PENGANGGUR

Today is the first day for me being an unemployed person or better to say “Penganggur Berijazah”. Whatever you would like to call me, please go ahed. I don’t mind people staring strangely at me thinking that I’m trying to habis licinkan duit laki aku. As long as aku ada good planning, and hopefully everything blessed by God, aku rasa aku puas hati buat macam nih.

Anyway, to tell the truth aku dah dapat satu interview this Wednesday, Ag 23rd. And this interview is not calang-calang because we need to go through a test which is soalan pun susah nak paham,apatah lagi nak jawab.But Alhamdulillah, I have passed the test and now offered for the next step. Bukan aku nak kutuk, but this is really a true story from my friend (ex-UM). They all dah attend this test for few times, ada yg dah 4 times, ada yg dari sebelum kahwin sampai dah dapat anak dua,they apply every year, tapi sampai ke hari ini still havent got the chance to go for the interview. And they are really shocked when I told them that I got it, even thogh this is the first time I apply. Very-very much Thanks and Praise to Allah --- Alhamdulillah…

So tonite, Amet and I will go back to Perlis. Cant wait to see what is already prepared for the kenduri. I hope everything will be as per scheduled.

Oh ya, one more thing. I am typing and uploading this entry at our apartment – which means that we already have phone line and internet! Yeehaaa…!!!!

ADIK

A : Adik kau tu umur berapa?

B : 21

A : Ooo..belajar lagi la? Belajar kat mana? Ke dah keja? Tak sambung belajar?

B : Belajar lagi

A : Kat mana? Universiti ke Kolej?

B : USM je...

A : Ooo USM je. Local uni la. Kat sini ja la. Ambik course apa?

B : Course biasa2 ja.Lebih kurang mcm aku dulu.

A : Ooo..course gamble la ni.Asal dapat belajar je lah ek.

B : Hmm..biasalah. Kau ada adik?

A : Ada..Adik aku lebih kurang sebaya dgn adik kau jugak. Tapi dia sekarang dekat oversea. Belajar medic. Jadik doktor la nanti adik aku tue. Adik aku belajar kat Russia nu...Rusia kat Moscow.Dia ni memang terrer gila. Ni dia dah balik Mesia,aku kena la bawak dia jalan2 merata.Adik kau takpalah dok kat sini ja.Bila2 pun boleh jalan2 ek.Adik aku tu dah la belajar jauh. Balik setahun sekali ja. aku kena la bawak dia gi jejalan puas-puas. Ni nak kena bawak dia gi tengok movie ni.Kesian la kat dia. Adik kau takpa lah dekat Penang je. Bila-bila pun boleh gi tengok movie.Ni dia balik ni, aku dah bawak dia gi beli barang2 komputer dia. Kau tahu, bila orang2 kat kedai komputer tu tanya apsal aku beli komponen je, aku cerita sakanlah dekat diorang sbb adik aku belajar kat Rusia. Nak bawak balik sana barang ni semua. Habis orang2 kat kedai tu semua tercengang-cengang.Bangga betul la aku. Cina-cina tu semua terkejut ja sebab aku ada adik belajar kat Rusia.

B : Dia ni salah dengar soalan ke? Aku cuma tanya "dia ada adik ke tak" je? Agaknya sebab tu lah SPM dia lingkup. Lain orang tanya, lain yg dia jawap. Pekak ke buta?

CANTIK


Bila orang tanya "Awak rasa, awak ni cantik ke tak? Awak rasa, antara awak dengan awek tu, yang mana lebih cantik?"

Apa agaknya aku nak jawap ek?

menyedari diri tak secantik Miss Universe, terpaksalah jawap "Alaa..mestilah dia yg lebih cantik. Saya ni apa yang ada..."

I walk with a stoop like the Huncback of Nottherdamn, my cheeks are full with pimples and breakouts some people do look at me twice.I think that's the most suitable answer for me.

Zaman sekarang ni, bukan sahaja pompuan yang sanggup berkerja keras untuk cantik.Membaca kisah pembedahan plastik (gastric banding surgery - to suppress nafsu makan) yang mengakibatkan kematian di Singapore kelmarin, membuatkan aku terfikir - Manusia sanggup menjadi bodoh untuk cantik (ini lelaki yg buat tau!).

Ada pulak yg menyedari muka tak berapa lawa, sanggup berhabisan membeli pensel kening, batang bibir (lipstick), pemerah pipi, pnghijau kelopak mata, dan lain-lain.

Dan tak kurang juga yang berminat melabur di kedai-kedai jenama orang putih Salabianca, Seed, Padini & Co, Bluemarine (Sehelai gaun dia boleh buat kenduri 3 hari untuk mangsa perang Lubnan), GUESS? (aku rasa baru je aku mention jenama ni dlm entry kemarin.apsal aku mcm getik sgt dekat Guess nih? muahhahaha..), Elle dan macam2 lagilah.Bagi aku, kalau dah beli handbag 4 -5 ratus pun, pastuh bok balik kampung kat ulu banat nu, mesti orang ingat pi beli kat Pasir Panjang. Eh, oooppppsss...maksud aku kat Padang Besaq (Aku bukan org Kelantan la, aku org Perlis).

Tapi itu semua duit masing2, dan minat masing2 untuk mencantikkan diri masing2. Jadi biarlah masing2 dgn pilihan masing2....

Adakalanya cantik itu menuntungkan - Kalau cantik mcm Diana Naim (hahahahhaha..) boleh jadi model....boleh la buat umah bangalow...
Tapi adakalanya juga cantik boleh menyusahkan - Kalau cantik mcm Cannie Ong - Dah kena rogol & bunuh pulak.

Kesimpulannya, cantik itu sangat subjektif. Ada orang suka tengok mata yang cantik, ada orang suka tengok tangan yg cantik....Kan macam2 manusia kat dunia ni? Namun begitu, cantik tidak seharusnya dinilai hanya dari segi rupa paras semata-mata. Sesungguhnya orang yang paling cantik adalah yang paling baik akhlaknya.

Bersyukurlah dengan apa yg Tuhan telah berikan kepada kamu.... Alhamdulillah...

MY COMPANY

My company is very ill now. The situation is very critical and chronic nobody can help. The management has been gone a heck of a long time to decide the most effective way to save the company. Yet they still found that VSS (Voluntary Separation Scheme) is still the best.

Last Friday we are all shocked to be called to a 'briefing' by our beloved CEO, Dr. Lackana. At first, i thought she just want to say something minor-suprise such as "This year we are not giving you any bonus..." or " There's no increment for your salary for the next financial year.." or sumthing like that. But instead, to our suprise, what comes out from her mouth is something i have never expected to hear from this company.

In her Thai-tongued English, i saw this down to earth, and kind-hearted lady say " After so many months thinking, and doing analysis of CMSB business, and discussion with management team and shareholders, i have to make this tough decision. I have not sleep for many days, thinking of this, but i am very sorry to say that, our Sales Department need to be terminated immediately. We will still trying to help you (Sales people) to find another job, or you may also try your luck in other business. I am very sorry but i hope that everybody can accept this decision in order to save CMSB.Thank you."

Luckily, after her hard-to-accept-speech, nobody belched out obscenities or whatnot. I think because most of the operators do not understand English, so the situation remained calm.If not, i can imagine that we could see boots and chairs flying around in the room.While for the execs (which definitely understand what is happening), we are all clueless.

I also dont know what to say. And i am not sure if am actually lucky, or had made the right decision to resign earlier. In fact, i can already smell the bankruptcy of this company before they announce it (well, this is what a daughter of a businessman should foresee, rite? Muahahaha...). I might be lucky to run away from this miserable, but i dont know what is happening in front.Hopefully i can get a new and better job soonest (everybody pray for me, please).And i really hope that i can achieved the so called "work satisfaction" in the next career move.

Hopefully dapat kerja yang best, dan setimpal dengan bayaran.Actually, I am not so lust after the wealth and riches. I dont mind wearing trousers from Carrefour, shirts from Giant, and panties from Tesco. I dont need a Guess handbag, nor MNG skirts.Only when it comes to shoes, i just wanna be more carefull (you should love your feets anyway, they are doing the heaviest job.) For me, driving a Proton Wira is not that bad, instead of spending thousands buck monthly for Mazda 6. And I will never ever ask amet to turn our apartment to a fully-furnished house in a blink. So far, i dont mind sleeping on single bed, eating on computer table, and cooking on shoes rack.As long as he loves me to the fullest of his heart, it is already more than enough.(But amet, bear in mind - dont take chance of this statement.i will still buy some furnitures when i have money)

Walaupun aku tak kepingin bangat mahu hidup dalam serba kemewahan, tapi duit tetap merupakan satu keperluan.Itu adalah kenyataan.

WOMAN IS MIRRACLE

Selama 25 tahun i live as a female, i have never overcome any menstrual problem except period pain. Mestrual cycle aku memang selalunya lancar dan tak ada masalah. And i am truely happy as i always get my period on budgeted time - so that i can plan my activities very well.

Menstrual cycle, in general, can affect emotions, as well as physical behaviour and characters. Some female may turn to be very angry all the time, may be sad, or some may be too happy or excited (jarang berlaku - mungkin gila meroyan).

For me, kalau ada orang kacau,aku akan cepat marah. Dan kalau ada orang marah, aku akan cepat sedih. It mix up and it is normal for THAT particular time (only).

Akan tetapi, pada 2 hari yg lalu, sesuatu yg luar biasa and abnormal happened. Well, i already have my period on 18 July and the flow was normal (quite heavy on the first few days) and it stopped on about 24 July. Everything seems like very normal.

But suddenly on 1 Aug, i realized that there's blood on my pantyliner.At first i thought it was just the leftover and maybe my body is trying to clean it out. So i just wash it away.

However on the next day, setelah aku sampai kat ofis, i still found that my vagina is still bleeding. I was thinking of seeing a physician, but i have lots of things to be done. So tungu punya tunggu sampai ke petang, tengok-tengok boss aku pulak panggil masuk meeting sampai la pukul 6.30. So, instead of going to see doctor, aku balik umah.

Sampai umah, aku terus tidur, rasa mcm malas la pulak nak pi klinik.Tapi tak lama pastu, aku rasa mcm senak-senak. Aku dah tak sedap hati, terus ajak amet p klinik. Cari punya cari semua klinik panel aku dah tutup. Cuma ada satu yg buka, tp aku tak suka klinik tu sbb doctor dia ganas (Kalau dia nak cucuk, dia cucuk je terus).

So aku pun balik umah and thinking of seeing the doctor keesokan hari. Tetapi alangkah terkejutnya apabila aku balik umah, found out that it is still bleeding and it is much more than before.
Aku terus p mandi sebab mengikut petua orang tua-tua, kalau kita mandi basahkan kepala waktu malam dengan air sejuk, darah akan berhenti.

The next day i wake up, found that the bleeding had stopped! Leganya..so terus siap-siap pi kerja dengan hati yg girang sekali..
Tetapi kegirangan itu tidak lama as it started again when i reach office. Oh shiittt!!!

Terus p klinik.Jumpa dgn Dr. Sulaiman - he's very caring, dan percakapan dia sudah cukup membuatkan org yg sakit terus sihat.

Dr. S : Yes Yus, what happened to you? Demam ke?

Aku : No, errr..actually..err i'm having..er this kind of...errr....vaginal bleeding...

Dr. S: Oh, when is you last period? Start and off?

Aku : 17 July until 24th.

Dr. S : Hmm ok..let me see...Oh..yesterday is your most fertile day, i mean it's your ovulation day.

Aku : Yes, i know. Actually i am doing my menstrual charting as well...

Dr. S : So, it is a little bit abnormal to have bleeding in these fertile days.

Aku : Yaaa..and that's why it makes me worry...

Dr. S : You said you are charting your menstrual cycle - are you planning for pregancy?

Aku : I dont know. I am not really planning. If ada, ok, if not also ok.

Dr. S : Hmm actually vaginal bleeding may be caused by few reasons -hormone imbalance, or luka semasa intercourse,or may be because of pregnancy.

Aku : Is it dangerous? I am so worry about this.

Dr. S : No, actually it is not dangerous. But it's important to know the cause. If it is because of hormone, i will give you HRT. Kalau luka, it will heal by itself. But now, we cannot test if you are pregnant or not. Normally it will take 7 to 10 days after ovulation day to detect pregnancy. Maybe you can come back after one week to do urine test. But in my oppinion, your possiblity is quite low because you are just married, right? So maybe it is because of hormone imbalance - sebab you just married and your life style may be changed.

Aku : Yes, i also think so. It's impossible to get pregnant at this moment (anyway i am not sure if i am ready to be a mother). Unless it's a God will.

Dr. S : Yes, it's true. So i will give you some medicine - it will help to contract your uterus so that the bleeding may stop. If not, you need to come back and see me, ok?

Aku : Ok, thanks doc.

So that's it.

Anyway perasaan aku masih bercampur baur - ada jugak rasa happy. tapi takut. tapi excited. macam-macam lah. So keep watching for the next cycle. It's fun to be a woman - there's a lot of things to explore!