wear?
i just...oh...i dont know.....
jahatkah aku menulis begini? i just...still cant believe it (i hope i wont sleep with eyes wide shut tonite)

** naseb baik selama n tak pernah sembang dgn diorg kat surau ke pasal hal perihal shoping moping ni kan. klu tak, mesti sgt kasihan kan....

LALALALA KERJA

I am not feeling good today. i dont have mood to do work. so i did this test :

What's Your Dream Job?

My Result: Famous Artist

Whether you make your own clothes or just love to make a scene, you've got a creative streak a mile long. So it's no surprise your perfect job would be as an internationally famous artist. Being able to turn the world upside down with your vision would suit you just right and you'd pull it off in a style all your own. People would "ooh," "ahh," and try to imagine what could possibly go on in that mind of yours. Too bad they'd never come close.

But you don't have to get shown at the Tate or have a star on the Walk of Fame to live your dream; just remember to put that creative spirit to work everywhere. Whether it be memos and reports or desk flair and office wear, you'll be sure to make a big impression. The world is your canvas!

See? I've said it before right? and the result just prove it. Hmmm....inilah yg dinamakan cita-cita tidak kesampaian...huhuhu...

LUCKY, HUH?

Biasaya aku ni kan, bila org buat apa2 lucky draw, aku mmg tak pernah lucky. tapi tadi kan, aku attend satu convention at Sunway Resort.actually aku memula tak berasa interested pun nak attend sbb bunyi mcm tak best pun.tp dh boss proposed nama aku, and meaning if aku attend the seminar aku tak perlulah pi keja, so aku pun pi je lah.

Masa awal2 opening tuh diorg dah announce akan ada lucky draw by the end of the event (nih satu tektik tak kasi org blah awal).tengok hadiah2 kat atas stage tuh semua brg2 elektrik yg agak hebat la jugak.tp aku tak interested pun nk ambik tau sbb ntah...aku mmg tak interested.
setelah habis seharian mendengar talks, tibalah masanya yg ditunggu2 oleh org lain (kecuali aku). semuanya ada 20 nama yg akan dipanggil dan dimulakan dengan no yg terlast dan ke atas.

ketika aku tgh main2 sms, tetiba bunyik cam nama aku plak kat mikrofon tuh.then budak sebelah aku ckp "eh, you kan from R....y? nama you tue...". so aku pun kelam kabut la naik stage, bersalaman dgn Mat Salleh gemuk tuh, and dapatlah satu bijik hadiah...(errr...aku pun taktau sgt la pasal alat2 elektrik ni...radio ke hapa ntah la yg aku dapat nih...ambik je laa...). tapi yg pastinya itu hadiah 3rd prize. terrer kan aku? hahaha....
kalau aku dapat grand prize, which is LCD TV 32" agaknya mesti aku sgt riak kan? hahahha....sebab tu aku tak dapat. anyway alhamdulillah.....bertuah jugak aku nih rupanya.
(sori malas bangat nk ambik gambar hadiah itu sbb zuzu sgtlah sebok menyebok nak jugak tekan2 camera tu...)
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Menceritakan sedikit pasal Zuzu (Kesian anak aku, org lain hari2 updet pasal anak dlm blog diorg, anak aku dikecualikan - sbb takut terlebih glemer dr ibu), dia skrg dh pandai :

* bangun & berdiri sendiri.
* tak suka bila org nak pegang2 belakang dia masa berdiri
* belajar jalan selangkah dua sambil jatuh2
* makan sangat kuat
* minum susu juga sangat kuat
* mengamuk bila tak bagi apa yg dia nak
* menyanyi & menari
* ikut azan (especially waktu maghrib masa tengok Ezora)
* ada iklan2 kegemaran - bleh buat dia gelak masa tgh nangis
* sangat naughty dan suka kacau aku tido
* pandai letak handphone kat telinga
* camera pun letak kat telinga jugak
* kalau aku nk blogging, laptop akan menjadi milik dia

MAKANG KENDURI NANANG DI KEMAMANG


kitorang sampai Kemaman town almost 12 p.m. Apai (kawan Amet) telah siap sedia membooking sebuah bilik hotel utk kami sekeluarga bermalam (apsal aku punya ayat ni mcm karangan Bahasa Melayu jeh?).

disebabkan keletihan yg amat sangat (actually bengang sbb masa kt Kuantan tadi ada jalan tutup so kitorg mai redaah je, so mcm salah jln skit walaupun akhirnya sampai juger), itorg pun terus tido tanpa pergi berfoya2 ke mana2. lagipun this is Kemaman i'm talking about, not KL okeh...by the time kitorg sampai semua kedai dh tutup daa...


Awal2 pagi lagi aku dah terbangun (sbb hotel ni mcm rumah tumpangan jeh,aku takut nk tido), kejutkan si bapak dan si anak yg lena tak hingat dunia tuh, siap2 then gi breakfast kat Hai Peng Kopitiam.mcm2 makanan Pantai Timur ada, tp mcm dh lama tak pandai makan so pekena nasik lemak + roti bakar + telur separuh masak + cham ais jeh ('je???").


Balik hotel, iron2 baju sambil melayan drama melayu kat TV2 (Amet adalah peminat utama drama2 melayu). dalam pkul 11.30 siap ready bertolak ke umah Epe, then teruskan perjalanan ke umah Jue (pngantin pompuan). Sampai je aku org pertama pergi melantak sorang2 tanpa menunggu diorg yg lain. Lantaklaa...perut aku dah mendidih nih...


Then lepak2 bawah pokok, sambil tengok gelagat2 anak2 dara gedik, sambil laki aku dan geng2 lelakinya tersengih-sengih kegatalan...layan je la....then ambik2 gambar...then balik....

and aku sangat hangin bila aku balik tengok dlm kamera itu tidak ada gambar aku yg berhempas pulas bersiap sakan khas utk bergambar dgn pengantin. and yg ada pulak si pengapit pompuan yang langsung bukan geng kitorg, yg gedik2, kernyis mengalahkan kerang, tetiba plak tersadai sebok kat situ. aku sangat sangat sangat hanginnn!!!!!


Oleh sbb itu aku tidak akan menguploadkan apa2 gambar masa kenduri nih sbb gamabar aku takdek (busuk hati).

MEREPEK

di tengah2 malam yg tak dapat ditiduri nih (oit, jgn blue la),aku pun mula la nak blogging tak tentu pasal.biarkan aku dengan hotak gila ku..!!!

baru jek pas siap2 packing baju2 as we all plan tomorrow after balik keja (mesti cabut awal), nak terus travel to Kemaman. actually we are attending Amet's friend's wedding.sbb dulu dia mai kenduri kami kat Perlis, so it's payback time la nih (eventho tak sama nilai - dulu masa kenduri kami harga petrol RM1.92 but now RM2.70. huhuhuhu...)Maaf la aku asyik sebut pasal minyak jeh setiap kali menulis sbb aku punya hangin pada PakLah kerepot tu belom habes lagi.

Actually masa sunyi2 gini, aku terpikir mcmana aku bleh terhumban dalam kancah pekerjaan yg tak best nih (laaa....nak komen pasal keja lagi...).aku kan dulu masa sekolah2 minat sgt art kan (betul kan puan arina?).apsal aku tak teruskan study dlm art ek? apsal aku tergila-gila sgt masuk science matrik, then masuk faculty of science lagi. apsal aku tak gi uitm ka, mmu ka? apsal aku tak ambik photography ka, graphic design ka, fashion design pun ok apa...kan kan?

kalau tak, mesti skrg aku dah tak pening2 kepala dgn bau daging ayam semua, toksah susah2 hati baca result microb test yang tak pernah2 lulus...mesti aku happy2 ja jadi freelance photographer and then design2,bestnya....hmmm...aku rasa kan bila satu hari nanti DSLR itu sudah berada di tanganku, aku akan mula mengaktifkan diri secara step by step. mula2 aku akan ambik gambar2 dulu, pastu aku belajar edit2, pastu aku mula buat marketing, pastu aku akan la jadi freelance photographer yg terkenal, famous amous, glemer gemerlap, hooyeehhhh!!!!! Then senyap2 ja aku bleh la brenti teros keja dgn pakcik ramli tuh.hahahha....bestnyaaahhh....

OKeh2...impianku akan tercapai tak lama lagi. dah2...jom tidoq, mimpi jadi photographer...peeewwiiittttttttt....lalalalala.

PEOPLE vs ME

Today aku bangun agak lewat.mandi lebih kurang, then rushed to work. tak sempat breakfast.aku harap sgt takde problem.sampai lab aku telan air from water dispenser segelas.konon2 nak prevent from rasa lapar.kalaulah dapat telan secawan nesvita ke kan ke bagoih? huhuhuhu..dream on....

lebih kurang 9.30 kepala aku dah mula rasa tak berapa balance. perut dah jerit2 kelaparan tak hengat dah.aku ingat nak turun menelan apa2 sampel produk yg ada.tp kan bila aku masuk je lab tuh,terus tekak aku mual,hilang terus selera walaupun usus seperti sudah menjerut-jerut dinding perutku.

suddenly boss aku call,suh masuk production sbb ada satu machine problem.walaupun aku bukan engineer di situ, tapi jasaku amat diperlukan kerana engineer di situ agak kurang bijak sedikit (bila nak sebut "explode" dia akan kata "exploit", bila nak sebut "immune" dia akan sebut "hemiun?" - aku selalu gelak sorg2 bila dia bercakap dlm meeting).

masuk production bermakna aku kena pakai labcoat, face mask, glove, and boot. dengan pakaian yang langsung tidak membenarkan haba keluar dari badan itu, menyebabkan aku yg sememangnya tengah weng dan lapar bangat ini rasa seperti mahu pengsan. dengan segeranya aku lari keluar tanpa mempedulikan sesapa.

after bukak the face mask and all, barulah aku feel better sket.unfortunately, bila aku masuk toilet busuk tuh, aku dah mula loya balik (i tell u aa...this toilet tak payah tunggu ko ngandung la, org sihat walafiat umpama peserta olympic pun bisa muntah!).

disebabkan prut yg kosong tanpa breakfast + muntahkan sisa air dan mineral yg ada = badan turned to be so w-e-e-a-a-k.....tak larat. masuk lab tersamdar kat kerusi tepi dinding tu. as usual, pemerhati CCTV call "Akak tak sihat ke? kalau boleh jangan rehat lama2 kat situ ek.kalau takleh buat keja gi ambik MC balik rehat kat umah" while i'm not even 5 minutes sitting there yet.

hoi budak hingusan! aku pun tak hingin la dok kat lab busuk berkulat nih. aku call my coleague soh bawak handbag aku turun ke lab, and call my boss, telling him i'm going back now because Eksekutif Khas gila meroyan tuh tak boleh tolerate bagi aku rehat barang seminit dua di sini. sebab aku tak sihat. nasib baik boss aku nih seorang yg memahami and he just let me go.

so dalam pukul 2 sampai la aku kat umah.aku bukak baju semua, masuk shower and mandi laaaaaaaammmaaaaa - lama, sambil duduk bersila mcm org bertapa (lotus position we call it in yoga), pejam mata....bayangkan mcm aku tengah berada di satu kolam yang sangat jernih, dengan air terjun yg sejuk sedang mengalir atas kepala aku....rasa tenang...tenteram...aman.....
sampailah aku rasa jari aku dah kecut, barulah aku berhenti mandi.

then prepare utk baring2 merehatkan badan. tapi bila aku cuba nak pejamkan mata, aku teringat plak nak call kawan2 lama (maklumla kredit tgh penuh nih). so aku call officemates yang dulu2. and after that aku buat satu rumusan seperti ini :

EX-COLLEAGUE 1
1. still working in the same company where i used to be (my first job here).we joined at the same time - Nov 2003. I left in Dec 2004, and she has been loyal for near to 5 years.
2. her salary raised, but not much. just about 5 - 10% each year.
3. no bonus, but there's some saguhati during hari raya.
4. no company trip, but they have annual convention (to give appreciations to dealers etc.)
5. the company is expanding - from manufacturing just capsules, now they have food & beverage range too.

EX-COLLEAGUE 2
1. (my third job here) - she joined when i was about 1 month to leave the company. it was in Aug 2006. and she still working here for 2 years.
2. her salary raised, but not much since last year the business was not so good (that is also the reason i left the company). but maybe this year she'll get 'durian runtuh'.
3. there's fixed bonus of 1.5 month for executive level.
4. they just come back from company trip - Phuket! (during my time it was just Cherating).
5. the company's business is expanding with the new GM's business-minded plan. you can see the ads & commercial everywhere now.

EX-COLLEAGUE 3
1. (my sixth job here) - she joined about one month after me - Apr 2007. she's still there for about 1 year now.
2. she already got 4 times increament in 1 year!!!!
3. they give 2 months bonus.
4. no company trip yet as this company is new, but they are planning for one.
5. company is expanding - more products,more people.

EX-COLLEAGUE 4
1. (my forth job here) - she's a homemaker now. she married an almost-milionaire.she do bunga telur at home.
2. she spend time about a week in a month with her full-pocket- husband as he went to travel almost every seconds.
3.she has been married for about 3 years. she has no kids.
4. she live in big bungalow.
5.she goes shopping whenever she wants, alone.
6. sometimes, she goes travelling overseas with her husband.

ME? i have a job. my salary is ok la quite good too.i have petrol allowance (berlagak giler dpt voucher minyak nih).i have a lovely husband and daughter.i went holidays too (eventho it's not company trip, it's our own trip),and i will go kemaman pulak tomorrow.my life is quite good. but why i dont feel good?
because, my job sucks........job is the place where we spent our day.dengan anak pun kita tak spend selama itu kan? so, kalau your workplace teramat sangat tidak best,apa yg anda rasa? aku rasa mau blaahhhh.....
i dont know how people can work for years in one same place. i want to be like them too.kalau aku sabar dulu2, mesti aku dapat merasa apa yg EX2- colleague aku rasa skrg kan? huhuhu...perlukah aku menyesal di kemudian hari? dah...tak payah laaa...........

HEY~I'M BACK

i woke up at 2.30 am to make susu for Zuzu and feel hungry and grabbed the egg tart i bought this evening. nothing to watch on TV. get the laptop, get connected and start reading other people's blog.

it has been about 2 months since my last update. i just want to give all my readers opportunity to read the beginners blog (read : our ministers, PM and Che Det's blog), rather that focusing on old-time, expert blogger like me. hahahhahaa....now that time and health permit, i'm back to give all my beloved readers excitement, fun-to-read words again.hahhahaha...why la i'm so perasan di malam hari begini?

maybe these few weeks i'm a bit stressed and tensed with my unstable health condition, and so do my sucks, new job. i'm not even get confirmed yet, but already start to look for another job.
there are pros & cons working here, but as usual, i always found that cons are more than pros.

PROS
1.they give good salary + petrol allowance (i bet everybody will envy me for this) + handphone allowance (which i always end-up donating to mom and adik beradik as only used half of it) + everyday lunch voucher.

2. they are all bumiputeras, they work like government style - unfinished jobs can be postponed tomorrow or the day after, they pack their handbags at 4.30 pm and punch out 5 o'clock sharp. i can even reached home at 5.30 unless i go merayap-rayap first (which i always did).

3. no stay-back style, office will become gelap gelita by the latest 5.15 pm. so no feeling of segan silu nak balik awal like i used to feel in all my workplaces before.

4. they dont wear make-ups, they never heard of Coach, Anya Hidmarch - I'm not a plastic bag theme, not even know that Xixili is a lingerie brand.this helped me to save a lot as i do not need to buy branded items anymore (some just bring free paper bag to work, huhuhuhu...).

CONS
1. they do not have pantry in the office, and they do not allow us to eat while working. this is so killing me..!!! at least just give me a piece of biscuit and a dose of caffein laa...

2. they have CCTV everyplaces (meaning there is no place for me to curi2 makan...lapaaarggghhh).

3. they have their whole family (father,mother, childrens with no brain) working there as what-they-called-"Eksekutif Khas". except the father is Director la kan...and their job is monitoring CCTV all day long even when they are at home.

4. the lab where i 'm wasting my time working doesn't look like a lab, but more like pusat penternakan serangga & kulat.

5. they do not have proper working system, no SOP, no WI, but just work (how to?).

6. when there's breakdown, operators use their magics to try & error fixing the thousand-dollars machine, which always end up with permanent breakage.

7. product complaints are out-of counts, and dont have a handling system. i tried to create at least by having log numbers, forms and so but they dont know how to use it. huhuhuhu....

8. they dont know how to use email. they give printed memos on everybody's desk, and they fax the hand-written documents, instead of typing and email it.huwaaaa...........

9. they still using the conventional punch card system - with red-prints if u are late even 1 minute. and the red prints means they will deduct some amount from the salary.

10. the toilet...........i puke more than i pee. d.i.s.g.u.s.t.i.n.g.

kalaulah bukan kerana uwang, sudah lama aku chaa-buutt....