:: WINNIE THE POOH ::
Last nite was a very great pleasure when Siti suddenly give me a suprise invitation to watch Disney on Live : Winnie the Pooh & Friends Musical concert. Thanx to Kamal for the most pricey tickets.Yeayyy!!!!

Actually aku & kak ngah selalu cakap "Bila laa kita nak dapat pi tengok show ni? Mahainya tiket dia...Mesti sampai bila-bila pun tak mampu nak pi.." But at last, God answered our questions - We was there. Alhamdulillah...

As usual,kalau keluar reramai ni mesti ada saja benda nak ngumpat.We actually never expect that a BIG show like this, the audience are called "customer".Masa nak masuk parking tu, mamat yg jaga parking tu tanya "You all ni customer ke?Kalau customer parking kat sebelah sana ye". And we all like..tercengang, terbeliak,terkelu lidah berkata. And aku pun terjawab "Err..actually kitorang ni nak datang tengok concert Pooh. Kira customer ker tuh?" And confidently the mamat said,sambil senyum-senyum sinis "Ha ah jadi you all ni customer la".
Gulllpppp? Err..anyway, ok....????? Put that in your mind - customer -

Well, i know that my English is not that good to begin with but hey, I'm better than some people who got the chance to further their study in English-speaking-country but yet still have the proficiency of a Tadika Kemas kids. I mean gorsh.. you think the government send you to far far away country to makan angin only is it?There are still lots of people want to be there, me for instance. But you know laa... me not very clever. Went to local university only. Play play some more. I know you also play play there, fail papers here and there but who knows? You come back, people look at your resume, "Waaah, oversea graduate la... mesti can speak English very well ni...". Uwwekkk...that just make me puke! Just wait until i show you my A-Grade TESL thesis ok (if chosen to be registered).Hahahahaha...
Well, Siti said that's a wedding gift for me. Heheheh..Tenkiu,tenkiu...

And last nite after the Pooh show, Boyot had also ask me and amet to lepak kedai mamak together-gether like we used to do before.and he also mentioned that this will be the last lepak before we change status.

While tonite, they (Siti, Rose, Cik Mah, Wa & maybe Bee) are coming to visit my pigeon-hole-size-apartment. As to celebrate the guests, i will cook a lavish dishes they always desired to have - LAKSA. They said that this is their first & last visit before i get married. Heheheh..now seems like everybody is paying me the last - thing - before - i - get - married - things.(It's like i only have 7 days to live because of a brain cancer or something like that huh?) Hehehe...anyway,it is very interesting and exciting! You guys really turn my mood to colourful emotions...

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Few days before, received an unsuspected call from a cousin. He's going to give sponsorship for my wedding photography (He's in journalism anyway).It is very good to hear such news.

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7 days to go. I just counting by myself,and suddenly realise that tomorrow will be the last Saturday for me to enjoy my "Cik Yue" title.While the next Saturday i will be called "Cuk" - sebab selalu kena cucuk (lawak bangang n lucah ini adalah SMS dari seorang ex-ofismate aku beberapa hari yg lalu).
Talking about this, suddenly i feel a little bit nervous. Actually, the feeling should be on behalf of amet.We always heard that before the holy matrimony, the Tok Kadi always ask that simply-killing-questions to the bridegroom. So now, i had ask amet to be very well prepared (baca balik semua buku-buku text masa sekolah dulu) or otherwise he will be cold-sweating in the air-conditioned mosque.
Well, the questions are deadly simple we used to learn in primary school. But heck,as growing older, most of us just ignore about it.Now, in this last 7 days, we are digging for the scattered infos in our own memories.Teruknyaaa... : (

Kekadang bila ingat balik, macamana la boleh lulus ujian PAFA dulu? Dan macamana la pulak sekarang nih dah tak ingat apa langsung?

Kalau nak tau if we are still competent enough, try to answer these questions (without looking at your Form 3 text book, ok?)
1. Rukun Islam - ada berapa? Sebutkan semuanya.
2. Rukun Iman - ada berapa? Sebutkan semuanya.
3. Cuba mengucap dua kalimah syahadah serta berikan makna lengkapnya.
4. Rukun Nikah - ada berapa? Sebutkan semuanya.
5. Apakah itu Talak? Khulu'? Fasakh? Ilak? Rujuk? Eddah?

Hah, tu cuma 5 soalan basic.Kalau berani, cubalah jawab. Hah jawab...jawab...

CRAZY = INSANE = NUTS


Just came back from Singapore for 3 days meeting. well it supposed to be a Regional R&D meeting but at last the conference room turned to be the battle of war.since many of the local R&D teams - from Malaysia, Thailand, Taiwan, China and Hong Kong are totally not satisfied of what regional team commanded us to do.

and for me, the situation just could be added up in my positive list of resigning.everyday after the session ends, i just went back to my room, crying and crying alone. i have used up all the notepad provided in the hotel room to draft the best ever resignation letter.hahahaha....(Yue is laughing crazily)

And until today, at the moment i am typing out this entry, there are still emails flying around into my inbox,discussing about that Confusing-Standard-Operating-Procedure. I also have no idea how they can call this a "Standard".Hahahaha....(They are driving me crazy again)

Arghhh lets just forget about the tough work. No matter how, the resignation notice is now ready to be tendered. I only need to wait until the company clear up my travelling claims (which cost about RM3K - i will not simply resign without getting all this money back to my account first,of course!!!). And i really hope that the first week of July is the latest to submit.

Well, it has been few weeks i didn't see Amet.Just talking thru the phone is not enough to express how i miss you so much dear..Ouhhh..for the situation like this, while my head is ding-dong ding-dong thinking for the next business plan, or if not, finding another new job, i really need your smelly armpit...aahhh..it's only you who knows how i love to smell it...hahahahaha...(crazy crazy crazy)

Now i feel like we both are just like a business partner - talk thru the phone,communicate via emails & sms,and make a one-week appointment to see each other (only if need be.)
Hhuuhhh...

As for the wedding preparation, what i can see now is, amet is the one more excited than me - He already send invitation cards to his friends,ex-skoolmates,ex-colleauges and even requested for the wedding gifts (teruklaa budak laki-laki nih..). While my cards are still in the un-opened box.

Anyway, when he's telling me that some of them are giving us options whether to have a refrigerator or a washing machine - that is the part that excite me too. I really need a washing machine please.Thank you.Hahahaha....
(Humm..maybe its good enuff if my girlfrens give me a fridge.dont u think it's a good match anyway, girls? )

And we also got sponsored for a hairdressing (thanks to abg boyot) - eventhough i will not be a freehair bride, but since it is FOC,just grab the opp to do whatever style i want la kan.but maybe i am not so keen to go for this - fikir dululah.

Nothing much can make me draw a sincere smile on my face for the time being.If people make a very tickle-you-until-you-pee jokes pun, i have to force myself to smile a little bit.My jaws cramp and paralyse because of the s-t-r-e-s-s- I cant laugh anymore.

Except, laughing crazily....Muahahahahahhahaha...

Hatiku sedih,dadaku pedih.

aku tahu aku buat muka masam tadi,dia akan mengata
aku tahu,aku buat diam kering macam tunggul kayu mati tadi,dia akan mengata.
aku tak kisah.dia nak kata?nak merajuk?nak mengadu pada mak dia?nak mengumpat aku dekat boyfriend dia?silakan...

memang orang selalu kenal aku sebagai "Yue Yang Lemah Lembut".memang aku lembut.aku tak pandai marah.puas Amet mengajar aku untuk menjadi seorang pemarah,pembalas,penjahat.tapi aku tak boleh.paling lama aku jadik garang pun 15 minit.pastu cool balik.
paling aku marah pun,aku akan cuba sedaya upaya menegur orang itu dengan cara yang paaling lembut.
paling aku nak marah pun,aku akan jerit kuat-kuat pada Amet,bukannya pada orang yg buat aku marah itu.

Oh sedihnya...Kenapalah dia tak boleh faham?

bukankah dia sepatutnya sedar yang tindakannya untuk merajuk dan marah pada ku itu adalah salah?
bukankah dia sepatutnya sedar yang dia sedang menumpang dengan aku?
bukankah sepatutnya dia bersyukur dengan apa yang ada?
bukankah sepatutnya dia berterima kasih pada aku yang memberinya makan,tempat tinggal,kereta (plus minyak) tanpa pernah meminta satu sen bayaran pun?
bukankah dia sepatutnya cuba bertolak ansur ketika keadaan sesak dan memaksa?
bukankah dia sepatutnya cuba memahami bagaimana aku cuba berkorban untuk memberikan yang secukupnya pada dia?
tidakkah dia dapat melihat semua itu?

Kalau ikutkan hati,mau saja aku halau dia balik.pergi berambus jauh-jauh.sekarang aku faham apa yg ibu selalu adukan pada aku.sekarang aku dapat berkongsi rasa dengan ibu.aku betul-betul faham.tp aku masih x faham dengan perangai dia...

Ya Allah, percepatkanlah peredaran masa, agar dia balik ke tempat asalnya,dengan segera.

CARI KERJA

Aku dah betoi-betoi tak tahan!!! Aku betoi-betoi nak berhenti kerja!!! Aku nak berhenti !!!! Aku tak kira!!! Aku dah mula kumpul segala macam jenis iklan yg aku nampak.

Tak kira apa kerja sekalipun aku nak mintak semua (kecuali kerja social esscort / waitress kat pub/ disco). Dari admin exec, admin assistant, secretary, beautician (yg amat aku harapkan tp very low possiblity nak dapat), SPA assistant (juga yg sgt aku minati), sampailah ke Asistant Manager. semua aku mintak. asalkan aku dapat keluaq dari kilang ayam busuk nih dengan segera!!!

Now, it seems like i focus more on job searching instead of thinking of my wedding ceremony. Eventhough akad nikah is the most important & big part in my life, i feel like i am not really in the mood right now. I just feel like "Hmmm...it's just a wedding afterall...".

Well, i know, with the wedding 25 days away, this is not what i'm supposed to say.But sorry, i have no time to be dreamy of marriage as 85% of my brain is thinking of looking a new job for myself.

Oouuhhhh...why i didn't chose to be in any Sekolah Teknik after the PMR? Why i chose UM to study? Why i didn't go to any Sekolah Jururawat? Or got myself registered in any Beauty Therapist Training Programme?

Now, it's too late to regret what i have chosen. Oouuwww....

KPLI

Start looking for info like..errmm....

1. So you are a teacher wannabe?
2. What are the advantage & disadvantage of being a teacher?
3. What is it about : Being A Teacher
4. There is more to being a teacher than you might think.

Looks like i really start preparing for a BIG change in life huh?

Are Yue sure?

I was on fake MC last Monday (so jujur, right?). I woke up in the Monday morning with Monday blues - feeling so grumpy. My eyes was so heavy i cant open it. I told my mom (she was here visiting my new apartment) "Bu, cek takmo pi keja la hari ni.Tak larat la.." And she just "Ikut suka la. Jangan kena marah dengan bos sudah.."

So, aku called boss and told her that i cant go to work today because i am very ill. i called her at 7.00 a.m. in the morning, ok..

Memang benar kata orang, mulut ibu tu masin...Yesterday aku memang kena marah dengan boss. Padan muka aku.Tapi apa plak nak marah-marah orang ambik MC kan? I know it was fake, but what if aku betul-betul sakit?

Lagipun sejak bermula tahun 2006 ni, dah setengah tahun berlalu, sekali pun aku tak pernah ambik MC lagi.Kalau setakat demam pening sikit-sikit tu, aku akan gagah perkasakan diri jugak pegi keja. Tahun lepas pun aku cuma ambik MC beberapa hari ja, tak sampai 50% pun daripada jumlah yang diperuntukkan. I have been so committed all the while. So takkan la kerana satu MC dalam masa setengah ni bleh jadik issue? Lagi pun, dalam dok MC tu aku still lagi make few calls (regarding work) - aku tak lupa tanggungjawab.

Balik-balik bila aku sampai ofis semalam, bukak email dari boss aku - "Even if you are sick you must take the responsibility to make the necessary re-arrangement of any appointment made on that day, or at least call and inform me about it!! "

I dont understand why i still receive such blame? I did called her VERY EARLY in the morning, i have called people and make re-arrangement (lagipun this appointment is not very important, just a so-so only lah). So what else? Macam ni baik aku pi keja...Kalaulah masa tu aku memang betoi-betoi sakit nak mampos, agaknya memang aku dah mamposs...

Kadang-kadang aku rasa sangat enjoy keja kat sini. But when this kind of thing happens - tidak berperikemanusiaan, i feel like i really want to be a....err..... teacher!!!
GERAMNNYAAA!!!!